Then, without a backward glance, she turned and stalked toward her private elevator. She focused on walking steadily, on keeping her head high even though her eyes stung with tears of humiliation. She jabbed the elevator button and stepped inside when the door opened, not waiting for Moros to follow.
She was not surprised to step out of the elevator and find him leaning casually against her desk, looking suave and smug and so distractingly handsome that she had the sudden and ridiculous urge to throw something at him. She closed her eyes for a moment, reminding herself that emotionality was the enemy. “In the future, I would appreciate it if you would not intrude on Psychopomps board meetings,” she said.
“Even when it saves you from losing your job?” He reached up and loosened the knot in his scarlet tie. “Come now—I thought you respected results.”
“Results? We have another meeting in twenty-four hours, and you just sent my board away to angrily conspire in the meantime.
Without consulting me first
.”
He waved away the complaint with his gloved hand. “They’re easily manipulated, ready to turn on each other whenever it becomes convenient, just like they turned on you. I would have thought you’d be happy for the interruption.”
“You undermined me.”
His lazy smile faded. “I was trying to do the opposite.”
“Because you didn’t think more than one step ahead.” She walked to her desk and glanced down at the screen embedded in its surface, currently streaming performance updates from financial markets around the world. “The board already believed me to be weak. You just bolstered that belief by swooping down to rescue me.”
He chuckled, and the sound vibrated along her limbs, making her feel even more unsteady. “Are you in need of rescue, Aislin?”
“No,” she said, hating the tremor in her voice.
He stood on the other side of her desk, and she fought to meet his eyes. “You underestimate your power,” he said quietly.
“I’ve told you before—don’t patronize me.”
He sighed. “It’s merely an observation, Aislin, informed by many years of working with your predecessors.”
She almost laughed.
Many years.
More like two thousand. “I am realistic, Jason. And realism leads to caution. Do not mistake that for a lack of confidence.” And then she betrayed herself by looking away, too afraid he would see exactly how uncertain she was.
“Very well.” His voice was low, deep and rich. “You don’t underestimate yourself. You underestimate my need for your help.”
She raised her head and found him staring out the window at the skyline of the city. “Has something happened?”
“Maybe.” He gave her a sidelong glance. “First, I need to hear your answer. I need to know if we are to be allies.”
Or enemies.
She glanced at his hands, clad in black leather, so feared and notorious for the pain their simple touch could cause. He coaxed the future out of people; he could know their secrets with a brush of his fingers. Her little sister had been one of his victims but had somehow survived it. Aislin had heard stories, though, of those who weren’t so lucky, those who had been driven mad as the weight of the years ahead crushed them. And if he could cause that much suffering with a mere touch, what else could he do? He was death. He led an army of killers. If she were to turn against him, she would have to do it very, very carefully.
But as her gaze slid up his body and settled on his face, she felt moved to help him instead. “Make me understand the threat,” she said slowly. “If you want me as an ally, I need to know everything you do.”
That lazy smile returned, and Aislin huffed with exasperation. “Just tell me the basics, then, without the mocking commentary.”
He laughed, his canines catching the light. “How well you know me.”
She wasn’t sure she did—but she couldn’t remember a time when she hadn’t been fascinated with him, first uncritically and then begrudgingly, and she couldn’t recall a time when he’d looked as tired as he did now. “What is Chaos, really?” she asked.
“He is the enemy of fate.” Moros strode to one of the couches in her sitting area and settled himself on it, gracefully unbuttoning his suitcoat. Then he spread his arms along the back of the sofa and began tapping his fingers rhythmically.
As she took a seat across from him, she became keenly aware that his fingertips were striking the cushions in time with the beat of her own heart. There was a full ten feet between them, but suddenly it felt much smaller. “Why had I never heard of Chaos before Rylan appeared in this office a few days ago to taunt us?”
“Because Chaos was vanquished ages ago—by my mother.”
“Your mother . . . Nyx.” Aislin’s father had told her of Moros’s origins, conceived from his mother’s will alone, born fully grown. “How did she defeat him?”
Moros’s stare was an intrusion she felt along her spine, deep in her belly. It was as if he was trying to dismantle her with his gaze, to unravel every secret thought. “She used an ancient weapon.” His mouth opened, and it seemed like the words were poised on his tongue. But then he focused his attention on the darkness outside the window. “It is long since lost.”
Frustration flared hot in her chest. “You’re holding back.”
He kept his attention on the night. “When the first of the Servants of Fate came into the world, our existence kept Chaos, one of the original, primordial gods, in deep sleep. He cannot rule while I walk the planet, while my sisters weave the fabric of destiny, while we keep watch over the order of things. But if we are defeated, he will rise, and he will bring total destruction in his wake. The bombings here in Boston over the last week would be just a tiny ripple compared to what he will inflict. Cities and countries will fall. Civilization will collapse. No one will be safe.”
Aislin’s stomach churned. “And us?”
“You cannot hope to maintain your grip on power, not that it would matter anyway. If I perish, the Kere will be subject to the will of the first being to seize their souls. They could fall into the hands of the enemy.”
“You said you had safeguarded their souls.”
“I have done what I can, Aislin, but I am not all powerful.” For a moment, his face fell, and Aislin read the desolation in his unfocused stare.
She had the urge to kneel beside him and smooth his worry lines with her fingertip. The sensation was so sudden, so compelling, that it pulled her to the edge of her seat before she managed to stop herself. “Are you all right, Jason?” she asked quietly.
He turned from the window. “Am I . . .
all right
?”
She could feel the blush creeping up from her chest, threatening to stain her pale skin. “I-I just meant, well, since the fabric is unraveling, I wondered if you felt it. If it made you feel sick, or weak.”
“Oh.” He was silent just long enough to make her heart pound. “I am as strong as I need to be, as always.”
His cockiness disrupted whatever moment they might have shared. “What do you propose we do next?” she asked. “We have seventy-two hours until our summit with the Keepers, my board is in rebellion, and your sister and my brother are off somewhere, plotting to bring us down. Now might be the time to try to acquire that ancient weapon you mentioned.”
He smiled, and it made her breath catch. It wasn’t the calculating smile he so often wore, or the mocking one that made her blood boil. This was open and shocking in its beauty. “You make it sound very simple.”
“If I focus on the magnitude of what we’re facing, I’ll collapse under its weight,” she admitted.
His smile disappeared. “I believe I know what you mean.” He was silent for a second, peering at her across the distance between them. Once again, Aislin wanted to reach across it, to stretch out her hand and risk the fear that he wouldn’t reach back, simply because it felt so truthful.
You can’t understand him,
Patrick Ferry had told her once.
He’s beyond us. But he reveals his character in his actions, if you take the time to look.
She was looking now. And having trouble looking away. “I’ve frozen Rylan’s funds, for what it’s worth. And I tried to warn the board of what he’s become, in case he visits any of them.”
“They don’t hold the power, so they won’t hold his interest. Make sure your personal security detail is alert, though, hmm?”
“I already have.”
He stood up. “Well, I have a little errand to run. But first I need to check in with my sisters.” He moved toward her, getting close enough for the temperature around her to rise. “Aislin, I believe Eris is not the only one of my siblings working against me. Apate—lies—and Nemesis—vengeance—are probably helping her.”
“I’m sorry.” She knew the sting of family betrayal.
“We’ve been playing defense since the beginning of this fight, and it’s time to take the offensive.”
“Agreed. What do you need me to do?”
“Decide which of your Ferrys you trust. Tell them what is happening and warn them of Rylan’s betrayal. Have them keep you apprised of any unusual behavior from my Kere and let me know immediately if you have news. And do what you do best, my dear.”
Her eyebrows rose.
He leaned forward. “Vanquish your enemies.”
Aislin’s heart skipped. He was right. She had a coalition to form and board members to corral. “I’ll see to it.”
His grin returned as he offered his hand. “Allies?”
This was it, her point of no return. If he was lulling her into providing her cooperation just so he could stab her in the back in front of the Keepers, she was stepping right into his trap. But she didn’t believe it was ruse; she’d seen the desperation and loneliness in those cold gray eyes.
But she also knew he wasn’t telling her everything. And if he was planning to betray her, she would fight back with every ounce of cunning she possessed.
She slid her palm along his, only a thin layer of leather between them, their fingers curving, their grips tight. “Allies.”
He squeezed her hand. “You’ll see me again soon.” And then he disappeared.
Aislin looked down at her fingers, still warm from his, hoping she hadn’t just sealed her own doom. Then she pulled her phone from her pocket as it buzzed.
It was Cavan, her ambassador to the Lucinae, the beings responsible for transporting new souls from the Spring of Life into the human realm. His sculpted face appeared on her screen as she touched his name. “Aislin,” he said in a tight voice. “Can I schedule a meeting with you for this week?”
“This week is rather inconvenient. Can’t it wait until our monthly meeting?”
He shook his head, and from the way his eyes darted to the side, she could tell he wasn’t alone. “I really have to talk to you about something.”
Her heart knocked against her ribs as she tapped out a text, one she hoped his companion couldn’t see.
Are you safe?
As soon as he read it, he laughed, but it was strained. “Yes. That’s not an issue.” His eyes met hers again. “But I’d be grateful if you’d make time.”
Cavan was so dependably tactful, so calm and courteous even under pressure, that she wondered what could make him this jittery. “I’ll tell Walter to make room on my schedule,” she said. “He’ll call you with a time.”
Her ambassador gave her a relieved smile, even as his eyes flicked to the side once more. Aislin’s fingers curled around the phone. “And will you be coming to this meeting alone?”
“Oh—yes. I’ll be alone.” His jaw tightened. “I should go. I don’t want to take up more of your time. But I’ll see you very soon—and thank you.” His handsome face disappeared from her screen.
Aislin frowned as she slipped the phone back into her pocket. One more thing to add to her list of worries. Maybe it was good they would be meeting in the next few days—she could tell Cavan about Moros’s siblings, a warning he could take to the Lucinae. But she would also be on her guard; after what had happened with Trevor, the Ker who infiltrated Psychopomps and helped Rylan escape, she needed to be ready for anything.
“Ms. Ferry?”
Aislin turned to see the wide-eyed face of one of her guards, a distant cousin, peering at her from the Veil through the circular window of his Scope. “What’s wrong?”
He opened his mouth to speak, then let out a wrenching scream, his Scope falling from his hands and landing, still open, on the floor.
Aislin staggered back as Rylan appeared in front of her, his fingers dripping with blood. He leaned over, picked up the guard’s Scope, compacted it, and tossed it. The disk landed on her desk and spun on its edge.
“Hello, Aislin,” her brother said, casually wiping his bloody hands on the upholstery of a nearby chair. “I thought it was time we had a talk, just the two of us.”
Sarah Fine’s
Fated
is available Fall 2015 from 47North
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
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o my editor, Leslie “Lam” Miller: Without you, this book never could have become what I wanted and needed it to be. Thank you for your honesty, your patience, and your willingness to push me until I made you believe in the story and the characters. The someday-drinks will be on me, by the way. Now it’s in writing. So there.
So much gratitude goes to the amazing team at 47North. Thanks to Jason Kirk for shepherding the book from the start, and to Britt Rogers, Justin Golenbock, Ben Smith, and so many others for making sure this series has the visibility it needs to reach its audience. I feel so fortunate to have all of you on my side. Thanks also to Elizabeth Johnson, my awesome copyeditor, for fabulous attention to detail and the occasional saucy comment in the margins. Cliff Nielsen gets my deep appreciation for designing me such amazing covers.
My agent, Kathleen Ortiz, gets credit for holding me together. We’re way past color-coded schedules, KO, but you still help me stay on the rails, which is no easy feat. I’m also grateful to the staff at New Leaf, including Danielle Barthel, Jaida Temperly, Dave Caccavo, Pouya Shahbazian, and Joanna Volpe, for providing excellent behind-the-scenes support.
A major thank-you goes to Paul Block, who went over and above to make sure I could write this book while staying connected to my other professional role. More thanks go to Catherine Allen, for captaining the ship, and Casey, Chris, Kristal, Bethany, Erica, Anne-Marie, Yerissa, and the entire staff of CCBS for being a fabulous group of people to work with.
Lydia Kang: What to say? Thank you so much for lending your biomedical expertise (and I fully acknowledge that any immunological ridiculousness in this story is my error and mine alone). But beyond that, and even more importantly, thank you for being a dear friend. Thanks also to Jaime Loren for beta-reading at the speed of light, and to Virginia Boecker for cheering me on.
Mom and Dad, thank you for Wednesday morning calls and constant support. Cathryn and Robin, I am so lucky to have you as my sisters. Asher and Alma, you delight me.
And to my readers, thank you for existing. I’ll try to keep telling stories that are worthy of you.