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Authors: Tim Vicary

Cat and Mouse (22 page)

‘Excuse me, Mr Becket, could you say a few words?’

‘Have you heard anything from your wife, sir?’

‘Is it true that you are going to resign from Parliament?’

He reached the car door and turned, his hand held up firmly. She remembered he had worn a wedding ring once. No longer. It chafed his skin, he had said.

‘I'm sorry, gentlemen. I have nothing to say — no comment whatsoever. I am going to make a statement in the House; you can come and listen to me there.’

‘Hello, Jonathan.’

‘What?’ He was within a yard of her now and had still noticed nothing. She had spoken so quietly, she thought her voice might have gone unheard. He glanced at her, almost irritably she thought — a strange woman among the reporters. Perhaps she shouldn't have come.

Then he recognised her and the smile transformed him. It was all right, he was pleased to see her. It was just as she remembered it. Radiant, warming her with its power. But she saw, too, the lines of strain around the eyes, the pallor under the skin.

‘Deborah!
Great Scot! How did you get here?’

‘By train, of course, Johnny. How do you think?’

He bent forward and kissed her, gently, on the cheek. His beard brushed against her softly, like a wisp of horsehair. As though the reporters, the men around them, did not exist. A family reunion. His sister-in-law, come up to town.

‘But why are you here now, of all times? Do you know what's happened? Sarah . . .’

‘Is in prison again. I know. Jonathan, I have come to be of help, if I can.’

He took her hand in his and held her fingers lightly, without pressure. If only Charles could behave like this, she thought. But then, Jonathan had always had good manners, even as a young man.

‘Thank you, Deborah, that's kind. How very like you. But my dear, you must be tired. And I am off to speak in the House, about this wretched business.’

‘About Sarah, you mean?’

‘Yes.’ She saw how drawn he looked, anxious, now that the smile had gone. 'Some members will laugh, no doubt, but mostly they will pity me, and that is the worst. But no matter, she has forced me into it. Some things have to be said. If you go inside, my butler Reeves will take care of you.'

Deborah looked at the house, confused. She hadn't come all this way to hide in there, alone.

‘No, let me come with you! Please, Jonathan — I am not tired and I would like to hear what you say!’

He was pleased, she could tell that. He thought for a moment, then stood back and handed her into the car. ‘Yes, why not? I suppose I can get you into the Ladies' Gallery. Come, and welcome.’

It was a nightmare. No one could survive six months of this, Sarah thought. No one.

Lots of women have.

It was true. She remembered reading how Sylvia Pankhurst had been force-fed for five months, how dozens of other nameless women had endured it, how Emily Davison had thrown herself over the top balcony of a prison walkway in protest against forced feeding.

Emily Davison. She had been killed later, catching hold of the King's horse in the Derby, in protest against the government's treatment of Mrs Pankhurst. She hadn't just endured, she'd died for the cause.

Up till now, Sarah knew, Mrs Pankhurst herself had not been forcibly fed. She had been tortured by the government's alternative, the Cat and Mouse Act. Sarah had thought that was what would happen to her, too, but perhaps government policy had changed. Perhaps Mrs Pankhurst was being forcibly fed here now, in the same prison as her.

Sarah had no way of knowing.

Sarah only knew that she had been force fed again, twice, and she had never felt so dirty or frightened or helpless in her life.

She had no way out. Only rarely was she allowed out of the cell, and she met no one. Her only exercise was to hobble from window to door, and back again. Her hands shook, her throat was scraped raw by the tube, her teeth battered by the gag, her dress stained by vomit.

And this could go on for six months.

She wondered if anyone outside knew, if even Jonathan knew what was happening to her. Probably not. Probably he was still blithely going to visit his whore. Could a man do that? Life is so unfair, she thought, it is a cruel joke. Not only is society organised to serve the needs of men, they are also born with a greater need for sex than us, and a lesser need for love. Perhaps they can divorce the two. How could God make a world like that?

Is that what my husband is really like?

He wasn't once. People said we were a handsome couple. Women admired him, not just because of his appearance but because he was kind, sympathetic, understanding. He used to listen to people, make them laugh. I remember once Alice Watson said to me: you are a lucky woman, Mrs Becket, to have a husband like that, so distinguished and good-mannered. Who even votes for women's suffrage in Parliament. There are so many ladies whose husbands let them down and I have seen them destroyed by it . . .

And then I get a letter from a prostitute telling me to keep suffragetes away from Dr Armstrong because
my husband gets the same treatment as other men
and I see him going into Armstrong's house and not come out. So I have the information to destroy this foul pimp and I daren't use it because it would destroy my fine distinguished well-mannered husband at the same time . . .

A terrible thought struck Sarah, so sudden and painful that she flushed, and got up to walk up and down the tiny cell to calm herself.
What if Mrs Watson and the other women in the movement knew all about Jonathan? If they knew, but didn't tell me, to spare my feelings because I am his wife?

If that was true, she thought, then I would be an embarrassment to the whole movement. Perhaps they want to expose this Dr Armstrong and his wretched prostitution racket but are holding back because my husband is one of his customers. So they have done nothing about it and the evil goes on.

Would they do that?

They might. Mrs Watson is a kind sensitive woman and so are most of the others. They might easily hold back from something that might hurt me because they thought I was still weak from last time in prison, and they thought it might break my heart.

Oh God! Perhaps I have embarrassed them all.

The doctor and the wardresses came once a day with their trolley. Each time they asked her, before they began, if she would agree to eat. Each time she refused, as vehemently as she could. Today, for the first time, she experienced the torture as a punishment, as though it were in some way deserved for her own foolishness.

And yet it is Jonathan who is at fault, she thought later, as she lay sore and trembling on her vomit-stained bed. Why should I blame myself? That is just another wretched male trick. I shouldn't have just scratched him in those police cells, I should really have torn his eyes out.

Those pale blue eyes I used to love. I couldn't do that, I'm not a monster. He is. I wish he loved me. Why can't I think clearly any more?

If only I knew someone, she thought. If only I had a friend. Someone to talk to, who could help me get my thoughts in order. Once she had looked out of the window and seen other prisoners, subdued, walking in a ring. At least, she assumed that was what it was. The exercise yard was blocked from her view by a wing of the prison that jutted out, and she could only see a couple of square yards of gravel. Every few seconds a different woman in a grey, arrow-striped prison dress had shuffled into view, head bowed, hands clasped in front of her, and then disappeared. None had looked up. Sarah had been taken out for exercise like that once or twice in her first prison sentence, before she had begun her hunger strike. Women walked in a ring for the allotted time, in silence. No one was allowed to speak or look at the others.

Nonetheless, it was in the open air. This time, because Sarah refused to eat, she was denied even that.

‘Slops out, now! Hurry it up!’

‘What? I'm sorry, I don't . . .’

The heavy wooden cell door opened suddenly, almost striking Sarah in the face as she staggered on her endless walk to the window and back again. A wardress stood in the doorway, the same sturdy, slab-faced young woman who had bathed her on the first day. She had her hands on her hips and a big bunch of keys at her belt. The one whom Sarah had thought of as an underservant, a coalheaver. She scowled at Sarah.

‘Time to slop out, yer ladyship! Pick up the bucket from under the loo, take it down the corridor and pour it away. You know the routine. This is a clean place, 'Olloway!’

‘Oh, yes, I know.’ The intrusion, after so many hours of solitude, was devastating. Sarah felt herself sway, and hung on to the edge of the door to stop herself falling. Then she sat down, abruptly, on the edge of the bed.

The wardress waited a moment, then sighed, with something that might have been interpreted as sympathy. ‘I see. A little bit tired are we, yer ladyship? You might not need yer mid-morning rest, my dear, if you was to see sense and eat the food provided for you. Or is it all pigswill, to a fine lady like you?’

Sarah's head suddenly hurt terribly, and red spots were moving to and fro before her eyes. She heard the exasperation in the woman's voice, and thought, of course, she probably eats things much worse than this prison food every day. She thinks I'm proud.

‘It's not that,’ she said. ‘There's nothing wrong with the food, it's a protest . . .’

‘D'yer think I don't know that? But you're wasting your time refusing the food, Becket. You're too much of a finickity lady, you've not got the strength for it. Can't even lift a bucket yourself, can you?’

‘Of course I can,’ Sarah said. She thought, that's another thing I've learnt here. At home my maid takes the chamber pot out from under my bed every morning and thinks nothing of it. But why should I expect someone else to do it? ‘It's just that — I've hardly used it, really.’

‘I'm not interested in that. Regulations. It stinks the same, anyhow — even a little bit. Probably you can't smell it, but it does.’

‘Yes, I'm sure. I'm sorry.’ She dragged herself to her feet, fumbled under the wooden seat, and lugged out the bucket. There was a small amount of urine in the bottom. As she walked past the wardress in the doorway, she looked the woman in the face, and was gratified when the narrow disapproving eyes met hers. It was the first time any of the prison staff had looked at her, or talked to her directly, since she had come.

‘Thank you. Miss Harkness, isn't it?’

‘Down the corridor on the right. And no talking to other prisoners.’

‘I wouldn't dream of it.’

For a moment Sarah felt almost happy. The freedom of the long corridor — nearly twenty, thirty paces without stopping or turning — that was a walk to be enjoyed! She went along it like a little girl swinging her bucket on the beach. There were half a dozen doors on either side of the corridor. She wondered if there were any other suffragettes in there. They must be in here somewhere — possibly even Mrs Pankhurst herself. But how could she find out?

She began to sing:

‘And did those feet in ancient time

Walk upon England's pastures green . .
.’

‘That's enough of that!’ The wardress behind her shouted, but Sarah took no notice. What can she do now, anyway, she thought. Anyhow I like singing. If only my voice was not so cracked and feeble!

‘I shall not cease from mental fight

Nor shall my sword sleep in my hand . . .’

She stopped. Her throat hurt abominably, and the wardress's hand was on her shoulder. But as she stopped, another voice took up the refrain. A squeaky, defiant whisper from behind the doors of — the last cell on the right, wasn't it?

‘Until Jerusalem is builded here

In England's green and pleasant land.’

At last! As she poured her bucket down the sluice and rinsed it, Sarah thought: I'm not alone, of course I'm not! There
are
other suffragettes here, probably dozens of them. It's part of our duty to keep in touch — that's how we'll survive!

And so, on her way back down the corridor, she sang again, and tried to stop outside the door of the cell which the singing had come from. But the wardress was ready, and grabbed her arm. All Sarah could do was shout out
‘Votes for Women!’
once before she was dragged away.

The wardress pushed her back into her own cell, and stood in the doorway for a moment, glaring.

‘You only make it worse for yourselves, you know. You break the rules, you don't behave like proper ladies, you lose people's sympathy. I'd like the vote with the rest of you, course I would — but you'll never get it like that!’

Amazed at the woman's admission, Sarah gazed at her for a second, open-mouthed. Then the great door slammed in her face. She lay back on the hard wooden bed, defiantly, smiling to herself for the first time that day.

‘Oh yes we will, Miss Harkness,’ she said. ‘Oh yes, my dear, we will!’

Deborah had not been in the House of Commons before. She was curious, faintly amused at the pomp of it all. So this is what the men want to keep us out of, she thought. Where they deployed ranks of policemen to prevent Mrs Pankhurst presenting a petition to the Prime Minister. Yet if I go in dutifully on the arm of my brother, no one will stop us at all.

Jonathan escorted her past the Master-at-Arms, who bowed with some deference but also with a touch, she thought, of suspicion — did he think she had a bomb in her bag? — and took her to the Ladies Gallery. He found her a seat in the front row.

‘There was a metal grille here until recently,’ he said. ‘But some of Sarah's friends chained themselves to it and the police had to take it away, with the ladies still attached.’ He laughed. ‘It hasn't been replaced. Don't throw anything down on our heads, now, will you?’

Deborah smiled nervously and leaned forward to watch. The whole atmosphere of the place intimidated her. She could not imagine herself, or any woman, doing anything of the kind.

‘Don't worry, Jonathan, I'm on my best behaviour.’

She found the story of the grille amusing. Why on earth had it been there in the first place? Had the men thought their female visitors were best kept locked up, behind bars, like concubines in some Middle Eastern seraglio?

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