Beautiful Redemption (22 page)

Xavier dropped to his knees. “Please. Have mercy….”

Angelus stood over the Keeper, who was almost unrecognizable. “This is the Far Keep. Removed from the Mortal and Caster worlds. The vows are the words I speak, and the laws the ones I choose.” He pushed Xavier’s devastated body over with his boot.

“There is no mercy here.”

The images faded, replaced by the swirling blue haze. For a second, I didn’t move. I felt like I had just witnessed a man’s execution—and he was standing right next to me. What was left of him.

Xavier looked like a monster, but he was a good guy, trying to do the right thing. I shuddered, thinking about what could have happened to Marian if Macon and John hadn’t gotten there in time.

If I hadn’t made a deal with the Lilum.

At least I knew enough not to regret what I did. As bad as things were, they could have been worse. I knew that now.

“I’m sorry, Xavier.” I didn’t know what else to say.

He put the Third Eye back on the shelf. “That was a long time ago. But I thought you should know what they are capable of, since you are so anxious to get inside. If I were you, I would run the other way.”

I leaned against the cold wall of the cavern. “I wish I could.”

“Why do you want so badly to get in there?”

I was sure he couldn’t think of one good reason. For me, one reason was all I needed.

“Someone added a page in
The Caster Chronicles
, and I ended up dead. If I can destroy it—”

Xavier reached his hands toward me as if he was going to grab me by the shoulders and shake some sense into me. But he drew them back before he touched me. “Do you have any idea what they’ll do to you if you’re caught? Look at me, Ethan. I’m one of the lucky ones.”

“Lucky? You?” I shut my mouth before I accidentally made it worse. Was he nuts?

“They’ve done this to others, Mortals and Casters alike. It’s Dark power.” His hands were shaking. “Most of them have gone mad, left to wander the Tunnels or the Otherworld like animals.”

It was exactly the way Link had described the creature that attacked him the night Obidias Trueblood died. But what Link had encountered wasn’t an animal. It was a man, or something that had been a man once—driven crazy as his body was mutated and tortured.

I felt sick.

The walls of the Far Keep were hiding more than
The Caster Chronicles
.

“I don’t have a choice. If I don’t destroy the page, I can’t get back home.” I could almost see his mind spinning. “There has to be a Cast—something in
The Book of Stars
or one of your books that could help me.”

Xavier whipped around, pointing a broken finger inches from my face. “I would never let
anyone
touch one of my books or use them to Cast! Have you learned nothing here?”

I backed up. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said that. I’ll find another way, but I still have to get inside.”

Everything about his demeanor had changed when I suggested using a Cast. “You still have nothing to offer. I can’t show you the Gates unless you give me something in return.”

“Are you serious?” But I could tell from his expression that he was. “What the hell do you want?”

“
The Book of Moons
,” he said without hesitation. “You know where it is. That’s my price.”

“It’s in the Mortal realm. And if you haven’t noticed, I’m dead. And by the way, Abraham Ravenwood has it. He’s not what you’d call a nice guy.” I was beginning to think that getting past the Gates was going to be the hardest part of finding my way home, if it was even possible.

Xavier started moving toward the slit in the rock that led back to the outside. “I think we both know there are ways around that. If you want to get through the Gates, bring me
The Book of Moons
.”

“Even if I could get it, why would I give you the most powerful book in the Caster world?” I practically shouted. “How do I know you won’t use it to do something terrible?”

His unnaturally large eyes widened. “What could be more terrible than how I am standing before you now? Is there something worse than watching your body betray you? Feeling
your bones break as you move? Do you think I can risk the trade the Book might choose to make?”

He was right. You couldn’t get something from
The Book of Moons
without giving something in return. We’d all learned that, the hard way. The other Ethan Wate. Genevieve. Macon and Amma and Lena and me. The Book made the choice.

“You could change your mind. People get desperate.” I couldn’t believe I was lecturing a desperate man about desperation.

Xavier turned to face me, his body already partially hidden in shadow. “Because I know what it is capable of—what it could do in the hands of men like Angelus—I would never speak a word from that book. And I would be sure it never left this room, so no one else could either.”

He was telling the truth.

Xavier was terrified of magic, Light or Dark.

It had destroyed him in the worst possible way. He didn’t want to Cast or wield supernatural power. If anything, he wanted to protect himself and others from that kind of power. If there was anywhere
The Book of Moons
would be safe, it was here—safer than in the
Lunae Libri
or some other faraway Caster library. Safer than hidden in the depths of Ravenwood or buried in Genevieve’s grave. No one would ever find it here.

That was when I decided I was going to give it to him.

There was only one problem.

I had to figure out how to get it away from Abraham Ravenwood first.

I looked at Xavier.

“How many powerful objects would you say you’ve got in this room, Xavier?”

“It doesn’t matter. I told you—they’re not to be used.”

I smiled. “What if I were to tell you I could get you
The Book of Moons
, but I’d need your help? Your help, and the help of a few of your treasures?”

He made a strange expression, twisting his uneven mouth from one side to the other. I really, really hoped it was a smile.

CHAPTER 18

Shadows

H
ow I get there isn’t as important as getting there.” I said it for the fifth time.

“To this Land of the Stars and Stripes?” he asked.

“Yeah. Well, kinda. The office anyway. On Main.”

He nodded. “Ah, the Mainlands. Is that past the Swamp of the Coolers?”

“The swamp coolers? Yeah. More or less.” I sighed.

I tried to explain my plan to Xavier. I wasn’t sure when he had been in the Mortal world last, but whenever it was, it was way before swamp coolers and newspapers. Which was kind of funny, given how much he liked lunch boxes, vinyl records, and sweets.

I picked up another ancient book, opening it to a cloud of dust and possibility—and uncertainty. I was frustrated, and sitting on the floor surrounded by Caster Scrolls in the middle of this strange creature’s cave made me feel as if I was back working in the Gatlin County Library on the first day of my summer break.

I tried to think. There had to be something we could do. “What about Traveling? Can Waywards use Casts that pertain to an Incubus?”

Xavier shook his head. “I don’t think so.”

I leaned back against a stack of books. I was close to giving up. Once again, if Link was here, he’d lecture me about being the Aquaman of the Caster world.

“A dead Aquaman,” I said to myself.

“Excuse me?”

“Nothing,” I muttered.

“A dead man?” he asked.

“You don’t have to rub it in.”

“No, that’s it. You don’t need Casts that work for a Mortal. You’re not a Mortal anymore. You need Casts that work for a Sheer.” He flipped page after page. “An
Umbra
Cast. Sending a shadow from one world to the next. That’s you, the shadow. It should work.”

I thought about it. Could it be that simple?

I stared at my hand, at the flesh and bones of it.

It only looks like flesh and bones. You’re not really here, not like that. You don’t have a body.

What was the big difference between a Sheer and a shadow?

“I need to be able to touch something, though. It won’t work unless I can get the message to Lena, and I’ll need to be able to move some papers around.”

He cocked his head, twisting his face into a grimace. I hoped it was his thinking face.

“Do you need to touch something?”

“That’s what I just said.”

He shook his head. “No, it’s not. You said you need to move something. That’s different.”

“Does it matter?”

“Entirely.” He flipped a few more pages. “A
Veritas
Cast should allow the truth to appear. As long as you’re looking for the truth.”

“That’ll work?”

I hoped he was right.

Minutes later, any doubts I had about Xavier were gone.

I was here. I hadn’t flown across the Great River, or the Great Barrier, or any other supernatural seam. I hadn’t turned on the crow-vision. I was here, on Main, staring into the office of
The Stars and Stripes
.

At least, my shadow was.

I felt like Peter Pan in reverse. Like Wendy had unstitched my shadow from me instead of sewing it back to my feet.

I moved through the wall and into the darkness of the
room, only I was even darker. I had no body, but it didn’t matter. I lifted my hand—the shadow of my hand—and thought the words Xavier had taught me.

I watched as the words on the page rearranged themselves. I had no time for riddles. No time for games, hidden messages.

My words were simple.

Five across.

Read, in Spanish.

L. I. B. R. O.

Two down.

Belonging to.

O. F.

Five across.

Lunae.

M. O. O. N. S.

I lowered my hand and disappeared.

My last message, all I had left to say. Lena had figured out how to send me the river rock charm, and she would know how to send the Book to me. I hoped. If not, maybe Macon would.

If Abraham still had it, and Lena could get it away from him.