Bad Girls Good Women (89 page)

She put her hand out to the earth in one of the beds. It crumbled in her fingers. It was dark, and rich, and seamed with straw. It couldn’t have been less like the unyielding crust of her parterres.

Her nursery Italian was hopelessly inadequate, but she tried to explain what she wanted. Vito listened, and then said something to Nicolo. It sounded to Julia like a series of snorts and whistles.

‘What does he say?’

Nicolo was trying not to laugh. ‘He says, approximately, that he can’t teach you. The only way you’ll learn is by watching. And if you must watch him, you’d better not get in the way.’

Julia beamed at them both.
‘Molto grazie
,’ she said, and meant it.

From then on, Julia divided her spare time between the secret garden and Vito’s vertical wonderland. She sat on an upturned bucket beneath the fig tree and watched as he dug and pruned and irrigated. Occasionally, and then more often, he would grunt over his shoulder in her direction. She learned the Italian words for all the vegetables, and began to understand what he was telling her. She sampled the first tomatoes, and tiny sweet strawberries hot with the sun.

One day she went with Nicolo to the market in Agropoli. From a stall clanking with agricultural tools she bought two shiny spades and a pair of shears, and some trowels and hand forks and a big coil of hosepipe. They hurried home again, armed with her trophies.

In the evenings, when it was cool, she clipped the box edgings of one section of the parterre. It was hypnotically fascinating to see the crisp shapes emerge. Julia felt as close to the intricate pattern as if she had drawn it and planted it herself. She worked on and on, promising herself that she would just get to the next corner, but then the curve beyond that enticed her, and the satisfaction of the complete shape that the next angle led to. It was pitch dark when she finally gave in, but the new black lines were sharply etched against the colourless gravel. In the morning she could hardly straighten her back, and there were oozing blisters in the palms of her hands. She was impatient to continue the work, but it would have to wait a little. She opened the history of the gardens that Nicolo had lent her.

She gazed in fascination at the illustrations of the Villa Lente and Isola Bella. The formal magnificence of stone and statuary and massed plants clipped and trained into architectural discipline was unlike anything she had ever seen, only guessed at under the wilderness that had engulfed Montebellate. She turned to the descriptions, but with constant references to her dictionary it took her half an hour to read a single paragraph of the scholarly text.

Sadly, she realised that she needed an English book if she was to make any headway. She wondered how far she would have to go to find one – to Naples, or all the way to Rome? It would probably be easier to order one from England.

It was then that Julia thought of China.

China had sold her flat in Cheyne Walk, claiming that she was too old for London, and bought a cottage in Wiltshire. Julia had seen little of her in the last years. It was Alexander who took Lily to visit Granny Bliss now. He had told Julia once that China spent her time in her flower garden, and Julia had pictured her small, straight-backed figure moving between the blue delphinium spires. But it was also China who had revived the Ladyhill gardens years ago, and during Julia’s brief regime the old man who came in to work on the grounds used to talk with uncharacteristic enthusiasm of China’s knowledge and expertise.

Julia sat down in her little room one evening and wrote a long letter to China, describing the secret garden and the rest of the wilderness. To her surprise, almost by return of post, a letter came back. It was followed by a package of books that seemed to offer Julia more information than she could ever hope to absorb. She read everything eagerly, and wrote back to China with a dozen questions that she had been unable to ask Vito. China replied, and they began a correspondence.

They wrote only about gardening, and the problems that Julia faced at Montebellate in undoing the neglect. There were just two lines in one letter, when China asked if Julia remembered a particular corner of the Ladyhill garden, that were painful to read. They touched a memory, as clear as a photograph. Julia remembered Alexander, with Lily as a baby in his arms, sitting in the same corner. He had settled the brim of the baby’s sunhat to keep the sun off her face. There was an expression of mystified pride in his face that made Julia jealous.
I was always jealous then
, she thought.
I’m not, any more. I wish I could show them that
. She felt her isolation at Montebellate, thinking of them.

She folded the letter over so that she couldn’t see the particular words, and focused her attention on China’s instructions for preparing a bed for planting.

The work began, very slowly.

Julia enlisted the help of two of the palazzo’s longer-term residents. One of them was mentally handicapped, but he was a big man with brawny arms and shoulders. Julia showed him how to dig, and he seized her spade and began to work. He tossed the clods of earth, matted with weeds, into a big heap behind him. His big, loose smile showed that he was enjoying himself.

Her other helper took longer to interest himself in the project, but once he did he became more enthusiastic than Julia herself. Tomaso was fourteen, the oldest of the children. He wasn’t ill or handicapped, but like her original lieutenant Raimundo he had nowhere else to go. Sister Maria told Julia that he had come from Naples, where he had lived with an ailing grandmother. Tomaso had got into trouble with the police, and his grandmother had been unable to control him. He had been removed by the authorities and at last he had ended up at Montebellate, under the care of the nuns.

He was a difficult resident. At the palazzo he was bored and unruly, and he was disruptive at school. But he attached himself to Julia as Raimundo had done, and through Julia he had found his way out into the gardens. At first he was dismissive of her efforts, but before long he was unable to conceal his fascination. He had a natural feel for plants that surprised Julia. He seemed to know more by instinct than she did after all her poring over China’s books.

She told him that he had green fingers, translating the expression literally, and he stared at his fingers and then back at her with an expression of bafflement that made Julia laugh. Tomaso looked angry for a moment, then began to laugh too.

Tomaso would have worked in the garden all night, if she had let him. He was particularly good with the willing, clumsy Guido, directing his onslaughts to the right place, and away from the beds that had already been cleared and planted.

Julia gratefully took whatever plants and seeds and cuttings Vito was prepared to offer her, and tomatoes began to ripen against the wall of the palazzo. It was a proud moment for her and Tomaso when they took the first small crop of tomatoes with some strawberries and fresh basil leaves to the kitchens. The nuns and the women who worked there accepted the tiny offering with grave congratulations.

Julia had pruned the roses, following the instructions in her books, and now the pink and white damasks and albas and fragrant centifolias bloomed in great drifts against the old walls. By contrast the earth in the parterres, although it had been cleared and then manured and lightened with straw just like Vito’s, looked barren and reproachful. Julia had managed to save very little of the original growth from Guido’s enthusiasm, and her precious vegetables filled only a fraction of the geometric pattern. The freshly clipped box edgings and smooth paths seemed only to emphasise the emptiness.

She began to dream of the flowers of the original design. Her books showed her geraniums and marigolds and petunias in carpets of colour. Nicolo gave her geraniums from his own plot, but the space of the secret garden swallowed them up.

Next year, she told herself, I will have planted my own seeds. I’ll take cuttings and propagate them, somehow, and I’ll have enough of everything to fill the beds. But what can I do now?

China had warned her that every novice gardener made the mistake of wanting rewards at once, and she smiled to recognise the failing in herself. But the recognition didn’t stop her from pursuing what she wanted.

She overcame her diffidence, and her mistrust of her Italian, and began to ask around the village. ‘Can you spare some plants, signora, for the nuns’ gardens?’

The wheedling and persuading reminded her of the beginnings of Garlic & Sapphires. She found that the small victories in Montebellate gave her even more satisfaction. At first she was greeted with shrugs, or blank stares, but Julia was careful always to call it the nuns’ garden, and the sisters were deeply respected in Montebellate. And the villagers were interested in what the peculiar Englishwoman was doing behind the palazzo walls. Slowly, bearing straggling greenery and lumps of earth, they began to wander up to the palazzo. They peered into the secret garden, warily at first and then more confidently. They met one another, and gestured with admiring surprise at the roses and the parterres. The residents followed them, and the walled garden suddenly became a social focus. The nuns nodded and smiled, and Julia and Tomaso and Guido found themselves welcoming visitors with gifts of plants at all hours.

Julia accepted everything that was offered, and put it in the beds. The empty circles and diamonds filled up under her care and Tomaso’s watering, sprouting a blanket of random colours and scents that should have been hideous, but was unexpectedly vivid and satisfying.

Next year, the year after, there would be time to make a white bed, another of misty blue, and the circle that formed the eye of the design would be a great splash of solid scarlet.

Julia realised that her plans would take a long time to bring to reality. She looked forward to it calmly. If her life in Montebellate lacked the intimacy of real happiness, it had its own different satisfactions, and a kind of richness that she had never known before.

By the time the summer came, she felt that she was woven into the life of the palazzo. If the garden occupied her thoughts, most of her time was still spent with the children. The fitter ones followed her as if she was the Pied Piper. They sat in the secret garden while the shade of the morning still lay on it, and Julia taught them songs and clapping games. Another parcel came from China. It contained dominoes and draughts and snakes and ladders.
For your Italian children
, China said. The thoughtfulness of the gesture touched Julia, and made her wonder why she had never made friends with China before. At the palazzo, the acts of friendship seemed simple. She wrote back at once, a warm letter that described her days in the children’s wing, and enclosed some of their drawings done as thanks. The games became a craze, and Tomaso proved to be so good at draughts that not even Nicolo could beat him. Nicolo taught him to play chess, and in the evenings they solemnly faced each other in one of the rose arbours while Julia weeded and watered her beds.

The children who could walk and play games were the lucky ones. There were others, who had to be pushed in their cumbersome chairs, and whose lolling heads didn’t lift to look at the bright splash of the flowers. Julia took them close to the beds, hoping that the rich scents, at least, would find their way to them.

There were other children, too. Julia saw less of these, because the nuns nursed the chronically sick ones. But sometimes she went into the two small wards to read stories, or to help with bathing or changing beds, or to walk a few shuffling steps, taking the weight of a seemingly weightless little body. Julia had learned to accept the suffering that she saw in the adult wings. When an old woman died, sitting in her chair under the arches of the courtyard, she watched the nuns’ faces as they lifted her up. There was no pain in them. Julia couldn’t share their faith, but she tried to find some of their serenity. But the sight of the children filled her with pity and anger.

When she bathed a little girl whose ribs were like sharp fingers and whose head barely turned as warm water dripped from Julia’s sponge on to her skin, there was no calm in her. She thought of Lily, and her round, firm arms and legs, with a mixture of terror and need and love.

Pia was seven or eight years old. Her body was covered with the oozing scabs and patches of eczema, and her fingers raked constantly at the inflamed skin. Julia used to cut and clean her fingernails, and bathe the red flesh with cool water to soothe it. Pia always wanted to hear the same story. Julia read a version of Rapunzel to her over and over again. The little girl was fascinated by the idea of Rapunzel’s long ropes of golden hair. She would pull at her own, the stiff dark spikes parting to show the blotched scalp, as if tugging at it and wishing hard enough would make it change colour and grow.

Julia tried to interest her in Cinderella, but she only ever wanted Rapunzel.

Pia suffered from asthma, too. One evening, when Julia went into the ward to say goodnight the curtain was drawn at the side of her bed. Pia was having an attack. Julia stood for a moment, listening to the pitiful struggle for each breath, her fists clenched at her sides. She turned away again and walked slowly out of the ward. Sister Maria was with Pia; Julia had heard her voice.

Julia was carrying the Rapunzel book. She looked at the faded cover, then slipped it into her pocket.

She had reached the foot of the stone stairs and passed out into the evening light when she heard running footsteps behind her. It was Sister Maria, with the white folds of her headdress billowing. It was the only time Julia ever saw one of the sisters run. Sister Maria reached the door of the rooms where the palazzo’s doctor lived. A moment later the two women were running back again.

Julia sat down heavily on a bench under one of the arches. She watched the shadows lengthen on the stone flags, listened to the sounds from the open windows overhead. When she looked up again, she saw the priest crossing the courtyard with his bag. He was a young man with spectacles and a pale, serious face. He was a friend of Nicolo Galli’s. Julia waited without moving. It seemed a long time before Sister Maria reappeared in the doorway that led up to the children’s wards. She didn’t see Julia. She stood with her head bowed, then lifted her face to the light. The sky overhead had faded from blue to pearl.