American Elsewhere (12 page)

There is a lump of ivy in the center of the yard. She walks to it and takes one huge vine and pulls. Whatever it’s attached to is heavy as hell, but there’s a squawk of iron on stone. She plants a foot on the lump, wraps the twist of ivy around her wrist, and tugs.

A significant strip tears away. Below it is a rust-covered wrought-iron table. The very iron table her mother and her friends sat around for cocktail hour, she thinks.

The sense of déjà vu increases. She turns around and looks at the back of the house, which is just as picturesque as the front, despite the messy backyard. Some of the clay hanging pots have even been left behind, though now of course they are empty. Once, though, they were probably bursting with geranium blooms or drapes of ice plants. She feels an intense happiness when she imagines this.

This house, though it is empty, feels perfect in some way. It’s all anyone could ever want. This is a place to raise children, to live a life. This is the kind of house you dream of living in as a kid.

But she glances to the side and sees the neighboring homes, and she thinks that the same could be said of them, and the ones across the street. There is something strangely perfect about this part of town. It is like she’s walking through old photographs or home movies, images layered with longing and nostalgia. Even if they are hollow or overgrown with ivy on the inside.

She walks back inside and resumes her tour. She has no idea what
her mother did with all this room, nor can she imagine how she afforded such a big place. She must have been a pretty big wheel at Coburn, whatever it was they did there. Upstairs are smaller rooms, ones probably used as kids’ rooms by the family that rented this house in the interim. Which means that somewhere around here would be…

She opens one small door at the end of a hallway and is greeted by a tiny bathroom with one wooden wall of a much lighter color than the other four. It’s newer, she guesses, and unvarnished. Up against the wall is a white bathtub, and running down the center of it in a thin, long V is a stain of deep black with faint, spidery edges, and she notices the linoleum around the tub is bubbled and curling, like it’s been cooked.

This is where the lightning struck. It must’ve split the wall like an ax and come shrieking down on anyone who was in the tub. Much of the bathroom is still smoky and charred. The faucet is even fused shut, and its knobs droop a little, like a Dali painting.

Mona steps out of the room and shuts the door. She is relieved to have the sight hidden from her, for the ruined bathroom feels very out of place with the rest of the house. It’s as if it belonged to another house entirely, one dark and broken and empty, not at all part of this happy, rustic place.

Suddenly there is the peal of a high-pitched bell, and Mona gasps and jumps. She leans up against the wall to catch her breath as the bell rings again. She wonders if it could be the doorbell, but it is not.

She walks downstairs to the aquamarine phone sitting in the corner beside the wooden chair, the one that looks like it’s been sitting there for years, and stares as it rings again and again. Finally she answers it.

“Hello?”

There is the hiss of static, as if the call is coming from a very long way away. But there is no voice in it, no greeting back.

“Hello?” she says again.

Still nothing. But somewhere in the static she hears something: someone is breathing, lowly and slowly.

“Hello?” she says. “I can hear you. Did you get the wrong number?”

She expects the caller to hang up, but he or she does not. There is just the breathing, the whine of the static rising and falling like a theremin.

“I think there’s something wrong with the phones, whoever this is,” she says. “You can’t hear a damn thing I say, can you?”

No answer.

“I’m hanging up now,” she says. “Goodbye.”

She drops the receiver onto the cradle and stares at it. She almost expects the phone to start ringing again, but it does not.

Mona will be damned if she’s come all this way and done so much work just to sleep on a wooden floor, so she cruises around for a department store to put together something resembling livable conditions. She finds Macey’s, a sort of general store, though like so many shops here at first it seems totally abandoned. She isn’t worried, however: she knows many stores in small towns keep wildly irregular hours, often opening whenever the owners feel.

It is not abandoned. She is walking by the lines of mannequins in dresses when she hears the sound of someone weeping. Curious, she turns around and sees the door to a back room is open, and seated within are two women with their faces in their hands. She can see a pair of feet wearing men’s shoes just before them, like someone is standing or leaning against the front of a desk. She can hear a man’s voice talking quietly, as if giving comfort or condolences. Then the feet shift, and a small, bald head wearing Coke-bottle glasses pokes past the side of the door frame. The man looks at her and says, “With you in a minute.”

He wraps up the discussion with the two crying women pretty quick. It is a little bizarre to see them having such an emotional moment in what appears to be no more than a closet. The two women shuffle out, still dabbing at their eyes, and the storekeeper follows.

He is an elderly gnome of a man, dressed in a button-up white shirt,
red bow tie, and suspenders. He smiles wearily at Mona as he approaches, and says, “Sorry about that. They were a bit distraught.”

“What was wrong? If it’s not too rude to ask.”

“Oh, nothing. Well. Not nothing. We had someone pass away just recently, you see.”

“Oh, right,” says Mona. “The funeral. I’m sorry, I should have known.”

“Yes,” he says. He looks Mona over and smiles. “I suppose you’d be the new arrival in town.”

Mona coughs. “That’s right. I’m Mona.”

“And I’m Mr. Macey,” he says, and shakes her hand. “I must say, no one ever told me you were so pretty. Were I but a younger man… I’m sure I’d make a pest of myself. I might still, you know.” He smiles crookedly. Mona is not offended: she can tell he is the sort to innocently flirt with every woman, regardless of age or beauty. He might have been waiting to get old just so he could have such a freedom. “What can I do for you, Miss…?”

“You can just call me Mona,” she says. “I’m looking for a mattress and a set of sheets.”

“Ah. Moving in, are we?” He gestures and leads her through the aisles. It is a rather schizophrenic store: shelves of cheap novelty gags segue into imitation jewelry, which stands beside a case of knockoff watches and sunglasses.

“Maybe. I inherited a house around here. I guess I’ll be bedding down there for a while. I just went to see the lady at the courthouse about it, in fact.”

“Mrs. Benjamin,” he says, and groans a little. “I can’t imagine what sort of impression she made. Don’t worry, we’re not all as batty as that around here. Did she offer you any tea?”

“Uh…”

“Do
not
drink any,” he tells her, and laughs. “You’ll be drunker than a boiled owl for hours, and hacking up pine gum for days. There’s always been a nutty herbalist-holistic tendency in New Mexico. People trying to cure your cold with sprigs of rosemary, that kind of thing. Mrs. Benjamin is the worst offender, mostly because all her cures have
more in common with backwoods cocktails than they do with medicine.”

He sells her a mattress and a set of sheets at 15 percent off—a “greeting discount” on which he refuses to budge—as well as some toiletries. She gets the impression he’s a canny negotiator, and the way he carries himself has a certain casual power to it. As she’s checking out, a young man comes rushing into the store, presumably to speak to Mr. Macey. But Macey simply looks at the young man, all the cheer and goodwill blinking out of his eyes, and shakes his head—
Not now
. Embarrassed, the young man bows himself out and waits outside, hands behind his back.

“Any way else I can help you?” he asks her when they finish.

“Maybe. I’m looking for information on someone who might have lived here—Laura Alvarez, my mother.”

Mr. Macey screws up his face to think about it. “Alvarez… hm. I don’t know. I don’t
think
I’ve ever heard of anyone by that name.”

“Were you here thirty years ago, or so?”

“Of course,” he says.

“Well, she would have lived here about that time. Or moved away from here. She worked on the lab on the mountain.”

“Ah,” says Macey. “That might explain it. The dealings of the lab were—how shall I put this—not for the minds of mortals like me. I never knew what they did, and their personnel changed quite frequently.”

“Kind of a black hat operation?”

He chuckles a little. “I suppose.”

“There’re no offices in town that would have kept track of that information?”

“If there ever were, I never knew of them.”

“Well… if you could ask around, I sure would appreciate it. Sorry to grill you, but… she was my mother. I just want to know a little more about her.”

“I understand. Don’t you worry about it, then. I’ll try and find something out. Is there anything else I can get you?”

“Not unless you got a steak behind your counter.”

“Hungry, eh? Tell you what. Head on down to Chloe’s—you know where Chloe’s is, right? Okay, good. Head on down there and tell them I sent you.” He winks. “Another greeting discount, let’s say.”

“You don’t have to do that.”

“I absolutely do. We don’t get many newcomers here, as I’m sure you’ve heard a million times over by now. We need to do them right.” His smile fades a little bit. “I hope you like it here for however long you stay. Most do. Though we have our fair share of trouble.”

“Would it have something to do with the funeral yesterday?”

Mr. Macey’s smile thins a bit, and his eyes grow a little sad. “Oh, well,” he says. “I certainly hope not. It was an old friend of mine who died, you see.”

“Who was it, if you don’t mind my asking? I keep hearing about the funeral, but never about the deceased.”

“His name was Norman Weringer. He was probably the most-liked man in Wink. He and I would spend hours walking the countryside around here, talking and—sometimes—arguing. He made arguments a treat, Norman. I suppose that might be why I liked him so much.”

“I’m sorry to hear he died.”

“I am, too. Even now. I always felt he’d outlive us. Yet here we are.” He purses his lips and stares out the window. “I almost feel like doing something about it myself.”

Mona isn’t sure what to say to that. She knows too damn well what happens when people start self-policing. But there is a cold, quiet rage to Mr. Macey’s face that makes her reluctant to press the point. She is new in town, and it might be the light in this store—for it is very dim in here—but she almost thinks she sees something fluttering in the backs of his eyes.

He takes a little breath and smiles again. “Now. Would you like me to get one of my boys to move this to your house?”

Moving all this stuff into the house tires her out pretty quick, so Mona is more than eager to take Mr. Macey’s suggestion and head to the diner, which is still as hopping as it was this morning.

Just before she walks in, though, Mona counts the vehicles outside. She’s not sure why—something’s just buzzing in the back of her head, telling her to keep an eye out. So she counts each car and truck and memorizes the first letter or number of each license plate before she feels satisfied enough to go in.

Chloe’s turns out to be a bright, clean, well-lit eatery with wide, curving tables and snug booths. It is filled with the aroma of bacon and pancakes, and the hiss of the griddle makes the jukebox (which is playing some Perry Como number) sound like it’s coming through an ancient radio. Pies and cakes, each as lavishly prepared as a bridal gown, gracefully orbit one another on the dessert stands on the countertop, which is beaded with spotlights from the pendant lamps dangling above. Mona is a little disappointed to find it is not an all-night diner; she feels this would be the perfect place for restless night owls to come and contemplate their loneliness over a cup of coffee. That is, if Wink had any night owls.

When Mona enters she stands at the door for a moment and watches the waitresses take orders from the customers. None of them, she notices, are writing anything down. Some of them aren’t even taking orders: people walk in and sit down, and a plate of hash browns and biscuits—or a plate of steak and eggs, or just a cup of coffee—is placed in front of them with no more than a happy greeting and an inquiry about the state of the family. They are all regulars, Mona realizes. Everyone knows everybody here, and what they want.

Everyone except her. She can already feel the confused glances darting her way. They silently ask—
Who is this?
And then there is a turn, a realization when they all say—
Oh, the girl from the funeral in the flashy car…

Mona is too hungry to care. She sits down at the counter and looks at the menu, which is made of old and coffee-stained paper. The murmur of confusion dies, but she can still feel a few lingering stares.

A waitress arrives, a girl Mona finds faintly familiar. She is a delicate, dark-haired thing with a neck so skinny Mona can hardly believe it’s holding up her head. Her eyes are huge and brown, with a certain glimmer of anxiety. “Can I help you, ma’am?” she asks.

Mona glances at her name tag. It reads
GRACIE
. “Sure,” says Mona. “But I was told to say that, uh, Mr. Macey sent me…”

“Oh, Macey,” says Gracie. She smiles briefly, but it feels like a formality: Mona gets the sense that Macey is one of those people everyone has to pretend to like, whether they really do or not. “Sure, we can take care of you, then. What’ll you have?”

“What’s the house specialty?”

“Specialty?” asks Gracie. “Well, ma’am, our pancakes and coffee are pretty talked about.”

“Oh, please don’t call me
ma’am
. It just about kills me every time.”

This brings about a small smile. “All right.”

“I think I may need something a little more substantial than pancakes, but I would love to try a cup of your coffee. What else you got?”