Authors: Carmella Jones
Chapter 8
“What’s the matter?” Anthony asked.
He still hadn’t noticed I was holding anything in my hands. I guess he thought I felt sick or maybe something was wrong with the baby, because he knelt and started putting his hand on parts of my face as if checking for a temperature.
“Why were Donte and Jerome at your family house last night?” I asked.
“They just wanted approval to follow up on a lead,” he replied, shrugging like it should have been obvious.
“No, why were they at the house last night,” I repeated myself without changing tone or position.
“Jayne,” he said.
“Anthony,” I replied.
He could tell this was the calm before a possible storm. He sat back and thought to himself. Then he sat beside me on the bed, took the handkerchief and its content, and spoke.
“This is a pair of pocket knives,” he said.
He opened the smaller knife.
“The tip of this one is recently broken,” he said, showing me the damage, then closing it again. “I need to make sure it is properly discarded to ensure it does not find its way into police evidence. I have a few things I was going to pack up and ship today. I think you should join me.”
He stood and began pulling other small items from things in his room that I didn’t even realize had openings, storage, or compartments. Then again, when I was in his room I was typically otherwise occupied. There were dirty icicle-style earrings I remembered Cassidy from the office saying she’d lost, a woven leather belt that someone had unraveled and cut cord from, bloody shoe laces, and more.
I was still sitting on the bed. I felt nauseous. Every item he pulled out had blood, hair, or worse visible on it. I had become a reporter to warn the world about crimes and explore the inexplicably unsolved. Here it all seemed to be in the bedroom of my boyfriend and boss.
He noticed that I had not moved.
“Jayne, I’m still me. I just need to show you a few things and talk to you. I think it’s time you got to know me better. Our relationship has…progressed,” Anthony said, trying to smile, but clearly recognizing that the day had taken an unexpected turn from even what I had thought when I attempted to confront him.
“Can I have some ice water, please?” I asked, still not really moving or changing my expression.
“Of course, baby. Stay here I’ll be right back. You look a little pale, too. I’ll get you some crackers and see if I still have some olives or capers,” he said, heading toward the door.
Once I heard him rummaging through his kitchen cabinets I slung the items he had gathered into the large purse I had been carrying. I put my clothes from the day before in as well. I tiptoed down the hall in his button-down, carrying my shoes in my hand, and slipped out the front door.
As I was waiting for the elevator I heard a muffled version of Anthony’s voice yell my name. I couldn’t wait to ride the elevator and dreaded the flights of stairs for his high rise, but I had to do it. I heard a door open and knew Anthony was coming to find me, so I ran for the stairs as fast as I could.
“Jayne, baby, I can explain,” he called into the hallway, but the door to the stairs was already closing behind me.
It shut more loudly than I expected and, as I reached the bottom of my first flight of stairs, I heard it open again. I looked up to see Anthony in slacks, unbuttoned, with a shirt and keys in his hands.
“Jayne,” he called once he saw me.
I ran down two more flights and could tell without looking back that he was getting closer behind me. As I rounded the next lap of stairs I could feel his hands reaching at the shirt and nearly grasping it.
“I won’t say anything. Just leave me alone,” I said, still trying to get away.
He caught me at the next landing, wrapped me in his arms, and pulled me to sit on the floor with him. We were a crumpled mess with my bag, his shirt, and my frightened tears. Scared as I was, he was still my safety. I buried my face in his chest crying.
“Please don’t kill me. Just let me leave. I don’t know anything. You can have all this stuff back and I will forget about it,” I said.
“I’m not going to kill you. Just calm down, be quiet, and come with me,” Anthony said, putting a hand under my chin to make me look into his eyes.
I believed him.
A security guard appeared a floor below us calling, “Who’s there? Is everything alright?”
Then he looked at us.
“Mr. Ferrara. Ms. Clinton,” he said, giving a nod to Anthony and then leaving as suddenly as he came.
Anthony kissed my forehead, then carried me down the remaining stairs. He took me to the garage and sat me in the passenger seat of his car. He got in on the driver’s side and left the shirt he brought with him in his lap.
Chapter 9
“Jayne, you know my family is important,” Anthony said after a few minutes of us driving in silence.
“Yes,” I replied. “They started one of the original newspapers in the area as well as one of the first news stations. They syndicated early and have connections all over the country to stay on top of domestic affairs.”
“All that is true, but it is also a cover. It’s a means to an end,” he said, picking up speed as we headed toward the south end of town toward the docks.
I just listened, feeling a little dizzy and very confused. He touched my forehead again. I guess I looked about as good as I felt.
“Our involvement in the news industry has always been more about having access to events, people, places, and information. Journalists can get in anywhere with a press badge. People will talk if they think they have a story for you, and even more if it’s juicy and off the record, but not really. Controlling the news lets you control the people. My family decides who knows what, and controls what is known. We dictate perception, if you will,” Anthony said, trying various explanations to balance some point he was getting at.
He got quiet, seemingly to allow that to sink in for the remainder of our ride. I still hadn’t caught on to what he was trying to drive home, but he did have good points about the power of controlling the media. I just needed to understand why.
When he finally turned the car off we were at the docks. I saw a variety of ships and workers. Nothing I thought looked too strange except for Anthony and me.
As soon as he stepped out of the car a worker rushed over to give him packaging supplies. As that one left, another ran over and gave him a few folders and whispered in his ear.
“Jayne, my family also owns a few shipping companies – land, water, and air – to help us move things without hassle,” he said.
He helped me out of the car and then took my purse from me. I kept tugging the the shirt I was still wearing down so my bottom didn’t give these guys a free show. He rummaged through my purse, pulling out the things he had gathered from his room. I didn’t even try to protest. Once everything was in the box, he taped it up and marked it with a sticker that said “fragile.”
He put the box under one arm and took one of my hands in his free hand. He handed the box to a worker and gave instructions about “losing” the package while the crew for a particular boat was at sea today. He looked through the files. Each one had a small portfolio on a person with a brief data sheet and two photos, one alive and one dead.
My stomach turned and I doubled over, vomiting on the dock. Anthony picked me up again and a worker came immediately with a hose to clean up my mess.
Anthony carried me to a small building that served as the main office. When he came in carrying me, everyone inside greeted him but quickly made themselves scarce.
“Anthony, are you a murderer? Do Jerome and Donte work for you?” I asked.
“The short answers would be ‘yes’ and ‘yes,’” he said, sitting me in the most comfortable chair in the room.
He stepped into a different room and I heard water run. When he returned he had a paper cup with water for me to drink and a damp paper towel that he patted around my face.
“Is the shock too much for you and the baby?” he asked.
“I’m always nauseated now, and running away from you this morning took a lot out of me. Not to mention you brought me to the smelliest place in the city aside from the waste water treatment facility,” I replied.
“Do you think you will be okay?” he asked.
The concerned eyes only I ever saw were still there. Now, I realized just how real his bad-boy exterior I was. I had always been drawn to it, but now it concerned me. I knew I still didn’t know everything, though.
As I rested in the chair with the cup of water and damp paper towel over my eyes, I listened to Anthony pacing the room telling me how his family came from Italy a few generations ago. He told me how they had protected their neighborhood and how that grew to a few blocks. Soon it was whole sections of the city. Then they started a newspaper and bought out a few others with some shady backroom deals.
Long story short, as their crime family grew, so did their media conglomerate. They owned more businesses in a greater variety of industries than I realized.
He told me things tying his family to all kinds of political events, city development, dates, names, and numbers. Finally, he worked his way to the present.
“And, that kid you were so worried about in the hospital? He’s a distant relative. The footprint found was from another family’s weak attempt at ruffling our feathers. We knew about the whole incident before any kind of news or cops, but we missed a witness at the scene. We had no proof to tie it back to the other family until Donte and Jerome found out about someone recently complaining about breaking their knife in a scuffle. I had them handle the situation, but I wanted the knife brought to me,” he said.
“Why?” It was the one question I could finally bring myself to ask.
“Why get the knife? So the police don’t get involved in family matters. Why do we do all this? Because the world runs more smoothly when people feel like it runs without being personal. In truth, it’s always personal. People sleep better at night if they can call things hate crimes, gang violence, or delinquency,” he said honestly.
I couldn’t necessarily say I disagreed with him after I let it all sink in and thought about the viewers at home. No one wanted to be a victim unless they could write it off as being a victim of circumstance or society and culture.
We sat in silence for a while until my stomach growled. It was late afternoon.
Chapter 10
I slept this time as Anthony drove. I didn’t really feel my life was in danger. If it were, I figured he could have easily remedied any problem I posed at the docks.
I opened my eyes when I felt the car come to a stop, and found we were at Anthony’s family home again. This time, there was nothing being celebrated. No one called for us when we walked in the door.
I followed Anthony to the kitchen. He pulled a few sandwich fixings out onto a cutting board and reflexively I started to prepare one large sandwich for us, cutting it down the middle. Then I chopped a few veggies for the side. He searched the pantry until he came out with canned sodas. He passed me one that was clear to settle my stomach.
“Papa, you up?” he yelled.
“Anthony?” I heard Grandfather Santino reply.
“Yeah, Jayne and I are coming up to speak to you,” Anthony yelled back.
“Alright, I’ll meet you in my study,” Grandfather Santino replied not quite as loudly.
I went ahead and prepared a few more vegetables and threw some cookies from a jar on the counter onto a plate. Anthony put the sandwich, vegetables, cookies, and drinks on a TV tray. We put the unused food away and then traveled up the stairs together.
As we walked into the study, I could see Grandfather Santino in a wingback chair by the window reading.
“Well, you two look a sad mess,” he said.
“She knows,” Anthony said, setting the tray on a table near Grandfather Santino.
“Oh,” the older man said, looking to me. “Come sit.”
He gestured to the chair nearest him and I sat. I didn’t know what to say. The day had been filled with revelations, and I was seeing everyone in a different light. The more I thought about things, the less sure I was how good or bad that light was,. For now I was still listening and thinking.
“It is hard to be involved with men who do the things we do. It’s more challenging for women involved with those of us at the top,” he said.
I raised an eyebrow.
“Anthony is my successor. Didn’t you notice he has a key to this house? Have you seen anyone else with a key? He replaced me as editor and he is slowly replacing me as the father of this family as well, along with all that entails,” Grandfather Santino said.
“I guess in some ways it all makes sense, but I have to think about my career and the baby,” I said without thinking about it.
Apparently it was a day for announcements. Anthony and I both looked at his grandfather, whose face changed from surprised to excited in an instant.
“Well, I can assure you that family is important to him. How you feel about what we do is up to you, but our business is important to him as well. What we do balances the scales in the community and gets retribution that satisfies in ways that the police department can’t. How we spin the story in the news keeps the community focused on larger issues where we need to improve as a whole instead of fearing as individuals,” Santino tried to explain.
The more they explained, the more I understood. The journalist in me wondered what truths were most important and what facts may or may not necessarily need to be public knowledge. In a way, I had been focused on the truths of each day while they focused on the truths of humanity.
I was so deep in my own thought that I did not notice Grandfather Santino staring at my stomach, which reminded me I was barely dressed.
The doorbell rang and Anthony and I looked out the window. Santino didn’t even flinch.
“That would be Sheryl to make dinner,” Santino said. “The biggest mouth in the family. You two better decide whether your baby announcement is official or not. If she knows, the city will know by the time we all go to bed.”
I excused myself to change clothes. Anthony stayed in the study to speak with his grandfather. In the bathroom I changed and washed my face. There was no helping my hair, but I did find a few bobby pins in a drawer.
I washed my face again and stared at myself in the mirror. I looked down at my abdomen. I couldn’t be positive, but I thought I was finally starting to get a little weight from the baby. My stomach was still flat, but it had a full appearance. My already somewhat large butt seemed bigger.
I still had a lot to think about. When I came out of the bathroom Anthony was outside the door waiting for me.
“I love you,” he said.
“Well, this is a strange time to say that for the first time,” I said, continuing my path around him.
“Doesn’t matter when I say it, as long as I say it. And you don’t have to say it, because I know you love me even if you don’t say the words,” he continued.
I gave him a look as we continued down the hall.
“I want to tell my family about the baby. I also want to get married. If you want to continue reporting the news, that is fine as well. Use your own judgment about how you tell whatever story you like. I just want to take care of my family. All of it,” he said.
As he finished speaking, he stopped me in my tracks just before we got to the kitchen. He kissed me before I could refuse – before I could think.
Everything in me belonged to him, and I knew it. I was his, not just because I was having his baby, but because I wanted to be. I could tell in the way he kissed me now that he felt it, too, and would do his best to have me and our baby in his life.
“Anthony,” I said.
“No,” he said and kissed me again.
I pulled away.
“No,” I said.
He stepped back and the color drained from his face. He reached for me. I put a hand up, and he stopped.
“I love you, too. I love you and I suppose I understand. This just all feels unreal. To think that so much is at the dictate of a few people overseeing it all. Then, to realize the man in my life is the key person at the top of all of it. It is a lot to take in, but I get it. I get it and I love you,” I said.
He smiled more than his normal cocky grin. He gave a genuine heartfelt smile that reassured me that us being together was right.
“I also understand why we pick and choose just enough facts to keep people thinking of the bigger picture, rather than just the facts for solving individual cases and crimes,” I said.
“Whatever you want to report,” he said, even knowing I might put everyone at risk.
“I think I would like to report on the lighter side of life. As much crime as there is, there is also a lot of good as well. Businesses opening, advancements in science and medicine, and budding youth programs,” I said.
I would have kept going, but Anthony was already kissing me again.