Action: A Book About Sex (28 page)

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Be prepared to be criticized.
Can I be honest with you for a moment? (Because everything I wrote before this sentence was a series of CRAFTY LIES, PRANKED YA, LIKING SEX IS ACTUALLY BAD!) Even though I’m comfortable with my decisions, I was nervous about admitting to having had non-monogamous relationships, because there is still a giant stigma attached to being a youngish female person who is not willing to conceal the fact that she likes sex and all its related behavioral trappings.

The criticism often comes in the form of slut-shaming, which sounds like: “How could you do that to him/her?” or “If you really loved each other, you’d be faithful,” or the more concise “Don’t you feel like a slut?” which I almost admire for its frankness, except I don’t, at all. The implication behind all these comments is that it’s “natural” if men want to sleep around, but when (young) women do, it’s seen as self-serving and immoral. And you know what? I would like to politely invite such naysayers to go suck an egg, as long as we’re in the business of telling people what they can and can’t put their mouths on. Even if you find the idea of opening your own relationship abhorrent, it’s shitty manners to treat those who choose non-monogamy for themselves like they’re BAD or WRONG—both of which I can totally be at times, but never for this reason.

A less damning, but still undermining, backhanded compliment that people sometimes give me is: “Wow, I guess you’re more
evolved
than I am—I could never do that.” It’s one thing to ask questions or be curious about non-monogamy, but entirely another to make a flat one-to-one comparison between two unrelated personal preferences about love. It makes me a little bit sad when people treat the private decisions that I’ve made like a critique of their own lives and relationships. My response is usually to say, “Nah, different people are comfortable with different things.” People are not Pokémon—non-monoggo-hood isn’t
something you “level up” to when you free yourself from society’s shackles, man. It’s a personal choice about what makes you happy, and it’s not for everyone!

The key to maintaining a healthy outlook about non-monogamy is not letting other people’s dumb attitudes about it impact your mindset, so I deal with the aforementioned situations mostly by not worrying about them too much. They’re so far from the reality of my life that I don’t feel the need to explain myself—why bother clearing my name of some made-up wrongdoing I don’t even believe in? It’s the same as if someone came up to me and said, “How dare you steal the president’s most beloved gold-plated Furby from the White House!” It’s like, (a) that’s not a real thing; (b) even if it were, I didn’t. I just realized that that nonsense-scenario is a totally solid analogy for this whole conceit: The president is a primary partner, the gilded Furby is my vag, and the White House is the patriarchy’s insistence that I live chastely instead of expressing what I want in a way that makes me happy. Excuse me while I go write twelve scholarly feminist texts based on this premise. Maybe I am an academic sex hottie after all?

All told, the only advice you absolutely need to follow when you’re figuring out your own relationship configuration is to always be aware and considerate of your own and your partner’s feelings. Keep talking! Do a State of the Union every so often to make sure you’re both still feeling happy and loved, and if one of you isn’t for whatever reason, make some adjustments and see if things improve. All relationships require communication and a genuine desire to be sweet and kind to the person you’re dating. Hold these things at the forefront of your mind when you’re deciding if you want to open your relationship. If you both decide you do, go get it, and above all, have fun and be respectful of the people you care about. That part’ll come real easy.

PART III

Mistakes Were Made

I am loath to take part in the narrative trope that conveys, “Young women who have sex, in doing so, are embarking on a wacky, embarrassing, ill-thought-out comedy of errors,” without some recognition of how cool and worthwhile casual sex can be. Sexual autonomy is often presented as “confessional”—either overly comic or overly melodramatic, and when a female sexual youth is described as a series of “misadventures,” it rankles me. Upon taking in movies, magazines, and the anecdotes of others about the so-called bad behavior of a wayward woman they know, I so often feel like screaming, “She didn’t lampoon or victimize herself—
she fucked someone
!”

I have never once seen a young dude subjected to the same hand-wringing or false pity that his female counterparts are so regularly met with, or a guy who, in every other beat of his story about a physical encounter, feels the need to giggle or apologize it into an acceptable shape for his listeners. If a woman has had sex that she likes: Enough with the jokey contrition. Sex doesn’t have to be “bad” to be good.

Just as destructive would be recounting a sexual past that’s been edited and finessed into a montage of soft-focus orgasms in which I am played by a young Natalie Wood, except with butt implants. I can’t pretend that all the sex I’ve had was that of a swanlike pinup sans an overbite that makes head risky if I’m not careful. Making mistakes is one of my very favorite things in this life, because then you become aware of how they were forged, and how to avoid them in the future. The key is not letting them define,
discount, or dissuade you from the superb aspects of your sex life, or even seeing them as extricable from those. Fucking up is how you go pro. No need to be abashed or apologetic about that.

When it comes to escaping most perplexing quagmires of sexual propriety, like how to contend with unexpected bodily effluvia, noises, behaviors, and getting caught masturbating by your roommate’s new girlfriend Marie (sorry, Marie—this Hitachi is truly thunderous and I didn’t hear you come in), act under one law: Instead of bugging out about your OWN potential humiliation and what this means about your sexual aptitude/worthiness, think about how to put the other person at ease about what is, in the grand context of life, history, and space, a nothing-event that you will have mostly forgotten about in a few weeks expeditiously. What is the gallant thing to do? Communicating that sense of calm and contextual awareness to your intended! Preserving your sense of personal security and confidence is easy when you consider that blights on what really should have resembled
swan-sex enjoyed by fat-butted movie starlets on le Francebeach
are also enjoyed by those same people, who are, by the way, fictitious.

If someone shames you for any natural/unexpected/otherwise potentially mortifying phenomenon occurring from what you’re doing together, kick them to the curb with no compunction: Basic self-worth demands that you shouldn’t be made to feel guilty if the sex you’re having results in unwieldy bodily goings-on. No by-product of sex is repulsive enough to negate the commodities it manufactures: recreational sweetness and connection. And orgasms.

If you find yourself
actually
hurt or otherwise medically dented-up by any kind of sexual contact, locate real medical care. Though you can pull a mental assist using the following list of what to do should your
pride
be jeopardized, it does
not
stand in for a health professional. That said, here’s everything you shouldn’t be embarrassed about.

Queefing

Queefing is the colloquial name for the sound vaginas expel when vacuoles of air are trapped in them and then come out. This usually happens when something is inserted into them, and the likelihood increases if that something is coming from an unusual angle or at a variegated speed. Queefs are normal and inevitable when you’re having interesting vaginal sex, and should be seen as a casual confirmation of that, not a ghastly interruption—or even something worth commenting on at all. Doing so is like admitting, “I have limited experience with etiquette.” Some alternate lines of thinking include…

If you’re the queefer:
Oh, a sound happened. Who cares?

If you’re the bequeefed:
Oh, a sound happened. Who cares? You do!

Take it as a compliment. To the untrained ear, queefs might not seem harmoanius with the sighs of pleasure you’re more used to classifying as evidence that your work is appreciated, but if you’re smart, you’ll come to hear these as hot.

Caught in the Act

If you live with people other than the ones you’re having sex with, they’re liable to know more of the intricacies of your goings-on than you’d both prefer, and vice versa. However vigilant you
think
you’re being, there’s always room for surprises here (especially if there’s a meager amount of
actual
room in your home): It’s possible you’ll be caught in some compromising situation.

There are plenty of settings in which you can be witnessed in flagrante delicto. Public sex is the best precisely because of the risk of getting caught… until the rare occasion on which that risk is realized. And if you escape this life without someone interrupting you as you jerk off, it should go in your obituary with the rest of your notable achievements.

You could be apprehended in one of these ways when you
think no one else is home… and are dead wrong. Or maybe you and your partner are staying in a foreign living space with others for a big event, like a wedding, family reunion, or competitive spell-a-thon, got a little drunk after, and badly misjudged the window of private time you’d have back at the base. In any case: You’ve been caught, and your face is mad red. Regain your composure and maybe even, if you’re a halfway decent actor, pass off your indelicate intertwining as a more chaste entanglement by…

• Considering your setting: Is it totally “inappropriate” for you to be boning in this context? Do you know you might harsh someone else’s good time (e.g., are you at a christening or something?). Then maybe don’t take off your clothes, or do so only with extreme caution. I don’t think it’s always bad to have sex in places you shouldn’t, as that will probably make for some of the most memorable sex of your life, but draw the line at having it somewhere that’s actively disrespectful to others (most of the time).

• Consider your potential audience: If you find you’re not hurting anyone by being a brazen public-sex-having menace (e.g., a national park ranger is not going to be galled to the gills that you’ve deigned to desecrate a redwood with your grapplings—
something no one has ever, ever done before
). Many other non-forester people in non-woodland surroundings, if they have senses of humor, will laugh this off, and some might even be like, “Good for you—get yours.” That leans heavily on the age and relationship factors in play here: Your mom, unless she is simultaneously unshakably cool and kind of alarming, boundary-wise, will not duck out like “Soz!” and then text you for the blow-by-blow later on, whereas your best friend might be more inclined in this way.

• Above all else, try lying: You don’t have to be an actor of Nude-Brando proportions, but you do have to put on a little show about what it was you were doing that was
very much not sex
, no way, no how. No one WANTS to go through the excruciating
conversation about the fact that they recently saw someone’s butt for all it truly was. Do you know how badly the interloper is probably wishing you’ll fill out the tail end of the phony statement, “We were just…” rather than having to accept the reality that they were watching you get some? Lying is the stepladder out of any potential sinkhole of embarrassment on the culprit’s end, sure, but it’s also a relief on the other end. Blaming clothing-related mishaps helps with any apparent nakedness: You were fixing a broken button on your partner’s pants! They noticed your zipper was broken, and knew they had to step in to help! You were cleaning spilled punch off of their bra with your tongue! That is all VERY believable, as long as everyone is uncomfortable enough.

Premature Ejaculation

I have never understood the impulse to knock a premature ejaculatore, but I do get it! From what I’ve noticed, no guy wants to be remembered as the one who couldn’t last—the loveless phrase “two-pump chump,” which was popular among my high school girlfriends, whooshes to mind. Much like dudes who aren’t hung, these people will usually put extra muscle into making sure you feel amazing with other parts of their anatomies. This is great news if you don’t get off on penetration alone—so, this is great news for many, many people. If someone is looking to reframe how you characterize them sexually, they probably know the surefire way to go about doing that: giving you life-changing head.