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A frown furrowed between
Ilona’s brows. “He said as much?”

Two years ago
. But, “Yes.”

“Did he really?”
Eve tapped a finger against her lips thoughtfully. “Perhaps he changed his mind.”

“Perhaps
he has.” Fiona looked from Eve to Ilona, seeing the understanding there. “That doesn’t necessarily mean I have changed mine.
I’ve moved on.”

“Have you?” Eve asked, sharing a look of concern with Ilona
. “You still don’t carry a torch for him somewhere deep down inside just as my heart lingered with Francis in all the years between our first meeting and our second?”

Eve was far too perceptive to be having a conversation such as this with
her. But Fiona wasn’t about to admit a thing to Eve that she refused to admit to herself. Not that there was anything to admit, of course.

“No I don’t because I, for one, believe that it is preferable to be Eli
nor Dashwood rather than Marianne, facing the future for what it is rather than pining for the past,” Fiona said referring to the characters in Jane Austen’s
Sense and Sensibility
. “I have a plan for my future, Eve, and Harrison Brudenall is not in it.”

“But did Elinor truly move on, Fiona?” Ilona asked skeptically
. “Did she find happiness where she could or did she still long for Mr. Ferrars in her heart and remain a single lady as the result?”

“She was content,” Fiona argued
. After all, every tale was open to interpretation by the reader and that was how she chose to take it. “Content with her choices as I am with mine.”

Eve raised a doubtful brow
. “Was she? Are you? Elinor was burdened by an overabundance of good sense, I think.”

“Yes,” Ilona agreed
. “She was exceedingly cautious and practical.”

“And I’m not
.” Fiona didn’t even dare to inflect a question into it. Such a query would have lifted that brow even higher; besides, Fiona wasn’t so blind to her own attributes and failings that she might even pretend to think she possessed those qualities. No, she wasn’t cautious or even practical, but Fiona was a realist and she told her sisters-in-law as much.

“No, Fiona dear, you are not,” Ilona agreed softly
. “You’re impulsive; I said as much the other day. But while grasping imprudently for one thing, you’re also running. Running from what troubles you and replacing it with a whole new set of troubles won’t solve anything.”

“You don’t understand,” she whispered, the words bitter at the back of her throat
. “Neither of you do. You can’t imagine what it is like to stand back and watch it all!”

Eve looked puzzled but Ilona only nodded with understanding, reaching out to draw Lela into her lap with a dejected sigh
. “Can I not?”

She trailed off with a shrug but Fiona knew her sister-in-law’s thoughts often as well as she knew her own
. While Ilona had found at least a part of what Fiona longed for with her marriage to Fiona’s brother, Colin, three years past, the couple hadn’t yet been blessed with a child of their own.

Brown eyes filled with caring and warmth, Ilona lifted her eyes back to Fiona’s. “I know what it is to want what you don’t have, Fiona. But I cannot evoke from nothing that which would make me happiest
. And neither can you.”

“Dearest Ilona
…” Eve sighed sadly, gleaning Ilona’s meaning as easily as Fiona. She took Ilona’s hand in hers and squeezed it sympathetically.

“Do not cry for me, my sisters,” Ilona said with her usual good cheer
. “I have the love of a man I adore, friends like you, and hope. It is all I need. What do you need, Fiona?”

“More than I have,” she confessed
. “I cannot continue to bear witness and unlike Jamie, I haven’t the option to run off to the Americas to escape it all.”

“Marriage has become your escape plan
.”

Fiona shrugged, reluctant to verbally concur with Eve’s conclusion
. Escape was such a desperate word.

Ilona laughed softly, and to Fiona’s surprise, humor danced in her chocolaty eyes
. “And Ramsay is your ‘more’? Tsk, tsk, dear. What a poorly considered plan.”

“Ilona!”

Her sister-in-law giggled. Eve was smiling as well. “I shan’t apologize. While you might find temporary relief with him, such a hasty course of action will only bring you misery in the end.”

“I would at least have a family of my own
. Children to love,” Fiona pointed out.

The light in Ilona’s eyes dimmed
. “There is no guarantee in that, I’m afraid. You’d be a fool to pin your hopes on it.”

“I’m sorry, Ilona,” Fiona said once more. How she hated hurting Ilona’s feelings when she was never anything but kind to her
. “I’ve put my foot in it this time, haven’t I?”

She smiled, her spirits rebounding quickly as always
. “No. Never.”

Eve looked down at the baby in her arms and at the other children around her
. “I’m sorry that I hadn’t realized how unhappy you had been living with us, Fiona. You as well, Ilona dear.”

“Oh, Evie
! I am not. I love you all and am glad for the joy each and every one of you has,” Fiona assured her. “I just want more for myself.
If I can’t have the one thing I every truly wanted in this life, I must at least have this.”

“What did you ever want that you could not have?” Eve asked curiously.

Ilona was also piercing her with those all-seeing eyes, searching for an answer but Fiona refused to offer anything more. Still her eyes widened, then danced as if she had been privy to some titillating gossip. “Did you know, Eve,” she said, turning to Eve, “that just a few days ago, I was saying that even without having met Lord Ramsay, I knew Fiona did not love him?”

“Is that so
? What did you say to that, Fiona?”

Fiona pressed her lips together, declining to speak.

“She agreed of course but wondered how I knew.” Ilona leaned toward Eve with an air of confidentiality and whispered. “No fire, you see?”

“Ilona!” Fiona protested.

“Hmm,” Eve nodded. “I do.”

“Evie, please!”

“The funny thing is,” Ilona continued, “I have seen it now. Yes I have, but not in regards to Lord Ramsay. Isn’t that odd?”

Eve nodded, casting a sidelong glance of amusement at Fiona who was all but huffing in outrage.

“But you know the oddest thing?” Ilona went on blithely, as if she were completely unaware of Fiona’s outrage. “Lord Ramsay seems to bear a striking resemblance to Lord Ayls –”

“Ilona MacKintosh!” Fiona cried out, climbing to her feet
. “Enough! It is one thing to disparage my choice but quite another to imply that I… that he … Oh!”

A
ware that her sisters-in-law were smiling a trifle smugly as she left them behind, Fiona stomped off to the water’s edge where Laurie and Preston were still throwing bread to the waterfowl.

Surely their conversation would be far easier to bear.

 

Chapter
Eleven

 

From the diary of Lady Fiona MacKintosh – Feb 1893

 

So much happened last night at Vin’s welcome ball. Rumor has it that Vin caught Harry kissing Moira in the hall and nearly beat the stuffing out of him before Vin was caught scandalously kissing her as well by that horrid, gossiping toad, Reginald Wallis!

I cannot even countenance the former as surely my brother would have caused Harry some visible damage but the real news is that because of the latter, Vin and Moira have become engaged
!

I will have my chance with Harry at last!

 

The Glenrothes Townhouse

117 Eaton Square

Belgravia, London, England

Three nights later

 

Two years.

The last word
s she had said to Aylesbury then had been hurled at him in anger and then the bitterness she harbored toward him had lain dormant until she had seen him once again. One would think that such a length of time would diminish it but her blood boiled each time she saw him and now yet again, it began to simmer at the mere sight of him standing at the drawing room door with Hobbes at his side as the butler announced him.

“My lady, the Marquis of Aylesbury.”

As overwhelming as his appearance was, Fiona didn’t want the anger that fired her blood. Didn’t want the past to encroach on her future. She resented its intrusion into her life almost as much as she resented his. In fact, she had decided that the best course of action would be to avoid his company all together while they were in London. To focus her attentions on performing her role in her brother’s little production as planned and moving forward with her own sub-plot to his scheme.

And it would have played out just fine if Aylesbury had properly taken his cues from her and stayed well
enough away.

“What on earth is he doing here
?” The question was asked of no one in particular, but Eve provided the answer anyway as Moira played hostess and went to greet the interloper.

“I invited him to dine with us
.”

Fiona shook her head, struck witless by incomprehension.
“But–but …
why
?”

Eve
eyed her curiously. “I thought that with the numbers odd at the table tonight, what with all the younger lads out for the evening, you would enjoy a pleasant dinner companion.”

They expected her to
sit
next to him, as well?

“Besides, we like him.”

Granted Fiona had never breathed a word of what had occurred between her and Aylesbury to anyone in the family, but surely they must have taken some hint from her unmistakable displeasure at seeing him again? From their recent conversation?  At least enough to assume she was not as overjoyed with his presence as they all were.

Even an inkling that she might be irked to find him as her dinner partner.

“Evie, whatever it is you think you might accomplish with this, you’re wrong.”

Vin spoke from her other side
. “What is he doing here?”

Fiona raised a brow to
Eve. “It seems he is here because we
like
him.”

“Like him?” Vin scoffed, tossing back his drink in a single swallow
. “He’s as irritating as a horse’s ass, is what he is. There’s not a serious bone in his body. He’s … What’s the word? Irksome.”


Hubristic,” Fiona added with relish, pleased to have an ally who shared her dislike of the marquis.

Vin nodded
, casting her a satisfied grin. It seemed he felt the same way. “Cocky.”

“Pribbling.”

“Vainglorious.”

“Nonsense,” Eve
countered with a smile for Vin. “You’re only saying that because he was in love with Moira.”

It stung to hear it out loud
. But then, the truth often did. Just as it had to hear him admit his love for another unknown woman so publically.

Moira’s laughter had them turning to find her nearby on Aylesbury’s arm
. “In love with Harry? Heavens no!”

“Not at all,” the marquis concurred
smoothly, his somber gaze falling on Fiona though she refused to meet his eye. “We were too good of friends. Like an old married couple. Like a comfortable slipper.”

“Well, I
like that!” Moira laughed, hugging his arm affectionately. “I’m a slipper now, am I?”

“Yes
.” A shadow of a smile passed over Aylesbury’s lips. “All worn in.”

“I rather think she’s like a new pair of shoes,” Vin said dryly
. “Always pinching. Do you mind, Aylesbury?” he added over the laughter. “I’ll take my wife’s arm and put it back where it belongs.”

Moira abandoned the marquis in favo
r of her husband quickly enough and Vin led her away, whispering something in his wife’s ear that prompted what could only be labeled as a provocative laugh. Fiona watched them go, but Eve caught her eye, looking pointedly at Aylesbury before she, too, slipped away leaving Fiona standing alone with the marquis in the middle of the room.

Aylesbury rocked back on
his heels but didn’t speak. Fiona didn’t know what he was waiting for but whatever it was, he wasn’t going to get it from her. Instead she stared up at a landscape in oil hanging above the fireplace until the brushstrokes began to blur.  He studied her just as intently.

Finally he spoke, the deep, melodic baritone that had once rang musically in her ears, grating against her tightly strung nerves
. “I wanted to apologize for abandoning you so rudely in the park the yesterday. Business called me away.”

“Business?” Fiona repeated, lifting a mocking brow
. “Is that what you call it?”

Aylesbury winced at her suggestive tone
. He had never considered what his departure might have looked like from her point of view. “Of sorts. I’d like to explain.”

Her lips compressed into a flat – regrettably familiar – line
. “You needn’t explain anything to me, Harry Brudenall,” she said with brisk indifference. “I am not your keeper nor does it matter to me what your business is.”

“That’s too bad
. I was hoping you had missed my company.”

“You hoped wrong
. I do quite well without it, thank you.”

“Do you
?”

 

Unable to bear his company and proximity even a moment longer, Fiona turned on her heel and walked away from him yet again. Taking a glass of wine from a footman as she passed, she made her way to the corner of the room where Richard and Abby were chatting with Ilona and Coline.

With a tight smile, s
he worked her way to Ilona’s side, fuming internally as the conversation wended its way around her. But Fiona heard not a word of it. Aylesbury’s presence had her so tied in livid knots that all she could hear was the blood pounding in her ears while tension roiled in her gut.

She couldn’t do this
. She couldn’t be here with him. Sharing the same city was bad enough, but to occupy the same room? To sit next to him at dinner? The anger she harbored for him might have worked from a distance but it was useless with Aylesbury standing right next to her. There was too much behind them. Too much pain still in her heart when she was near him. And she hadn’t even met his eye yet and already he had her dwelling in the past.

She didn’t need to look back, only wanted to move forward
. With Ramsay. Or if Francis denied her that, with someone else. Good God, anyone else at this point.

Not even if Aylesbury came to her on his knees

Not that there was even a chance of that happening.

“You could freeze hell with that look,” Richard said quietly. “Are you not glad to see Aylesbury again, Blossom? I can clearly remember you once saying that he was everything a woman could want in a man.”

Yes, she had said that once upon a time
. Aylesbury did have everything a normal woman would want. He was titled, wealthy, charming, and witty. And that smile! Oh, he hadn’t shown it yet tonight but he soon would. The barely contained humor, the endless cheer. All of it practiced and calculated to melt a woman’s heart.

“He is still a bachelor, I hear,” her brother added.

Was he? Then who was
she
? No! I don’t care!

Fiona gnashed her teeth
. “Obviously a far better choice than Lord Ramsay, right?” she asked with bitter sarcasm. “Is that why he’s here?”

Good Lord, if her family somehow thought to neatly substitute Aylesbury for Ramsay at her side, Fiona thought she just might have to elope after all.

“No, but it is an intriguing idea, isn’t it? We all like him and he is a handsome one, isn’t he?” Abby teased, squeezing her husband’s arm.

“Enough of that from you,” Richard
growled under his breath, hugging his wife to his side. Aylesbury had a long history of irritating the men in her family. If only he might affect the women just the same, thus keeping him from the MacKintosh home and hence, her presence.


Quite honestly, I have to agree with Abby,” Coline said with a broad smile while Ilona nodded her concurrence as well.

“He is
. Isn’t he, Fiona?” Ilona asked pointedly, eyeing her thoughtfully.

“Isn’t he what?” she countered evasively.

“Handsome?”

Fiona looked at Aylesbury who was now conversing with Eve and Francis near the fireplace
. She wasn’t about to admit that there was anything attractive about him, not anymore. No, there was nothing about him that was handsome to her any longer. Nothing about those strong features that might be called beautiful or even godlike. Nothing about the clarity of his bright blue eyes that invited a woman to look into his soul.

Nothing about his wavy black hair that made her fingers itch to run through it
. Nothing about the curve of his lips when a smile lifted the corner of his mouth that could inexplicitly call an answering smile to hers. Nothing about his height and muscular physique that could conceivably drive a woman to distraction with fantasies of what might lie beneath his finely tailored dinner jacket.

Her fingers tightened around her glass, her knuckles turning white until Ilona
discreetly took it from her and set it aside.

No, there was absolutely nothing about Harry Brudenall that could possibly make her blood rush like a flame through her veins
. Or make her feel as if she were in a constant flush. Or make her heart race like the wind over the Highlands.

Nothing
! Damn him.

“Is he?” Fiona
’s voice dripped with deliberate disdain. “Showy, perhaps. Like a peacock.”

Richard laughed at that, tossing back his head but Abby only frowned
. “That is rather unkind, Blossom. You rather fancied Aylesbury at one time.”

As if he could feel her eyes on him, Aylesbury lifted his eyes to hers, holding them before lifting his glass in a silent salute
. Fiona’s eyes narrowed, now welcoming the return of her anger.


No, Abby,” she said tightly. “Not any longer. Will you excuse me? I have a frightful headache, I’m afraid.”

 

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