Authors: Jayde Scott
Too late . I fel into the door and the bel above it jingled, signaling a visitor. No, signaling me, gasping for breath and flopping around on the pavement like a fish. If it didn't hurt so bad I would've laughed.
Two boots appeared in front of my face, so close I could feel the leather on the tip of my nose. A hand gripped my shoulder and a voice said something, maybe. Then everything faded.
***
Someone was trying to pound my chest into submission. Okay, okay, I conceded. But whatever was above me couldn't read my mind. Instead of stopping, it dragged something sharp across my col arbone.
Damn that stings . I placed my hand over the scratch and opened my eyes.
My long, black hair was plastered to my face. In between the strands I saw two slanted, yel ow eyes staring back. I sucked in a breath as the mass of fur meowed and catapulted forward, pushing its wet nose into my chin.
"You're final y up. Are you feeling better?" A man's voice. It sounded contemplative and primal, as if someone were whispering a lament over a dying fire. Or perhaps it only seemed so enigmatic because I was half awake.
"I hope you're not al ergic to cats," he continued.
Clack . Something was placed beside me. I rol ed my head to the side. My temples stil pounded lightly and my vision was stil blurry. The fact that I was being attacked by kitty kisses probably didn't help.
"Not al ergic." I sniffed the mug on the table and grimaced. "Hate coffee," I muttered.
Out of the corner of my eye I saw a hand reach down to grip the mug and cringed, this time from pure shame. I wanted to explain that I wasn't normal y that selfish, but my tongue refused to move.
Luckily he just chuckled. "Be right back." His footsteps grew distant and then inaudible, leaving me alone with the sound of the cat's rhythmic purring.
I rubbed its sleek coat as my vision cleared. Dim light spil ed over the wal s from over a dozen candles. The way they were spaced around the room in a circle reminded me of a séance, but that's where the similarities between this storage space and a midnight ritual ended. Instead of being sprawled across an altar dressed in something sheer and white, I was underneath a woolen blanket on a faded pink couch that smel ed of coffee and dust. Bookcases lined the wal s from floor to ceiling, and even more books were stacked in tal , uneven piles throughout the room.
Plus the cat that lapped at my fingers was orange and gray, not black.
The footsteps returned from behind. "Here's some water." A hand set down another mug and gave the cat an affectionate pat on the head.
"Looks like I'm condemned to be eternal y bossed around by temperamental women."
Before I could respond or turn to face him, the owner of the voice walked to the leather armchair in front of me and sat.
I stopped breathing. The man--no, not a man, for he couldn't have been more than a few years older than me--was beautiful in that indie musician or starving poet kind of way. He wasn't very tal , but long, lean muscles fil ed out every inch of his frame. His hair wasn't long enough to hide the silver stud in his left ear, but it stil covered most of his angular face. On his left forearm was a tattoo of a goat inside a triangular design, and on his right a tattoo of a Chinese-style dragon that seemed to dance over his skin when he moved.
His eyes watched me, unblinking. They were dark and green, like the forest in late spring after a rain. They somehow seemed as vast and deep as the woods as wel ; I felt as if I could step into them and disappear.
"Where am I?" I asked too softly, as if I didn't want him to hear.
"In the back of Morrison's." He turned the book he'd been holding over. "You seem to have fainted while reading this," he said and raised it up.
No, this couldn't be happening. My cheeks turned as pink as the cover when he cracked open Sweet Savage Sentiments and began flipping through the pages.
He grinned when I gave no verbal response. "Was it real y that good?"
A lump formed in my throat. This incredibly cute guy could not be reading that book in front of me. I would have dared him to read that book if it had been something by Laura Kinsale or Julia Quinn. But Sweet Savage Sentiments? With al that throbbing and trembling, and the countless engorged members...
Oh God, I had to get it back.
I sat up. The cat slid down my chest and into my lap, but continued to knead as if it hadn't been interrupted. "Before you read any more I just want you to know that I didn't real y like it." I said, and almost winced at how defensive my tone sounded. "I mean, I do like romance novels, but that particular one didn't do it for me."
He put down the book and rested his chin in his left hand. "Which ones do it for you, then?"
My chest began to heave. The cat thought that was great fun and began kneading my legs with more vigor, but the rapid clawing didn't even faze me. How was I supposed to answer a question like that? And how could I have set such an obvious trap for myself? "You're enjoying this way too much," I replied, trying to change the subject.
He brushed his thumb over the book's hot pink spine. I shivered. "Am I the only one..." he lowered his voice and leaned forward "...enjoying it?"
I couldn't take it anymore. I gripped my hands into compact, deadly fists, grit my teeth, looked him in the eyes...
And laughed right in his face.
He leaned back with a bemused expression. "I didn't expect that response."
I choked on the air. "What did you expect, exactly?" I wheezed.
It took a moment for him to answer. "I don't know. Something saucier, I suppose."
I shook my head and stretched out my hand. "Something tel s me you've had enough 'sauce' in your life. Now please give me back my book."
He raised a brow. "But it's not your book."
"Wel , I was going to buy it," I replied smugly. It seemed like a harmless lie at the moment.
It wasn't.
"So you weren't going to put it back, then? Sweet Savage Sentiments does actual y do it for you?"
I took a deep breath. I wasn't going to let him fluster me that easily...again. "For 35 cents it most certainly does. Especial y if it prevents a misunderstanding."
"I just raised the price." He grinned and held the book above his head as if I would try to jump for it. To my mortification I realized for a second that I had considered doing just that.
I actual y huffed. "Do not make me result to underhanded measures."
It was the wrong thing to say. He gave me a devastating smile. "Oh, I definitely wouldn't mind."
My breath caught in my chest. Misunderstood artsy types weren't supposed to smile like that. They were supposed to glance at others condescendingly and ooze sarcastic witticisms. I felt like this guy was going to wiggle his eyebrows and ask me to "wrassle."
If he had I might've even taken him up on it.
I looked down, suddenly uncomfortable with being in such a smal space with a man I didn't know. Even if he did work at Morrison's. Even if he did have a soothing voice and just one look at him made me go weak in the knees.
Actual y, especial y because of al those things.
Hiss .
My torso tensed. I glanced left just in time to see a fly soar into the candle on the stool next to me.
The inside of its abdomen glowed like embers, then burst, feeding the flames as if it were an oil-soaked wick. Heat spread across my cheeks from either the fire, or my blood, I wasn't sure. My throat went dry as that smal , fragile body disintegrated.
Then the flame returned to its normal, subdued dance, as if nothing had happened.
My arms tightened around the cat. A sickening image seeped into my mind--of it leaping from me and burning to ash before I could react. In return, the kitty purred and licked my fingertips, but that gesture gave me little comfort. I couldn't forget that almost soundless, pointless death.
Hypnotical y, I stared into the flames and wondered why they stil seemed so beautiful.
"You haven't had any water," the man said slowly, breaking the spel .
I nodded and reached for the glass. My trembling fingers almost knocked it over, but on my third try I got a good grip and took a sip. It tasted a bit metal ic, but familiar. I shut my eyes.
"Did that bother you?"
I knew exactly what he was talking about--the fly. I nodded and tucked my chin into my chest, wondering why he'd asked. Obviously I'd been upset. In fact, I stil was.
"Why?"
I set down the cup. Why did my throat stil feel so dry even after that sip of water? Why did he ask that question when I was obviously upset by it?
"I've never understood it," he began. "When people do it, we glorify them, and yet when an animal does it, or a creature even more insignificant, like a fly, we either laugh at their stupidity or feel pity because we believe their sacrifice to be pointless."
"Do what?" I asked with a hoarse voice.
"A man kil ing himself in the pursuit of his dreams is no different than a moth flying into a flame. Like Kurt Cobain, El iott Smith, or..." he picked up a complete volume of Keats' letters beside his seat, "insert-your-favorite-Romantic-poet-here."
"Keats is one of my favorites," I said absently.
"Mine too." He looked down. His voice sounded distant then, as if a mil ennium of sorrow were contained in those two words--just as a Romantic poet can transcribe years of tragedy in a single phrase or stanza. Then he continued: "It's inconsistent, don't you think? We should either reduce humanity to the level of the insect when it comes to heroic or romantic yearnings, or ennoble the fly."
He glanced up from the candle, back at me. I couldn't read his expression. His eyes were guarded, or at least they seemed so behind his dark hair. They captured the image of the fire like a mirror--a reflection of a gold and red dancing on the surface of a green pool.
His finger slid over his bottom lip. I couldn't tear my gaze from the fluid movement. There was something conspiratorial about it, as if he were about to impart a secret of great importance.
"Do you want to get something to eat?" He asked.
My heartbeat hammered in my neck. My limbs froze. The kitty noticed the change in my demeanor immediately. She stood and started rubbing her head against my stomach with a vengeance. "What?" I croaked, suddenly tongue-tied as the cat's tail tickled my chin.
"I wouldn't feel right letting you stumble home after my merchandise caused you to col apse on my doorstep. I need to make sure you're safe."
Oh, that was it. He thought I might sue him or the place--he wasn't asking me out or anything. I leaned back. "Don't worry about it. It's not actual y your doorstep."
"Yes it is. I own the place."
I raised one of my brows. This pierced, tattooed guy with ripped jeans and a tight black t-shirt was the owner of a store where the average customer's age was at least 55? "How old are you?"
"Not too old, in this incarnation anyway." He smiled again. "I recently inherited it."
"Lucky you," I said, and resumed petting the impatient cat. "I love this place, and am glad it went to someone who wants to keep it open instead of sel ing it to a developer."
"You real y think I should keep it open? I've heard most people don't read anymore, and those that do prefer ebooks. I could probably sel it for a good price and settle down--"
"You can't seriously be thinking of sel ing!" I felt my cheeks get hot. I took a deep breath, swal owed "I mean, Morrison's has been here forever, and..."
"And?" He repeated when I didn't finish.
I sighed. "And I just realized you were teasing me."
"So why don't you tel me more about how happy you are that this ancient, crumbling building is stil in place? We can head over to Dixie's next door." He stood and parted the long strings of glow-in-the-dark beads that hung over the door with a dramatic flick of the wrist. "I'l pay."
"That offer is tempting, but I have homework." The words were out before I could stop them. I almost hit myself in the head. No, that wasn't what I'd meant to say. I mean, I did have homework, but I could do it later. Or just forget about it.
I bit my lip. Maybe I hesitated because stuff like this never happened to girls like me who wore secondhand clothes every day.
"What subject? I'l help you."
I looked at my lap to hide my smile. I couldn't believe he'd actual y offered to help me with homework. I told myself he probably didn't mean it, but I couldn't stop that giddy, warm feeling in my stomach.
"History," I told him.
"Good, I know a lot about history."
I shook my head. "Alright."
He grinned. "You're easy, I like that."
I didn't real y have a response. I guess I was easy.
Then he was on his knees in front of me. "Come here Princess," he cooed.
My pulse spiked. I wondered if I should I slap him or "come here." Then I realized he was talking to the cat.
He cradled her in his arms as she squirmed and hissed, then set her down on a lavish purple pil ow accented with golden tassels. "See what I said about temperamental women? You aren't going to give me that much trouble, are you?"
"I don't intend to," I replied.
"Yeah," he said wearily and looked away as we made our way through the maze-like rows of bookshelves to the front of the store.
"I just realized I don't know your name," I said.
"It's Oz," he responded without turning around.
I couldn't help but smile. "As in The Wizard of...?"
This time he did turn and nodded with a smile.
"No need to make that face with me. My name is Devi," I explained. "I don't real y look it, but my grandmother was from India."
"It's a beautiful name," he said, and leaned against the door.
The last light of day peeked through the space between his body and the door frame. Lovely, I thought. It was my last coherent thought.
Pain. It pierced my skul , pumped through my veins, burned like acid as if it were liquidating my body. I couldn't see. Couldn't think. I barely even felt the sting as my knees hit the tile floor.
"Stop. Stop," I screamed, and tried to wiggle through the doorway. Tried to get away. My arms twisted and convulsed like they had popped out of the ground in front of a tombstone in a B-horror movie.