A Girl Called Fearless (4 page)

But under the whale was a plain white envelope with my name on it.
Please don't let this be a letter.
I didn't want to know what awful things she'd been through. Not really.

My fingers trembled as I picked up the envelope, but then I heard the slinky sound of a chain and I ripped it open. Becca's silver dolphin pendant.

She'd always worn it. Always. I fastened the necklace around my neck. My finger ran down the sleek silver back and caught on the fin. I forgot. Becca had taken it off right before her Signing.

The books she'd left me weren't any I recognized. I checked to see if she'd written anything inside. Nothing. But I found a photo between the pages of
The Awakening
.

It was from our last vacation in Maui, and it was me and Becca and Yates posing on the beach with our arms around each other. Our dads were in the background, lounging at the resort bar.

I stared at the picture. It was August just before Mr. Sandell surprised Becca by Signing her away to pay off his gambling debts. Our moms had both died two years before. Becca had handed me down her two-piece, because I'd just gotten breasts and my one-piece didn't fit anymore. The shiny fabric was printed with turquoise fish scales, and I felt like a mermaid, tying the skinny straps behind my neck.

I remembered Yates taking me to the surf shop and getting me measured for a board. Becca was off snorkeling when we carried the boards to the wet sand and pulled on our rash guards. Then Yates squirted zinc oxide onto his finger and swiped a skunk stripe down my nose.

We paddled out to where the waves were breaking, and sat on our boards, watching the ocean swell. The waves broke small and lazy, and we did more talking than surfing.

The resort had posted armed guards in speedboats, but Roik wouldn't take his eyes off us. He stood in the surf beside Becca's bodyguard as she snorkeled.

A big wave came along, and we paddled hard to catch it. I felt the wave grab my board and I leaped onto my feet and stretched out my hands. Yates soared alongside me, our fingers nearly touching, the wave surging under our boards, rocketing us to the shore, when I fell.

I hit the water, tumbling under the wave, and spinning, spinning as the blue pinned me down. I held my breath, fighting the fear that I couldn't get free, that the wave would hold me there forever, churning me until all the air in my lungs was gone.

Then it passed and spit me up, and when I finally broke the surface, I saw Yates swimming right for me. He'd torn off his leash and abandoned his board. “You okay?!”

I wiped the hair out of my face, and kicked to stay up. “Yeah,” I said, realizing that I was okay. I had survived the spinning, collapsing surf.

Yates beamed. “You rocked out there,” he said. “Ready to go again?”

I smiled back, wanting to be a girl that rocked it. “Sure.”

Later when we came in, my legs had turned to Jell-O and Yates walked me to the dry sand, his arm around my waist. Roik met us and threw Yates a towel. Then Roik stood between us like a wall as he wrapped mine around my shoulders.

Becca ran up, her eyes flashing as she told us about the sandbar shark that passed ten feet below her. “When I'm a biologist, I'm going to live right here in Maui and study sharks!”

Now she was gone.

I sank to the floor, and Dusty ran over and jumped in my lap. She looked at me with her big round doggy eyes. “What are we gonna do, girl?”

Dusty squirmed and knocked the photo out of my hand and onto the carpet. That's when I saw the scribbled inscription on the back.

A, Stay free!!! B.

Chills went through me. Becca always ended her messages with a heart or a smile, not exclamation points that looked like slashes. She wasn't telling me to
be myself.

I heard Roik downstairs and scrambled to my feet. He'd gone through the photos on my laptop last year and, in a complete violation of my privacy, edited out Yates and every other guy over twelve. I wasn't about to let him get his hands on this. I flipped through the DVDs in my bookshelf.

Titanic
was piled with Mom's old favorites that Gerard had saved for me. I opened the case and took out the card with the cast list and director's comments. Before I stuck the photo inside, I took a second to look at the other one I'd hidden.

Day had Seth take it for me for my birthday. Yates was speaking onstage at a rally for justice. His fist was in the air and his motorcycle jacket was open, and I could read the Thoreau quote on his shirt:
LET YOUR LIFE BE A COUNTERFRICTION TO STOP THE MACHINE.

Students crowded the lawn, looking hypnotized by what he was saying. Especially the blond girl next to him. I felt a sudden, sharp twinge right in my chest and dropped the photo on the floor.

Keep it together
. I made myself breathe, trying to make the twinge go away as I tucked both photos out of sight and snapped the case shut.

When I turned around, Becca's dolphin glinted at me in the mirror.

Stay free!!!
Oh, Becca, I wish I knew how to do that.

I wrapped my fingers around the little silver dolphin and held on tight. Becca had gone through with her Signing. Dayla had run from hers. I didn't want to end up like either of them, but I didn't see any way out.

Pending Contract

10

When I came down for breakfast, Gerard had made me cinnamon toast with chopped walnuts sprinkled on top, his version of a hug. I gave him a thank-you smile, and he gave me a latte. Then we had our usual It's Too Early To Say Anything Breakfast together, but we both knew it wasn't usual at all.

He passed me cucumber slices to put on my puffy eyes. Then he turned down the volume on the Domestic Arts Channel, because he knew I saw way too much of Martha Stewart in training videos at school.

I held the cucumbers on my eyes and thought about how I had to announce to my class that I was Pending Contract. And worse than that, I had to tell Yates. Knowing how he hated Contracts, I wanted him to hear it from me, not someone else. I'd tried to record a message back to him, but fifteen seconds wasn't nearly enough time to explain how this was Dad's deal, not mine.

Gerard was making up the grocery list on his cell when a news flash came in. Usually, he'd just glance at them and go back to what he was doing, but this time he slid the phone over to me. “I think you might want to see this.”

I put the cukes down.

“Sources close to multimillionaire and gubernatorial hopeful Jes Hawkins confirmed his bid to acquire a thirty percent stake in ailing biotech firm Biocure Technologies. The acquisition is rumored to include a Contract for the sixteen-year-old daughter of CEO August Reveare.”

Tell me this is not happening
. There was a pic of me in my uniform standing on the Masterson front steps.

“You're kidding me! Who took this?” I shoved it so hard it smacked Gerard's cup.

“Based on the timing and where it was taken, my guess is a bodyguard in need of cash. I'll tell Roik to let the other guards know you're off-limits.”

What I really wanted was to be off-limits to Jes Hawkins.

Gerard pretended not to notice while I scanned the Net for any more humiliating pics. So far everyone was using the same one, but the bloggers were each applying their own uniquely cruel comments about whether Hawkins got a good deal.

In just twelve hours, my private life had turned into media food. Becoming Jes Hawkins' Intended made me a target. I would be followed, watched even worse than before.

When Dad got home, I'd push him to kill the publicity—he was always pretty protective. The problem was that, right now, he was more concerned about saving Biocure than he was about me.

11

Before we got in the car, I handed Roik the earring. “I won't be passing messages for you anymore,” he said, “You're Under Contract, now.”

I watched him slip Sparrow's invention into his pocket. “First, Yates is my
friend
. And second, technically, I'm
Pending
Contract,” I said back.

Roik yanked open the door. “I could go to prison if anything happened. Accessory to grand larceny. They're holding Seth Brown without bail.”

Coward.
“Don't worry. Nothing's going to happen. Why would it?” I said brightly. “I'm Contracted to Jes Hawkins. Lots of girls would kill to marry a man like him.”

Roik's voice softened. “All right. Just so's we're in agreement.”

“Of course we are.” I climbed into the car.

Roik drove, one hand on the wheel and the other on the automatic weapon on the seat. After Amber Saunders was taken during an ambush, he and all the other bodyguards had powered up.

If Roik wouldn't help me, I thought, maybe Janitor Jake would. He ran the “magic oven” in cooking lab. Put in an expensive pair of boots, tags still on, and a couple days later the contraband you desire appears. What would he charge me to pass a message to Yates? Prescription drugs? High-tech toys?

News vans met us at the community gates and followed us all the way to Masterson, even after Roik flashed his automatic weapon.

I cringed in the backseat behind the tinted glass and shades Roik had tossed me. The paparazzi on motorcycles couldn't see me, but they ran alongside the car, snapping at the windows like a pack of wolves.

A security team stopped the photographers at the Masterson gates, but the paparazzi yelled my name and shutters clicked at my back as I walked up the front steps. The Headmaster met me at the door and informed me that instead of going to class, I was to go directly to Mr. Hope's office.

I'd forgotten they'd make me see the Signing Counselor. I flung my backpack over my shoulder and stamped down the hall, averting my eyes from the Signing portraits: girls in crystal- and pearl-encrusted dresses who'd left Masterson their junior or senior year to get married. Only four seniors had actually graduated last spring.

I knocked on Mr. Hope's door, remembering how Dayla used to call him No Hope, because once you got Signed—

Hope pointed and I dropped into the hard chair across from his desk. He shut the door and all the air in the room was sucked out.

I glanced at his shelf, and saw that the rumor was true. Even though Hope dressed the hip academic, all tweed jacket and tortoiseshell glasses, there was a photo of him spray-tanned and oiled up for a bodybuilding contest.

“Congratulations on your impending nuptials,” he said, pure business. “This is merely a preliminary meeting. We will discuss the details of the Signing and Wedding ceremonies after you've had a chance to think about what you want.”

I nodded.
I want this to go away.

“I suggest you take the next two days to think, and we'll meet again on Thursday. Normally, I would not recommend undertaking a Signing on such a short deadline, but Mr. Hawkins has assured us that with his resources and connections—”

“Wait. What do you mean, short deadline? I thought we were setting the Signing for March or April?”

“Oh, no, Mr. Hawkins was quite clear that given his campaign schedule, the Signing must be completed by November twenty-third and the Wedding no later than December first.”

“December first? But there has to be some mistake. That's three weeks from now!”

“No, I can read you his instructions if you like.”

I jerked my backpack up off the floor. “I need to talk to my father. This has got to be a mistake,” I said, tearing the door open.

“I'll see you on Thursday, Ms. Reveare.”

12

I called Dad. It wasn't a mistake. Hawkins had written the deadlines right into the Contract.

I walked down the hall as if I was lost deep underwater. I couldn't hear, couldn't feel, couldn't even cry.

Back in class, Ms. A stood below the new school crest: “Chastity Fidelity Maternity.” I remembered laughing when the workmen installed it, but now I understood why Ms. A had gotten so angry.

Maternity.
In a few months, I could be pregnant with a little Hawkins baby. The first of as many as he wants.

Ms. A signaled for me to come up to the front. “Avie has an announcement!”

Radiance,
that's what you want to give off, Ms. A told Dayla when she had to make her announcement. I stood beside Ms. A, trying to glow. “I'm Pending Contract!”

“PC!” everyone screamed, and they rushed up, squealing like our team had scored. They embraced me in a huddle.

“I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry,” Zara whispered.

I clenched my teeth and smiled for the camera.

Shavelle started everyone singing “Going to the Chapel,” and we swayed as a group while my classmates whispered how sorry they were.

They were trying so hard, but all their sympathy made my being PC painfully real. Real and inescapable and devastatingly final.

“What's his name?” Portia asked.

“It's Jessop Hawkins,” Sparrow answered.

The others looked at her. “It's all over the news,” she said. Only Sparrow, with her incredible tech skills, always had access to restricted information like current events.

“When's the Signing?” Portia said.

“November twenty-third. Two weeks! And the Wedding's a week later!” The song died out. “I know,” I said. “It's hideously fast.”

“Will he let you finish the semester?” Sophie whispered.

Dad hadn't said anything, but once I Signed the Contract, I belonged to Jes. “I don't know.”

“I doubt it,” Sparrow said. “Hawkins is running for governor so he probably wants his pretty little wife out on the campaign trail with him.”

Cold, hard reality snapped me awake.
Hawkins is a Paternalist and he's going to run for governor with me by his side.

I would have to stand there and smile as he made speeches about how girls didn't need an education or to know how to drive, how they didn't need to have a say in who they married or if they had babies, because their dads or husbands would think for them.