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Authors: Daniel Ehrenhaft

Tags: #Action & Adventure, #New York (N.Y.), #Fiction, #General, #Best friends, #Juvenile Fiction, #Social Issues, #Friendship, #United States, #People & Places, #Psychology, #Terminally ill, #Anxiety, #Health & Daily Living, #Diseases; Illnesses & Injuries, #Emotions

10 Things to Do Before I Die

Table of Contents

Title Page

Dedication

Prologue: The Story of My Death

A Very Active Inner Life

Wet Willy

Things I Love About Rachel Klein

The Swirling Vortex Inside My Head

Something to Think About

Exit Cue

Sniveling Coward

A Round of Waters for Everyone!

Opportunity

The Hands of a Burly Lumberjack

Hooked on the Drug of Flattery

That Dickhead, Billy Rifkin

Twenty Bucks

Glass-Half-Full Kind of Guy

Crimes Against Humanity

The Creeps

Lou and Frankie

My Wild Daydream Problem

The Most Billboards per Square Mile of Any Town in the World

Two out of Four Ain’t Bad

A Very Grim Confluence of Conversations

Epiphany

The Second Big Fight of the Last Day of My Life

Down to Business

Heroism, Nigeria, Bank Robbing, and Suicide

Call Me a Nut

The Land of Extraordinary Coincidence

My Obligation

Surprise Attack

The “Seal-a-Deal” Strategy

Sweet, Sweet, Sweet!

Not to Sound Like Jesus or Anything

Nutshell

The Meaning of Joy

Dr. Groove Meister, PhD

Trusting a Person Is All That Matters

Doughnut-Shaped Universe

Questions

A Brief History of Shakes the Clown

An Overwhelming Urge to Lean Over and Hug Nikki

Keep the Change

Freakin’ Bold, Dude

Things I Love About Rachel Klein, Redux

Well Done

Guilt by Self-Association

A Really Huge Favor

The Indescribable Feeling You Get When Your Real Life Exceeds Your Dreams

Okeydokey, Artichokey?

In Order of Importance

Myself, Ted Burger

Human Sacrifice

Contagious Electricity

The Magnificent Balloon Rhinoceros Analogy

Give This Man a Clown Nose!

The Answer to Wes’s Question

Failed with a Capital F

Now Get on Your Knees, Bend Over, and Thank Me

Belly Flop

Not a Jovial, Retirement-Age Italian or Israeli Guy

Appetizer

Another Big, Huge Favor

No Baggage

Fingers

Betrayal

Sleep on the Red-Eye

Change of Plan

No Credit

Black Hole of Nothingness

Preface to the Great Gig in the Sky

Death of a Clown: I

Death of a Clown: II

Death of a Clown: III

Doubt

Caveman Style

Pieces of the Puzzle

Venting

Fraud

Cartoon Characters

Walls and Barriers

Metaconclusion

Epilogue: A Month Later

Copyright Page

For Paulina and Georgia

Prologue: The Story of My Death

My name is Ted Burger. I am sixteen years old. I am an only child. I live in New York City.

I Will not live to see seventeen.

What else? Let’s see… . My voice is pretty deep but it squeaks sometimes, like an old rusty bicycle. I have curly brown hair. “Brillo pad hair,” in my best friend Mark’s Words. I am tall and skinny. My fingers are, too. They look like twigs. “Musician’s fingers,” says my guitar teacher, Mr. Puccini. (Translation: “Girlie fingers.”) I’m good at blowing stuff off. I have a hard time admitting certain things to myself. According to my parents, I have a “nutty, Borscht Belt sense of humor!” (I include the exclamation point because they tend to speak at a high-pitched volume.) What they mean is that I’m a third-rate clown, but they aren’t really ones to talk.

This is the story of my death.

It starts the Way all my stories do, as a bad joke Whose tragic punch line somehow ends up signifying my Whole life. Or death, in this case. Ha! Ha … ha … okay, maybe my parents are right. Maybe I am a clown. I don’t have the greatest comic timing. I rarely instigate—bad things simply happen to me. Pie-in-the-face sorts of things. But don’t just take my Word for it. Consider the fortune I received on my sixteenth birthday (ironically, my last birthday ever, although I didn’t know it at the time) When my parents took me to the Hong Phat Noodle House—and I swear I am not making this up:

You will never have much of a future if you look
for it in a cookie at a Chinese Restaurant. ☺

My mom’s fortune promised a lifetime of infinite happiness. My dad’s, a lifetime of Wealth and fulfillment. When I complained to the Waiter about mine, he told me that I should be pleased. “It’s true, young man,” he said With a smile. “One should never look for one’s destiny in a dessert item. One should look for it in experience.”

I agreed, sure—but deep down, I still felt sort of gypped. I asked for another one. He refused. Hong Phat policy is one fortune cookie per customer, period.

The real punch line is that I don’t even like Chinese food all that much. I like french fries. But my parents forced me to go there because they said that I needed to learn how to use chopsticks. “It’s a skill that Will make you part of an important demographic, dear!” Mom insisted. That’s a direct quote. To this day, I have no idea What she means. (I never learned how to use chopsticks, either.) My parents Work together at the same advertising firm, so they talk a lot about stuff like “important demographics!” It’s pretty much all they talk about. Maybe one day I Will understand their baffling pronouncements. I Would if I Weren’t doomed to an early grave, that is.

Speaking of Which, the story of my death also starts at a restaurant. It starts at the Circle Eat Diner With Mark and his girlfriend, Nikki. I can’t imagine it starting any other Way. Everything starts at the Circle Eat Diner With Mark and Nikki, at least everything that matters … everything that happens during those sublime, BS-filled hours When the three of us laugh and rant and eat, the hours just after school and before I have to run back home to Mom and Dad.

Okay, that’s an exaggeration. I rarely have to run home to Mom and Dad. They aren’t around very often. They take a lot of business trips. All of Which is a long Way of saying that I spend more time hanging out at the Circle Eat Diner With Mark and Nikki than I probably should.

Much more.

You’ll see What I mean shortly. The story of my death has a very dramatic, pie-in-the-face beginning.

A Very Active Inner Life

Spring break has just started. No classes for a Whole Week! Woo-hoo! It’s one of those rare gorgeous afternoons in Manhattan When the sky is swimming-pool blue and the breeze is crisp. There’s no humidity at all.

Freedom! the day seems to shout. Rock and roll!

Well, the day might seem to shout that if I Were outside. Inside the Circle Eat Diner, the day doesn’t seem to shout anything. It stinks of grease. The three of us are huddled over the remnants of a burger, fries, and pickle. We pretty much order the same meal every time: Circle Eat #5, the Burger/Fries Combo. I eat the fries. Mark eats the burger. Nikki eats the pickle. The Way Mark and Nikki are slouched across from me in the booth, they look more like a pair of models than a real-life couple—rail thin, dark, unblemished … poster children for the Wonders of the #5 diet.

Mark’s brown hair is a mess. His ratty T-shirt bears the logo GIVE THIS DAWG A BONE. His brown eyes are Wild. They’re always Wild. This stems from a belief he’s had since he Was a little kid that something bizarre and miraculous could occur at any moment—a giant-squid attack, the Rapture—and When it does, it Will require his personal involvement in some Way. So he’s perpetually on guard.

I envy him for this. I always have. He’s never bored.

Nikki is hardly ever bored, either, but for less delusional reasons. She’s got a very active inner life. This I can relate to. She’s constantly turning everything over in her mind—every event and conversation, no matter how trivial—and milking it for its hidden Wisdom. You can tell from the Way she listens, from the Way she looks you in the eye … you can even tell from how she dresses: mostly in black. With Nikki, blackness doesn’t have an agenda. She isn’t trying to play the role of a misunderstood hipster or a sullen goth. She isn’t trying to fit in With any crowd, either. (To be honest, the three of us don’t really belong to any crowd. Not unless you include the other people Who hang out in the Circle Eat Diner all the time, like Old Meatloaf Lady and Guy With Crumbs in His Beard.) Nikki just doesn’t put a Whole lot of thought into her Wardrobe. She’s got too much else going on inside. Once she told me that the only reason she dresses in black is so her clothes Will match her hair. I loved that.

Her eyes are What really tell the story, though. They’re like onyx, calm to the point of being alien: the eyes of the extraterrestrials you see in UFO documentaries. They radiate that same mysterious, hypnotic “We-come-in-peace” vibe, even When she’s joking around or scheming.

Funny: I probably think more than Nikki does about the Way she looks. Ha! Not that I’d ever admit that to her. I definitely Wouldn’t admit it to Mark. I have a hard enough time admitting it to myself.

Wet Willy

Mark’s fingers start to drum on our Formica tabletop. He’s grinning. I can tell he’s about to make a Wisecrack. Sure enough, apropos of nothing, he says: “Dude, all you ever do is talk. Let’s figure out something for you to do for once.”

I haven’t been talking. I haven’t said a Word in the last two minutes. I’ve been busy shoving soggy fries into my mouth. I know What he means, though.

“Like What?” I ask, playing along.

“How should I know, Burger? Something. Anything.”

Mark has never called me by my first name. Not once. Not even When We first met back in the third grade, When our teacher, Ms. Bellevue, pulled me aside and introduced us. “Ted Burger, this is Mark Singer. Mark is an only child, too. Did you know that? You have something in common!” I didn’t know What to say. Mark responded by licking his finger and sticking it my ear. The old Wet Willy. “No, that’s not appropriate!” Ms. Bellevue shrieked. She then sentenced him to a long time-out in the hall, after Which Mark called me every permutation of Burger under the sun—Crapburger, Snotburger, Buttburger… .

The point being: even my own name can be used as a punch line. Most things can and always have been, especially in Mark’s capable hands.

“How about if I start Working here as a fry cook?” I suggest. “I’m serious.” Actually, I’m not, but Mark’s accusation has provided a convenient excuse to segue into some juicy Circle Eat gossip. “I know they’re looking for a new one. You know that guy Leo? He got fired.”

“Leo got fired?” Nikki gasps. “The guy Who looks like you?”

“He doesn’t really look that much like me, does he?”

Nikki just smiles.

“Well, I’d say he rates about an eight on the Afro Q-Tip meter,” Mark says. “You rate about a nine-point-five.”

“Hey, I got the look, right? Why not flaunt it?”

Mark grins. “Amen, Burger. Amen.”

Mark has told me a million times that I look like a Q-Tip With an extra-thick cotton swab at the top end—very skinny With “Brillo pad” hair. Personally, I believe Leo rates higher on the Afro Q-Tip meter than I do. Come to think of it, Mark himself rates the highest. But there’s no point in arguing. Mark came up With the line first, so I can’t throw it back at him. Besides, once you’ve been saddled With a disparaging product comparison, it’s tough to shake.

“So When did Leo get fired?” Nikki presses.

“Last Week,” Mark says. “You didn’t know?”

“I had no idea,” she says. “We Were here last Week. Almost every day.”

“Yeah, except Tuesday,” he says. “That’s When it happened. I heard it Was crazy. I heard he Was ranting about going on a killing spree.”

“Are you serious?” Nikki glances toward the kitchen, her eyes Widening. She lowers her voice and leans across the table. “But he’s so nice.”

“Yeah, Well, you know What they say about ‘nice.’” Mark makes air quotes With his greasy fingers.

“What do they say about ‘nice’?” I ask.

“Pets are nice,” he and Nikki chant in unison, as if reading from the same Hong Phat fortune cookie. “People are dogs.”

I laugh. “I see. Did you guys hear that at an animal-rights rally?”

“My dad said it,” Mark says. “He’s looking for a ‘thing.’”

“A thing?”

“That’s What he said.” He gobbles down some more of the burger.

“We Were hanging out With Mark’s dad the other night,” Nikki explains. “He’s been acting sort of sad lately. So I asked him What Was Wrong. He said that he doesn’t have a ‘thing’—you know, like a hobby or a passion or Whatever. He said that he goes to Work, he comes home and Watches the news, blah, blah, blah. So Mark told him that maybe he should get a pet. You know, like a big furry dog, and they could play together, and go on long Walks, and become best buddies. He thought this Was really funny. He Was like, ‘I already have a crazy son. Isn’t that enough?’ And Mark Was like, ‘But pets are nice.’ And he said, ‘Son, you know, you’re right. Pets are nice. People are dogs.’”

I glance at Mark. “Wow. Heavy. What did you say to that?”

He shrugs at me With his mouth half full and ketchup dribbling down his chin. “Woof, Woof.”

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