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Authors: Judith Barrow

Pattern of Shadows

Pattern of Shadows

Judith Barrow

HONNO MODERN FICTION

For David

Contents

Title Page
Dedication
Acknowledgments
PROLOGUE
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Chapter 43
Chapter 44
Chapter 45
Chapter 46
Chapter 47
Chapter 48
Chapter 49
Chapter 50
Chapter 51
Chapter 52
Chapter 53
Chapter 54
Chapter 55
Chapter 56
Chapter 57
Chapter 58
Chapter 59
Chapter 60
Chapter 61
Chapter 62
Chapter 63
Chapter 64
Chapter 65
Chapter 66
Chapter 67
Chapter 68
Chapter 69
Chapter 70
Chapter 71
Chapter 72
Chapter 73
Chapter 74
Chapter 75
Chapter 76
Chapter 77
Chapter 78
Chapter 79
Chapter 80
Chapter 81
ABOUT HONNO
Copyright
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I would like to express my gratitude to all those who helped with the writing of
Pattern of Shadows.

Thanks to the staff of the Oldham Local Studies and Archives for their unstinting help with my research. For their patience with my many questions and requests. Thanks to Caroline Oakley and Helena Earnshaw of Honno for their individual expertise, and their time, in setting me off on this journey of publication. This book wouldn’t have been possible without them.

Special thanks to my penfriends, who have encouraged and supported my efforts through the years and without whom this book would never have been completed, Sharon Tregenza, Jane Scott and Kath Levell; exacting critics, fantastic friends.

Lastly, my thanks to David for his love and the time he gives me to ignore the ‘domestic trivia’ and write.

PROLOGUE

February 1945

Frank Shuttleworth knows this will be his only chance to kill Peter Schormann.

The guard company has been in position, along the full length of the long narrow road leading up to the camp, hours before the February light reluctantly started the day. Now, as dawn arrives thinly, the prisoners stand in lines of five, the thick rolls of barbed wire on each side hemming them in. In the floodlights the frost sparkles like sugar on the tarmac, emphasising the dark backdrop of the North Country moors.

A white haze of breath rises over the men. The coughs, the mutterings echo in the stillness as they wait.

In the sentry box, behind the fence and ten foot above them, Frank also waits, his eyes moving across each line of prisoners until finally he gives up, unable to make out their faces in the distance, and stands up straight, glaring down at those closest to him.

He watches the sergeant stroll back and forth along the road, checking that the guards are in place and ready for the command to start the roll call which will take all day. When it comes, the four thousand men move forward in compressed shuffling. On the opposite side of the road, at one of the allocated places where the prisoners are counted, one of Frank’s mates, a corporal like himself, gives him the thumbs up but Frank ignores him,
concentrating only on looking for his one special enemy amongst the slow-moving mass of men.

Five yards past Frank’s post the prisoners straggle into single file, stepping through the west gate of the compound to be double-checked by a sergeant of the provost staff with his clipboard; one tick for each man. Every few minutes the procession halts to allow the crush of men inside the compound to disperse.

‘Get a fucking move on.’ Frank grits his teeth, his lips a thin line.

As though they hear him, the guards chivvy the men and they sullenly move away to lean against the gritty stone walls of the Granville, the old cotton mill, now their prison. Some, sucking on cigarettes, complain loudly about the tedious tallying, and huddle deeper into their greatcoats, others stare with blank eyes towards the distant hills in obstinate rejection of their surroundings.

Squinting into the light of the pale low sun, Frank leans over his Bren gun and moves it slowly along the lines. Even though he knows Schormann was the doctor on duty in the camp hospital he can’t rely on him to be wearing his white coat. As
Lagerführer
of the prisoners Schormann could just as well be in officer uniform.

The Germans still waiting in the lines portray a
self-conscious
indifference to the proceedings. They realise that today’s well-organised registration replaces the daily tally on each of the four floors of the converted mill that they have constantly rendered useless by their rebellious refusal to stand still. Now, marking time at each hold up, they bellow out a rendition of
Heil Deutschland
, swaying in synchronization, and when they inch forward, they stamp their feet, their boots thudding on the tarmac. One
or two give insolent Nazi salutes as they pass each British guard, ignored by some, given vicious jabs with rifles by others.

Streets away a cluster of old men, sitting on the bench outside The Crown, chatting and smoking, idle their time until it opens. They hear the echoes of the singing and fall silent, remembering their own war.

 

The ice melts into wetness. Grey clouds roll overhead, covering the weak sunlight. Beyond the barbed wire on the opposite side of the road to the Granville, the bare branches of the tall sycamores drip water into the wide ditches dug years ago by the first prisoners of the camp. Beyond them the allotments are still deserted. Despite the cold, a hint of steam hovers over the dense crowd of men. Sporadic attempts to revive the singing fade into weariness; the Germans are tired and hungry. The acrid smell of cigarettes that has been wafting up towards Frank disappears. Few of the prisoners have any tobacco left and for the first time he senses anger from them and, despite his own discomfort, he grins.

But this new enforced tallying is an extra burden for all and there is suppressed rage on both sides as the day drags on. Any attempt to move out of allocated lines is thwarted as the guards shove them back, prodding the jaded men with their rifles when they defiantly attempt to sit down during the long delays. Harsh shouts cut across truculent grumbles. Swearing, hidden within the captives’ language, accompanies arms raised with a shaken fist or crude gestures.

Occasionally a prisoner is allowed out of line to stand by the barbed wire and, to the cheers of his mates, piss as
high as he can towards the compound fence in the hope that the urine, vaporizing in the cold, will drench the guard standing by him.

 

Hours later they are still shambling forward, a resigned calmness settling over them as they wait to get back into camp. In the dwindling light of dusk Frank strains to examine each passing face.

The outlines of the old mill merge with the murky night sky, shadowy figures move behind dimly lit rows of rectangular windows on each level, resigned to lying on their bunks in the knowledge that there will be no food until the count is complete.

It begins to rain. Frank’s eyes ache. He realises he’s allowed his mind to wander. His body is tense, his right knee, now permanently stiffened, throbs. Shifting his stance, he pushes his arms down by his side, desperately wanting to raise them above his head and stretch. But he can see the bloody Staff Sergeant, eyes narrowed, watching from the ground, waiting for a chance to bollock him. Tightening and relaxing the muscles in his thighs, he clenches his buttocks together, takes his weight onto his good leg and shifts his feet, now leaden in the cold. A yawn is creeping up his chest. Glancing down again and seeing the Staff Sergeant with his back to him, he allows himself the luxury of a jaw-cracking inhalation.

Dusk is swept away in an instant by floodlights; a curtain of sparkling drizzle hangs over the men. At the same time one prisoner breaks rank and runs. Yelling angrily, the man charges along the pavement towards one of the gunners and Frank, looking down the sight, swerves the Bren gun to follow him. He hears the soldier
shout a warning, then another.

‘Just shoot the bugger.’ Frank’s breath comes in short shallow gasps.

The prisoners turn to watch the progress of their comrade, a strange silence amongst them. Then, leaning forward, Frank sees Schormann. His scalp prickles. Schormann’s is the only face turned upwards, his eyes just two dark holes in his pale gleaming skin. It seems to Frank, even from this distance, that he is looking at him with loathing: the feeling is mutual. Frank bends low over the Bren, narrows his eyes in concentration and holds his breath. His finger tightens on the trigger at the same time as the soldier on the ground fires.

Chapter 1

March 1944

The rain trickled out of the downspout and rattled onto the tin roof of the coal shed outside Jean’s house.

‘I’ll have to go. I’m dying for a pee. See you later.’ Mary gave her friend a hug and ran across the street, clutching her cape at her throat. ‘I’ll call for you at seven o’clock.’ She hurried along the alleyway at the back of the terraced houses anxious to get to the lavvy before it was too late. Behind the blank gates on either side there was the usual racket of radios, children screaming and the high-pitched exasperation of mothers.

She heard the shouting inside her own house as soon as she stopped at the gate of number twenty-seven. The catch was broken and the wooden panels grated on the stone
flags as she pushed them open. Closing the gate with her backside, she jiggled around, struggling with her knickers inside the door of the little brick building before sitting on the lavatory with a sigh of relief. Partly closing the door with an outstretched foot, Mary listened to the voices. It was her Dad and Patrick arguing. Again. God, she was sick of them.

She tried not to listen. Some days she felt as though she couldn’t take any more and this was definitely one of them; it had been a difficult shift with a batch of Italian patients newly arrived at the camp. Mary listed them in her head: two men with pneumonia, six with a variety of injuries and wounds. She stopped, closing her eyes, when she came to the one that had distressed her most, a young German lad, barely nineteen, so badly burned she was sure he would die before she arrived back on duty in the morning, his cries echoed in her head.

All day:
‘Mutti, Mutti.’

In the end she’d leant over him, thanking God for the smattering of phrases she’d picked up from Sergeant Strauss. The interpreter seemed to enjoy sharing his language with her and Mary liked him. So what if he was the enemy? It meant that as she held the young soldier’s hand she’d been able to comfort him.
‘Ich bin hier, sohn, Ich bin hier.’
He’d quietened then.

Of course Doctor Müller had disapproved. She’d known he would.

‘He is a fighting man, Sister Howarth, not a baby.’

‘He’s a dying boy, Doctor Müller.’

She’d walked away before she lost her temper and even thinking about it now still made her seethe.

*

‘I think Matron wastes her breath with all her lectures on fraternization,’ she’d said to Jean on their way home. She dipped her head against the rain and shifted her gas mask to the other shoulder. Fitting end to the day, she thought, feeling the cold wetness seeping through her cape. ‘With men like Müller, I could go off the whole male species.’

Her friend laughed. ‘He’ll be gone soon.’

‘Well, I won’t be sorry. Arrogant pig! He showed his true colours when the Commandant caught him passing notes to that patient last month.’

‘I think we should separate the Nazis from the rest of the patients.’

‘And me.’ Mary grimaced. ‘What happened to him, that Nazi, by the way? One shift he was in the first bed and the next he was gone, and he wasn’t fit enough to be discharged.’

‘Dunno, sent off to Canada same as Müller will be, I suppose,’ Jean said. ‘Well away from being able to cause any trouble.’

They huddled closer and quickened their steps.

‘You’d think they’d have stopped transporting them by now,’ Mary said. ‘You don’t hear much about threats of invasion on the news any more.’

‘We’ll be the last to find out what’s happening. Bloody hell!’ Jean clamped a hand on her cap against the sudden gust of wind. ‘We’re just supposed to patch them up enough to get them back into camp.’ She leaned towards Mary. ‘My head’s dizzy sometimes with the way they ship them in and out. I swear I nearly gave the patient in bed three an enema for his appendix op. before I realised he was a different bloke.’

Despite herself, Mary giggled. ‘You didn’t?’

Jean grinned. ‘No but it made you laugh, didn’t it?’

‘Don’t, I’m dying for the lavvy.’

And by the time they’d reached the end of the Jean’s street, Mary was in such a hurry she didn’t even feel the usual twinge of irritation when she saw Jean’s mother peering at them from behind the net curtain on the landing window.

 

Now she shifted her body slightly and tilted her neck, resting her head on the lime-washed wall. God she was tired. A sudden cold draught snaked its way round the door flapping at the squares of newspaper fastened by string to a nail on the wall. She tore the first one off and narrowed her eyes to read the print in the fading light.

Road Deaths in Britain for ’43 almost total 6,000.
And underneath:
More Than Half Occurring During the Blackout.

‘Well, what do they expect?’ She’d had a few close calls herself, both going in on night shifts and coming home first thing in the winter mornings. It sometimes seemed the darkness was smothering her. Yet even that was better than the nights of the last two months. The constant air raids over Manchester, which ripped buildings apart and destroyed streets, also embraced the towns and villages around the city. And the indiscriminate pattern of smouldering fires, which lit up the start of the days and silhouetted the silent figures searching through the rubble, were becoming a familiar sight in Ashford.

Mary heard the rain quickening to a steady beat.

She used the piece of paper and pulled up her knickers.

The rubber soles of her shoes slipped on the greasy green flags around the grid, sunken into the middle of the
yard, as she moved quietly towards the house. She leant against the doorframe, listening to the shouting inside. Her gas mask brushed against the tin bath hanging on a large nail on the wall, moving it slightly against the brickwork and dislodging heavy drops of rain that ran down in tearful streaks.

Peeping in at the kitchen window, Mary saw her mother sitting in her usual place, on the rocking chair by the range. Standing next to her was a man Mary didn’t recognise. Casually leaning against the wall and resting one arm along the iron mantelpiece, he contradicted his apparent nonchalance by chewing on the nails of his other hand. Their faces were pale and blank through the net curtain. Neither was speaking, seemingly ignoring the shouting behind them.

‘What now?’ Mary could see and hear the two men in the hall beyond the kitchen. She put her thumb on the spoon-shaped latch, gently pressed it down and slipped into the room.

She saw Patrick loom over her father and square up to him as the older man flung a fist, punching his chest.

‘Waste of bloody space.’

Patrick caught hold of her father’s arm, forcing it down to his side. ‘Don’t bloody try that again.’ He jutted his face forward. ‘I didn’t ask to go down the bloody mines. Fucking Ernest Bevin!’

‘You do what you’re told in a war; you don’t ’ave any bloody choice.’

‘I wanted to go in the army. I signed up for the army. I didn’t want to go down the damn mines.’

‘I didn’t want to go in the trenches but I‘d no choice and look at the state of me now, coughin’ my bastard lungs up.’

‘Yeah, and I’ll finish up in the same way stuck down that hellhole. So if I do have to go, I want paying a proper bloody wage. So get off my bleedin’ back. If we want to strike, we will.’

‘I’ve told you, man, it’s unofficial. You’ll get nowhere.’

‘We will, if we stick together.’

‘An’ in the meantime I’m supposed to keep you?’

‘You’ll get your money when we get ours. Now piss off and leave me alone.’

‘Don’t bloody talk to me like that. Is this what I fought for?’ Mary saw her father’s face was blood red. ‘So me own son can swear at me? A man who can ‘ardly get ‘is breath on account of being gassed?’

He took a long drag at his Woodbine and gulped, narrowing his eyes. The smoke was let out in an explosive cough of air, snot and spit as he leant one palm flat against the pattern of pink cabbage roses that lined the walls in the hallway. Wreathed in blue haze of cigarette smoke, he bent forward in a long choking session, shoulders rounded and neck, scrawny as a tortoise, sticking out of his collarless white shirt. His scalp, purple and pitted with old scars, showed through the few grey strands. Mary watched him; no one went near him. They knew better; all the family had had a backhander at one time or another for going to his aid.

‘Mam?’

Her mother glanced up at her in weary resignation. Mary pushed back her hood and took off her cape. Reaching up, she draped it over the end of the clothes rack that dangled from the ceiling and went through to the scullery to wash her hands in the deep stone sink. Turning off the tap, she held on to it for a moment, head drooped,
before going back into the kitchen. Pulling the damp white cap of her head, she dropped it on the table and waited, looking from her mother to the stranger. No explanation for his presence was offered so she went over to the stairs, ignoring the debacle in the hall. Hesitating, she held back the velvet curtain that covered the doorframe and glanced at the young man. He was watching her. She nodded at him. In turn, he slightly inclined his head, his eyes still fixed on hers, and she registered their colour, dark grey. She was aware of the glint of amusement in them, though the rest of his face was serious. Then he slowly raised one eyebrow in insolent familiarity. Ignoring him, Mary turned to her mother and gestured with her head, silently offering an escape. ‘Upstairs?’

Flapping a hand at her, Winifred shook her head.

Giving the warring two a last glare, Mary let the curtain fall behind her. At the top of the stairs she paused, leaning on the banister, as she heard her father’s clogs scrape across the lino in the kitchen. If he started on her mother she’d go back down. Then she heard him hawk a globule of phlegm into the fire and her mouth moved in disgust as she pictured the green flecks of spit sizzling on the fender. She listened for a couple of minutes before crossing the landing to the bedroom she shared with her sister.

Then, her hand on the door, she paused again as she heard Patrick shouting from the front parlour. She could picture him, pacing the floor, smacking one fist into the palm of the other, a habit he’d copied from her father.

‘I wanted to fight,’ he was shouting. ‘I wanted to get at the Jerries. Bloody Bevin, Bloody Bevin Boys. Bollocks to being a Bevin boy.’

Mary knew how mortified he felt; some of the men down the mine were conscientious objectors and Patrick let everybody know he resented the possibility that he could be mistaken for one of them or that anyone would think he was a coward. Mary knew how bitterly he hated what his older brother stood for. She heard him shout again, ‘I’m not bloody Tom.’

No, you’re not, she thought.

 

Ellen held both legs straight out in front of her, twisting them so she could inspect her calves. Clothes were scattered on the floor and over the double bed the sisters shared.

‘Hell’s bells, have you listened to them two at it again.’ Eyes half-closed against the smoke of her cigarette she looked up at Mary. ‘I scarpered up here as fast as I could when Patrick gave his big announcement. Pity really. His friend’s a bit of all right, isn’t he?’

‘Patrick’s friend? Is that who he is?’ Mary was careful to sound indifferent. She always thought that if her brother was anything to go by, good-looking men were always too cocky.

‘Yeah, apparently. He’s a guard at the camp,’ Ellen said. ‘God, Mary, haven’t you even noticed him? You’re hopeless!’

‘I’ve better things to do at work than ogle the guards. You do enough flirting for the both of us.’

‘You do realise you’ll be left on the shelf if you don’t watch out?’ Carefully pulling her dressing gown to one side, Ellen examined her knees. She dipped a cloth into the brown liquid in the pudding basin balanced on her lap and dabbed it on her leg. Indifferent to Mary’s comment
she said, ‘They were going at it hammer and tongs when I got in from work. You’d think this was the first time Dad had heard of the strike. Everyone knows it’s been brewing since the beginning of the year. It’s been in all the papers. He’s just been waiting to have a go at Patrick.’

Mary tried to straighten the unmade sheets on the bed.

‘Here, Mary, watch it. I’m waiting for this lot to dry.’ Ellen lowered her legs. ‘I pinched some of Mam’s new gravy browning. It’s thicker than the other stuff. What do you think?’

‘I think you could have tidied up a bit in here; it’s a pigsty.’ Mary walked over to the window and adjusted the blackout curtains, pulling the reluctant material along the plastic-covered wire. ‘And am I the only one who cares what happens to this family?’

‘Oh don’t be such a bloody martyr.’

Mary turned and folding her arms, stared at her sister.

‘What’s up with you, then?’ Ellen said.

‘That lot downstairs, of course.’

‘Good God, I would have thought you’d be used to it by now. Be like me, ignore them.’ Ellen’s tone was light. Mary knew she had little patience with Patrick. Even though he was two years older than her Ellen always maintained he acted like a spoiled brat. ‘There’s nothing you can do anyway.’ She lifted her legs out in front of her again. ‘Well?’

‘Doesn’t it ever bother you? All that Mam has to put up with?’

Ellen frowned and peered closer at her knees. ‘I’ve missed a bit there.’ She shrugged. ‘Like I said, there’s nothing either of us can do about it.’

‘You could. You could talk to Dad. He lets you get
away with anything, he always has.’

‘Don’t be daft.’ Ellen blew a plume of smoke upwards.

‘I’m not. You know you can’t do wrong as far as he’s concerned.’

‘Not jealous by any chance, are you?’

‘Don’t be stupid.’

‘Look, I’m saying nothing. He’s just as likely to turn on me as you.’

That wasn’t true. Mary watched Ellen admiring her legs. What was it about her that got everybody running around for her, never demanding anything from her? Especially Dad. From the minute Ellen was born nobody else got a look in with their father. It wasn’t that she didn’t love her sister, but when they were growing up Mary had soon grasped that Bill’s infatuation with Ellen was as blatant as his lack of interest in her. She hadn’t cared. She’d told herself she had Tom and once she realised how indifferent the girl was to her father she’d almost felt sorry for him. Almost.

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