Authors: L. M. Montgomery

Pat of Silver Bush (33 page)

CHAPTER 39
The Chatelaine of Silver Bush

Pat was feeling older than she would probably feel at fifty. Life had all at once grown bare and chilly. Hilary was going to Toronto to take the five-year course in architecture.

His mother had arranged it, he told Pat briefly. Since that bitter day, when Doreen Garrison had finally turned her back on her Jingle-baby Hilary had never spoken of his mother. Pat knew he never heard from her except for some brief note containing a check for his college expenses.

Pat was glad for Hilary's sake. He was on the way to realize all his dreams and ambitions. But on her own account she was very bleak. Nobody to prowl withâ¦nobody to tell things toâ¦it was always so easy to tell things to Hilary. Nobody to joke with.

“We've always laughed at the same things, Judy.”

“Oh, oh, and that's why ye do be such good frinds, Patsy. It's the rale test. It's sorry I am mesilf that Jingle is going. A fine young gintleman he's got to be, that tall and straight standing. And ye tell me he's to be an arkytict. Oh, oh, I'm hoping he won't be like the one I heard of in ould Ireland. He did be buying the plan av a fine house from the Bad Man Below. And the price he had to be paying was his swateheart's soul. 'Twas a grand house I'm telling ye but there was few iver wanted to live in it.”

“I don't think Hilary will spend souls buying plans from the devil,” said Pat, with a forlorn smile. “He can design plenty himself. But, Judy, it seems to me I just can't bear it. Bets deadâ¦Winnie goneâ¦and now Hilary.”

“It's mesilf that's noticed how things do be going in threes like that, Patsy. It do be likely nothing but good'll happen to ye for a long time now.”

“But life will be soâ¦so empty, Judy.”

“He'll be coming back some fine day.”

Pat shook her head. Talk of Hilary's return was empty and meaningless. She knew he would never come back, unless for a vacation month or two. Their days of happy comradeship were overâ¦their hours in Happinessâ¦their rambles by field and shore. Childhood was gone. The “first fine rapture” of youth was gone.

“What's to become av McGinty? Oh, oh, there'll be one poor broken-hearted liddle dog.”

“Hilary is giving McGinty to me. I know he
will
be broken-hearted. But if love can help himâ¦”

Pat choked. She was seeing McGinty's eyes when the morrow brought no Hilary.

“Oh, oh, but I'm glad to hear that. I'm not liking a dogless house. Cats do be int'resting craturs, as Cuddles says, but there's
something
about a dog, now. Sure and there'll be some fun saving bones again.”

Pat knew Hilary was waiting for her in Happiness. They had agreed to have their parting tryst there, before Hilary left to catch the night train. Slowly she went to keep it. The air was full of color; there was just the faintest hint of frost in its sweet mildness; the evening sunshine was exceedingly mellow on gray old barns; as she went over Jordan she noticed the two dark, remote, pointed firs among the golden maples in the corner of the field. Hilary loved those firs. He said they were the twin spires of some mystic cathedral of sunset.

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Hilary was waiting in Happiness, sitting on an old mossy stone by the spring that the years had never touched. Beside him sat a gay little dog with a hint of wistfulness behind his gaiety. McGinty felt something coming to himâ¦something formless and chill. But as long as he was with his dear master what did it matter?

Hilary drew a quick breath: his eyes lit up slowly from within as was their way. She was coming to him over the fieldâ¦a slip of a girl in a gold and orange sweater, the autumnal sunshine burnishing her dark-brown hair and glinting in her amber eyes; her face glowing with warm, ripe,
kissable
tints, her body like a young sapling never to be broken, however it might bend.

“Trusty, dusky, vivid, true,

With eyes of gold and bramble dew.”

Why couldn't he have said that instead of Stevenson? It was truer of Pat than it could be of anybody else. Why couldn't he say to her all the burning and eloquent things he thought of in the night but could never utter the next day?

Pat sat down on the stone beside Hilary. They talked only a little and that in rather jerky sentences.

“I'll never come to Happiness again,” said Pat.

“Why not? I'd like to think of you sitting here sometimesâ¦with McGinty.”

“Poor little dorglums!” Pat absently caressed McGinty's willing head with one of her slender brown handsâ¦her
dear
hands, thought Hilary. “No, I couldn't bear to come here without you, Hilary. We've been here so oftenâ¦we've been chums for so many years.”

“Can't weâ¦can't weâ¦some timeâ¦be more than chums, Pat?” blurted Hilary desperately.

Pat instantly became just a little aloof, although her face had flushed to a sudden warm rose. Hilary was such a nice friendâ¦chumâ¦brotherâ¦but never a lover. Pat was very positive on that point.

“We've always been wonderful friends, Hilary. Don't spoil it now. Why, we've been chums ever since that night you saved me from heaven knows what on the Line road. Ten years.”

“They've been very good years.” Hilary seemed to have taken his repulse more philosophically than she had feared. “What will the years to come be, I wonder?”

“They'll be marvelous years for you, Hilary. You'll succeedâ¦you'll reach the top. And then all your old friends hereâ¦'specially little old maid Pat of Silver Bush, will brag about having once known you.”

“I
will
succeed.” Hilary set his teeth together. “With yourâ¦friendshipâ¦I can do anything. I want to tell youâ¦if I canâ¦what your friendship and the life I've shared with you at Silver Bush have meant to me. It's kept me from growing up hateful and cynical. You've all been so sure that life is good that I've never been able to disbelieve itâ¦never will be able to. You'll write me often, won't you, Pat? It will beâ¦lonelyâ¦at first. I don't know a soul in Toronto.”

“Of course I will. And don't forget, Hilary”â¦Pat laughed teasinglyâ¦“you're to build a house for me someday. I'll live in it when Sid gets married and turns me out of Silver Bush. And you'll come to see me in itâ¦I'll be a nice old lady with silver hairâ¦and I'll give you a cup of tea out of Grandmother Selby's potâ¦and we'll talk over our lives andâ¦andâ¦pretend it's all been a dreamâ¦and that we're just Pat and Jingle home once more.”

“Wherever
you
are, Pat, will always be home to me.”

There he went again. If it were not that they must presently say a long good-bye she would be angry with him. But she couldn't be angry tonight. He would soon forget this nonsense. Hundreds of beautiful clever girls in Toronto. But they would always be friendsâ¦the very best of friendsâ¦she couldn't imagine
not
being friends with Hilary.

They went back, following the curves of Jordan, talking of old days. It was lovely to remember things together. There were asters along their way. Hilary wanted to pick a rarely dark-blue cluster for her but she would not let him.

“No. Don't pick them because they would fade and that would be my last memory of them. Let's just leave them here and we can always remember them as we saw them togetherâ¦beautiful and unfaded.”

That was the real Pat touch. Hilary remembered that she had never really liked to pick flowers. He never forgot her, as she stood there gloating over them, herself, to him, as beautiful and mysterious as the autumn twilight. Dearâ¦desirable!

The brook was prattling away and crooning to itself. Tall firs, that had been mere saplings when they first explored it, stretched their protecting arms over it: the mosses were green on its banks. In its ripple and murmur the voices of their childhood soundedâ¦all the long-unheard notes were there, blended with the sweet sorrow inseparable from bygones. Hilary at twenty and Pat at eighteen felt themselves to be aged travelers wistfully recalling youth.

They paused on the stone bridge across Jordan. Pat held out her hands. She wanted to cry on his shoulder and knew she must not. If she didâ¦he would take her in his arms. That would be niceâ¦butâ¦

She wanted to tell him that she loved him dearly. She did love him so muchâ¦better than Joe nowâ¦almost better than Sidney. She wanted to kiss himâ¦but Hilary did not want friendly kisses. Yet they
couldn't
part like this.

“I'm not going to say good-bye half a dozen times before I'm really goneâ¦like old Aunty Sarah Gordon,” said Hilary, pretending to laugh. “Good-bye, Pat.”

But he seemed to have forgotten to let go her hands. This simply couldn't be endured any longer.

“Good-bye, Jingle.” The old name came impulsively to her lips. She pulled her hands away from his warm, pleasant grip and ran up the path against the moon.

Hilary stood and looked after her. McGinty huddled shivering against his leg. McGinty knew things were all wrong somehow.

Hilary was thinking of the house he would build for Pat. He could see itâ¦he could almost see its lights gleaming through the dusk of some land “beyond the hills and far away.” More beautiful than even Silver Bush. For a moment he almost hated Silver Bush. It was the only rival he feared. Then he set his teeth.

“I'll have you yet, Pat.”

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Pat stumbled up the path and across the field blindly and brought up against the garden gate. Then the denied tears came. She simply couldn't bear it. Everything gone! Who
could
bear it?

Rays of the rising moon touched the Hill of the Mist with delicate silver fingers. The night was a blue pearl seaward. The low continual thunder of the gulf tides in the harbor bar filled the air. The dreaming peace of the orchard seemed to beckon. The old barns, that must be alive with the ghosts of all the kittens that had frolicked in them, were huddled together companionably. Silver Bush was full of friendly lights. Pat brushed the tears from her eyes and looked at it.

It was such a loyal old houseâ¦always faithful to those who loved it. You felt it was your friend as soon as you stepped into it. It was full of dear yesterdays and beautiful old years. It had been assimilating beauty and lovelinessâ¦which is not quite the same thingâ¦for generations. There had been so many things in this house and it had not forgotten one of them. Love and sorrowâ¦tragediesâ¦comedies. Babies had been bornâ¦brides had dreamedâ¦all sorts of fashions had come and gone before the old mirrors. Its very walls seemed to hold laughter.

The house remembered her whole life.
It
had always been the sameâ¦
it
had never changedâ¦not really. Only little surface changes. How she loved it! She loved it in morning rose and sunset amber, and best of all in the darkness of night, when it loomed palely through the gloom and was all her own. This beauty was hersâ¦all hers. Life could never be empty at Silver Bush. Somebody had pitied her onceâ¦“so out of the world.” Pat laughed. Out of the world? Nay, she was
in
the world hereâ¦
her
world. “
I
dwell
among
my
own
people
.” Wise Shulamite!

A mysterious content flooded her. This was home.

About the Author

L. M. Montgomery achieved international fame in her lifetime that endures well over a century later. A prolific writer, she published some 500 short stories and poems and twenty novels. Most recognized for
Anne
of
Green
Gables
, her work has been hailed by Mark Twain, Margaret Atwood, Madeleine L'Engle, and Duchess Kate, to name a few. Today, Montgomery's novels, journals, letters, short stories, and poems are read and studied by general readers and scholars from around the world. Her writing appeals to people who love beauty and to those who struggle against oppression.

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