Not Negotiable: A Trident Security Series Novella - Book 3.5 (7 page)

“If I’m out of line, tell me. But if you hadn’t needed Boomer’s help, would you have come back to him? What I mean is…you two seem so perfect for one another. But would you’ve stayed away because there was a risk of causing him pain and possibly having him turn you away?”

The others all quieted and regarded Kat, who tilted her head in thought. “I’m not sure what my situation has to do with yours, but I don’t mind telling you about it. After I started coming out of the shock of everything that’d happened back then, I went to bed dreaming every night of someday being reunited with Benny. I never stopped loving him. Circumstances may have forced my hand in coming to him sooner than I was ready to, but I know I would’ve figured out a way to try to be together with him again.” She gave a small smile. “I would’ve preferred he didn’t faint on me, but yeah…I would have come back either way. He told me that for years he debated over that saying ‘is it better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all?’ We both agree now it’s better to have loved…because a life without love isn’t a life at all.”

Silence filled the air, until Kayla let out a loud sniffle. “That’s so fucking beautiful, I think I’m going to cry.”

Everyone looked at her and burst out laughing when they realized she was teasing. Kristen tossed a throw pillow at her. “Oh, shut up. You know darn well that was incredibly romantic.”

Shelby’s shoulders relaxed as everyone started talking and joking with each other. Parker had been right—she needed her friends to get her through this. Kat was also right–a life without love, really wasn’t a life at all. And Shelby wanted to choose life…and love.

“Are you sure about this?”

While Spanky lay at her feet, Parker stood behind her in the master bathroom where she sat in the chair he’d brought in. Her gaze met his in the mirror and she nodded. “Yes, I’m sure. Every time I shower or run my fingers through it, more hair falls out. I’d rather look like I’m trying a new fashion statement than the sick chick losing her hair to chemo.”

A scowl came across his face as he squeezed her shoulder. “You’re not a ‘sick chick’. You’re a brave woman fighting an ugly disease and remaining beautiful as you kick its ass.”

She blushed as she always did when he said things like that. Damn, this man was good for her ego as well as her spirits. She’d done the bald thing years ago which is how her colored wig collection had gotten started, but she was beautiful in Parker’s eyes no matter how she appeared. “Thanks. Okay. Let’s get this over with. Shave away.”

It didn’t take long for him to run the electric shaver over her head and unlike the first time she’d done this, she didn’t cry. Standing and turning her head from side to side, she eyed her reflection. “At least I still have my eyebrows, so far. Last time I had to use an eyebrow pencil to fill them in.” She turned to him, and was surprised when he handed her the shaver and sat in the chair. “What are you doing?”

“It’s my turn. With my receding hairline, I’ve been thinking about how I’d look bald. Think I can be the next Bruce Willis?”

Now her eyes filled as she stepped behind him and stared at him in the mirror. Her voice cracked. “You don’t have to do this.”

“It’s not a matter of ‘have to’, baby. It’s a ‘want to’ thing. Shave away.”

She smiled as he repeated her earlier words. What had she ever done in her life to deserve a man like this? Ever since the girls’ visit yesterday, she’d been thinking a lot about the two of them as a couple. Maybe she was selling herself short or underestimating him. Maybe it wouldn’t matter to him that she couldn’t have kids.

Flipping the switch on the shaver, she brought it up and carefully started at his forehead. Gliding it along his scalp, she made sure she didn’t miss a spot. When she finished, Parker ran his hands over it. “Not bad at all. I think I like it better than the crewcut.”

“It’s sexy on you.”

He raised an eyebrow. “Sexy?”

Her blush returned as she unplugged the razor and placed it in the drawer where Parker kept it. Apparently letting her off the hook, he stood and grabbed the broom and dustpan he’d brought in. She moved the chair out of his way and Spanky followed her out to the kitchen as she returned the seat where it belonged. Biting her lip, she noticed the contract they’d signed the day she’d moved in laying on the kitchen table. The contract that said ‘no sex’. Taking a leap of courage, she picked it up along with a pen and marched back to the master bathroom. He was flushing their mixed pile of hair down the toilet.

“I want to renegotiate, Sir.”

Parker froze. His gaze moved from her face to the paper she held and back again. When he paled a little, she realized he thought something was wrong and she hurried to reassure him. “I’d like to renegotiate item number five.”

She handed him the paper and watched as he read the clause she was talking about. His eyes whipped up to hers again. “And what would you like to change number five to?”

“I’d like to eliminate it from the contract altogether, Sir.”

* * *

Parker was dumbfounded. Surely he hadn’t heard her correctly. Number five was the clause about no sex. But the expression on her face said he hadn’t misunderstood her. The desire he saw in her eyes made his heart soar and his cock swell. Swallowing hard, he dropped his voice into its commanding Dom tone. “Are you sure about this, baby? I know your doctor said there were no activities you couldn’t do as long as you took it easy.”

Certain things on her limit list would be out because she bruised easily now. The anemia that usually came with chemotherapy caused that. But there were a bunch of things on her list they could do which would bring both of them pleasure. He knew, because he’d seen her limit list at the club and practically memorized it.

Stepping forward, she took the paper back and crossed off number five. “I’m sure about it, Master Parker.”

God, the woman humbled him and drove him insane at the same time. Glancing down, he noticed Spanky at Shelby’s heels. “Outside, Spanky. We don’t want an audience.”

As the dog reluctantly left, Parker pulled Shelby into his arms. Even bald, she was the most beautiful woman in the world to him. And her body molded to his like they’d been made for each other. “You’ll tell me if things get too much for you. And you will obey me. Any questions?”

Her breathing hitched as she reached up with one hand and caressed his cheek. “Just one, Sir. When are you going to kiss me again?”

Have mercy.

Crushing his mouth to hers, he held her tighter against him. And he never wanted to let her go again. Someway, somehow, she would be his and his alone. His tongue probed her sweet lips and he rejoiced when she allowed him entry to her mouth. Trying to be gentle was so difficult when what he truly wanted was to fuck her into oblivion. Sliding his hands down her body, he cupped her ass and lifted her off the floor. Her legs wrapped around his hips and his cock nestled against her mound as he walked them into the bedroom, where he set her on her feet again. He couldn’t stop kissing her…didn’t want to…but there were things he wanted even more. Pulling away, he smiled at her mumbled protest.

“Undress for me, baby. I want to watch you strip for me.”

“Yes, Sir.”

God, he loved hearing that from her lips. Maybe soon she would be calling him Master. Not just Master Parker, but her Master. Sitting on the edge of the bed, he leaned back on his elbows, watching her. And Shelby didn’t disappoint him. While she was dressed in a Hello Kitty lounge pants and shirt, she was still incredibly sexy. Swaying her hips to a tune only she heard, she gazed at him seductively and slowly lifted her shirt, teasing him inch by inch. When the hem reached just below her breasts, she spun around and gave him her back, while smirking at him over her shoulder.
Little brat.

Parker didn’t bother to hide his need to adjust himself. He was hard and throbbing, and she knew it. Lifting the T-shirt over her head, she tossed it aside before turning around again with her hands covering her breasts. He licked his lips. “Let me see them, baby. Play with those pretty pink nipples that I can’t wait to suck into my mouth.”

Shelby moaned, but did as she was told. It was the sexiest thing he’d ever seen. Her thumbs and forefingers closed around the stiff peaks and tugged on them. Her hips were still undulating and he crocked a finger at her to come closer. “Don’t stop playing.”

He sat forward and pulled on the tie at her waist. The loose pants fell to her feet, leaving her naked since she hadn’t been wearing underwear, and he stared at the feminine paradise in front of him. She was waxed bare like she normally was at the club and he was dying to find out if she tasted as good as he dreamed she’d be.

His gaze lifted to hers and she held her breath as he brought a hand up between her legs. “Open for me, baby.”

She spread her legs wider and waited. Teasing her, he ran a finger up her thigh, over her mound, and back down the other leg. Repeating the process again and again, he restrained himself from moving too fast. “Tell me. Are you wet for me, Shelby?”

“Y-yes, Sir.”

The quiver in her voice pleased the Dom in him. “Should I see for myself how wet you are?”

“Oh God, please, Sir. Yes.”

Instead of running his own fingers through her folds, he took her right hand and brought it to her core. He pressed on her fingers, dragged them through her moisture, then lifted them to his mouth. His tongue darted out and licked the wet digits. “Fuck, baby, you’re delicious.”

Sucking her fingers into his mouth, he cleaned them off one by one. He tugged on her hips until she lay on the bed next to him. Sliding off the bed, he knelt between her legs and tucked his hands under her ass. “Get comfy, baby. Keep your hands above your head, no squirming, and no cumming until I say so. This is going to take a while before I’ve had my fill.”

* * *

Oh. My. God.
If she’d known Parker was so damn talented with his tongue, she would’ve buckled a long time ago. Above her head, Shelby fisted the comforter in her hands as she tried to keep her hips still. His thumb brushed over her clit and a gasp burst from her lips. He hadn’t been lying when he said he was going to take his time. Again and again, he licked and sucked on her folds before impaling her with his stiffened tongue.

In and out.

Up and over.

Side to side.

Swirl around.

Thrust.

Repeat.

“Oh, yes! Sir, that feels so good. Please. Mmmooorrrreeee.”

He smiled against her mound at her pleading before his mouth inched upward and gave her clit some attention, while one finger, then two, eased into her wet pussy. She was panting now and her heart pounded in her chest. Slowly, he took her higher and higher, and each time she thought she had reached the peak, she found there was more climbing to do. His fingers didn’t stop their sensual assault when he kissed his way up her abdomen, joining her on the bed. The licking and sucking continued on one nipple and then the other. Electricity hummed throughout her body.

“You don’t know how long I’ve dreamed of this, Shelby.” He nuzzled her breasts, her shoulders, her neck. “I want you to cum for me. I want you to shatter around my fingers first and then again around my cock. Cum for me, baby.”

He picked up the pace as his fingertips searched for that spot. The one that would send her over the edge. A little more. Oh, shit, she was almost there…almost. “Please,” she begged a split second before the wave rushed up within her sending her spiraling into the abyss. She’d played with many Doms over the years, experiencing orgasms with ease, but never like this. It was beyond anything she’d ever felt before. Her body tensed and quivered as another orgasm crashed behind the first. An involuntary scream emanated from her throat moments before Parker covered her mouth with his own, claiming her release in every way possible. How was she going to let this man go after this?

He eased up as she floated back down, gasping for air. “Holy shit.”

Kissing the swells of her breasts, he chuckled. “Damn, that was beautiful, baby. I can’t wait to feel what you just did to my fingers when you do it around my cock.”

“Neither can I, Sir. Please, don’t make either of us wait.”

“Ha! I think you barely missed topping from the bottom with that, my little subbie. But I’m too fucking hungry for you to analyze it.” Parker pulled his fingers from her core and reached over to the nightstand next to his bed, retrieving a condom from the drawer. She wished she had the courage to tell him the protection wasn’t necessary, but she didn’t. Condoms were mandatory in the club, and she hadn’t had sex outside of The Covenant in years. And physicals, including blood work and STD testing, were also required every six months to keep one’s play privileges. She knew she was clean and most likely he was too, but until they compared notes later, a condom was necessary. But they didn’t need to get into it now.

Shelby watched as Parker stripped off his T-shirt, worn jeans, and boxer briefs. Her breath caught at the sight of his hard shaft. Damn, the man was hung. How had she not known how big he was?
Because, you idiot, you refused to play with him before and always avoided watching his scenes so you could keep him at arm’s length.
She told her inner voice to shut the hell up as she watched him roll on the rubber casing. Too bad he seemed to be as desperate to get inside her as she was to have him there, because she would’ve liked to take the time to explore that gorgeous cock with her mouth and tongue.

Stepping between her legs that were draped over the side of the bed, his gaze held hers. “Back up on the bed, baby, and spread those pretty legs for me.”

She did as she was told, then licked her lips as Parker knelt between her thighs. Lining the tip of his cock with her slit, he tilted his hips forward, entering her with caution. She knew he was going slow for a number of reasons, but wished he would throw them out the window and fuck her hard and fast. But then it would be over too soon, so maybe slow was good. Her core yielded to the natural invasion and she moaned with every drag of his hard, thick flesh against her walls. With each small thrust, he made his way further and further until every inch was buried inside of her. “Fuck! Baby, you’re so fucking tight. Don’t move. Shit, don’t move. Let me…let me get some control here, otherwise this will be over in seconds.”

His body was rigid as he fought his release. Finally, with elbows on either side of her head, he started to pull out and plunge back into her. He filled her in more ways than one. Not only was he filling her body, but her heart, mind, and soul as well. If she wasn’t careful she could fall in love with this man.
Oh, who the fuck was she kidding, she was already halfway there.

Increasing the pace, he fucked her harder and harder with each stroke. She gasped and moaned with each slap of his pelvis against her clit. She was back up on that cliff, ready to fall again. Parker bent his head to her breasts, licking her nipples. “Cum for me, Shelby. Take me over the edge with you.” He bit down on one of her straining peaks and that’s all it took for her to spiral into oblivion, dragging him with her.