on equal ground with opulence. Now he cruised to the front desk of the luxurious
resort without hesitation and bravely requested a single king-size bed.
The receptionist didn’t blink an eye as he found them a room. The place was
crowded, and Austin had feared they’d be out of space. But apparently all the folks
were in town for a conference that had just ended, and most had checked out. They
were offered a broad range of price points, depending on what kind of view they
wanted. Zach looked at Austin expectantly, but Austin shrugged. “Get whatever you
want,” he told Zach. “I’ll pay for it.”
Zach’s eyebrows came together. “But this was my idea.”
“You got last night. I’ll get this one,” Austin insisted.
Zach laughed. “Do you have any idea how cheap last night’s motel was?”
Austin reached into his wallet and pulled out his credit card. He handed it to
the front-desk clerk. “Put it on my card,” he insisted. He was actually a little
nervous about the cost, but after giving Zach nothing but bad news, he was grateful
to be able to offer something more desirable.
“Besides,” Austin whispered in Zach’s ear, “if the walls are thick enough, I can
tie you up and make you scream as I fuck you tonight.”
Zach shivered. “Idaho makes you kinky.”
Austin laughed. He grabbed his card and the key packet, and they made their
way through the wide lobby, past a massive fireplace, and beyond the large
windows overlooking the cold, beautiful landscape to the elevators.
Because they went for the “traditional” rated room, their view looked onto a
congregation of heavy pipes leaving the downstairs ballroom. There was also a
service elevator that ran alongside the bedroom wall and made whooshing noises
every minute. But the room was clean, light, and comfortable. The bed was firm and
fluffy, there was Internet and cable television, the bathroom was stocked with tiny
bottles of cosmetic products that seemed to delight Zach, and the whole place
smelled of fresh linen. All in all, a vast improvement over the Stay-a-Nite.
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“I never understand why hotel rooms have ten lamps but no overhead light,”
Zach commented, switching on lights around the room.
“Yeah, or no fans in the bathroom,” Austin added.
“I’d better hurry if I’m going to do this on time,” Zach mumbled, fumbling
through his backpack. He emerged with his boxed menorah. He turned on two lights
and held it aloft. He spoke a quick rush of Hebrew, the words incomprehensible to
Austin, but sounding choppy and rough like machine-gun fire. Zach propped the
menorah in the window for the seagulls to enjoy.
Austin gave the headboard a yank. He turned and grinned. “Let’s break some
Idaho sodomy laws.”
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Chapter Three
Friday, December 3
Zach awoke to the television, its sound on low. Austin sat up in bed, watching
the news, eyes barely cracked open.
“Morning,” Zach said with a grin, rolling over to kiss him.
Austin gave him a sloppy, sleepy kiss back. “Afternoon, actually.”
“Is it?” Zach glanced at the clock and saw it was already half past twelve.
They’d slept in much later than he’d expected.
Austin nodded to the TV. “They say there’s a blizzard in Wyoming. We might
end up hitting it.”
“Lovely. Anything else?”
“There’s a convicted murderer on the loose somewhere east of Billings, a trade
embargo has increased tension with China, and apparently corduroy is the new
velvet.”
Zach snorted.
“What do you want to do with what’s left of the day?” Austin asked, putting his
arm around Zach. Since last night, he had been in a generous mood, and the
frustrations about the Geo Spectrum seemed to be fading.
“How about we find out if there’s somewhere we can hike around?”
“It’s freezing outside.”
“So? We have jackets.” Zach tried to clamber over Austin out of the bed, but as
he did so, he brushed against Austin and discovered his erection.
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Austin grabbed Zach’s hand and yanked him back into bed. “I have a better
way to warm up,” he said roughly. He kissed Zach.
Twenty minutes later, sweaty and sated, Zach finally took his shower. Austin
joined him, and they took their time. Austin lathered the entire bottle of shampoo in
Zach’s hair. Zach leaned against him in the shower, loving the sensation of Austin’s
fingers on his scalp, the smell of his clean skin, the heat of the water on his
shoulders.
“I’m sort of pleased we broke down in Coeur d’Alene,” Zach said.
“Yeah?” Zach had his back against Austin’s chest and couldn’t see his face, but
he could tell by his tone that Austin was smiling.
“Yeah. I mean, when else would we have come here? And now we can hike
around the lake and take in the scenery. Hanukkah miracles indeed.”
“This whole Hanukkah thing is going to your head,” Austin mumbled, but Zach
smiled to himself and felt the truth in his words. The Maccabees had experienced
eight days of luck in their time, and Zach was beginning to think the same thing
could happen to him. Granted, the robbery and broken-car incidents had soured
some of the experience, but hey, true miracles only occurred in the face of adversity.
After all, what was the point of a miracle on a good day?
“Your hair smells like coconut,” Austin said, pulling Zach back to wash his hair
in the stream of hot water.
“And our skin smells like”—Zach read the description on the miniature gel
bottle—“passionate tropical fantasy.”
“The smells I associate with passion aren’t anything like this.”
Zach flushed. Austin often commented on how much he liked the smell of Zach,
especially during sex, but Zach didn’t take the bait and stepped out of the shower.
They dressed and left the hotel in search of food. They ate a decent lunch at an
Italian chain restaurant up the road. Austin grumbled at the exorbitant prices, but
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Zach paid cheerfully, knowing it was what happened when you bought meals in a
tourist trap.
Their waitress told them about a trail near the resort on a forested peninsula
on the lake. They took advantage of the break in the rain to walk it.
It was a beautiful and lonely place, with no one in sight. The path wound over
rocky soil and led them up the hillside through Douglas firs and on routes lined by
thimbleberries and ninebark. At first they hiked together in silence, Zach
invigorated by the cold, but then Austin began to ask tentative questions about
Zach’s family.
“Why’d they move to Boulder?” Austin stepped deftly over freshly fallen
branches from the previous night’s windstorm.
A branch caught on the inside of Zach’s jeans cuff, and he had to untangle his
ankle. “My dad’s company moved headquarters. Besides, my sister and her husband
live in Denver, so my folks were happy to relocate. At any rate, they’re more likely
to get grandkids from her than from me.”
Austin was quiet for a moment, then spoke again. “Does it bother them that
I’m coming over on a holiday?”
“Not at all,” Zach said. “I told them all about you, and they want you there for
Hanukkah.”
“Even your grandma?”
“Her most of all,” Zach said. “I actually get along with her better than my
mom. But my mother’s all right, and my dad’s a nice guy.”
“Am I going to be sleeping in the basement?”
“Yeah.” Zach grinned. “But we’ll be sleeping there together. That’s where the
guest room is.” He found the line of questioning strange, but he didn’t ask what the
source of it was. Austin went quiet for at least half a mile, but when he spoke again,
it was as if no time had passed.
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“My dad would never allow us to sleep together in his house,” Austin
commented. “He’d burn in hell first.”
“Well, that’s one of the advantages of being a Jew.” Zach grinned. “No hell to
burn in.”
Austin laughed.
The trail opened up to where they could stand shoulder to shoulder, and Zach
sped his pace to walked alongside Austin. He chanced a quick grab at Austin’s
hand.
It was a sentimental and foolish thing to do, hold hands in public, but Austin
didn’t seem to mind. He looked surprised but then smiled and gripped Zach’s hand
back.
“Are you going to see your family for Christmas?” Zach asked tentatively. He
rarely inquired about Austin’s family, because he seemed so hesitant to discuss
them, but Austin had been the one to bring the subject up this time.
“No.” Austin frowned. He dropped Zach’s hand, and Zach felt disappointed.
“My family will happily adopt you,” Zach offered.
Austin shook his head. “I’m not a big one for family, all things considered.”
Zach shrugged. “Sometimes there’s something to be said about relatives. After
all, they’re biologically programmed to love you.”
“No, they aren’t. I learned early on that a person
makes
their own family.”
When he spoke again, he sounded more hesitant. “It’s why I want to move in with
you, Zach. I want you to be my family, not some conceited, shortsighted asshole
back east who thinks genetics give him the right to tell me who I am.”
Alarm zinged through Zach. He didn’t want the conversation to go that route.
This trip was about them just being happy together, not decisively determining
their future. And he was in a good mood and didn’t want to ruin Austin’s by telling
the truth: Zach’s
chosen
families of the past had all but killed him.
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He considered gentle ways to back off the topic but heard voices up ahead and
was spared continuing the conversation.
They rounded the corner of a steep bluff overlooking a crescent beach and
passed two young men who appeared to be very drunk, despite the early hour.
One of the kids, tall and sinewy with a crew cut, mumbled something to a
beefier blond guy as they passed. Austin tensed immediately but kept going. Zach
hurried to catch up with him.
They saw no one else along the trail, but he sensed Austin’s simmering anger.
They finished the loop of the trail in silence.
At the end of the trail, they were spit unceremoniously back to where they had
begun. The two men they’d passed before had taken a shortcut and waited at the
entrance. The crew-cut kid stood leaning against the trail sign, while the other,
beefier guy sat on a log, clutching a forty in his left hand.
Zach nodded as he walked past them.
“Fucking faggot,” the tall one mumbled.
Zach felt a sick tightening of his gut. “Let’s go,” Zach said quietly, but Austin
had already turned around.
With startling speed Austin marched up to the man with the crew cut and
stood inches from him, forming a fist with his hand.
“What did you say?” Austin demanded. His posture had changed, readying for
a strike.
The man straightened from his slouch. Even from a distance Zach could smell
alcohol emanating from his skin. He shared Austin’s height and looked dangerous.
“Free country,” the man said. “I can say what I want.”
“Not about us, you son of a bitch.”
Zach’s heart raced. The blond man stood and approached Austin from behind.
“We’re leaving,” Zach said loudly, coming alongside Austin. “Come on. Let’s
go.”
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Austin poked his finger, hard, into the man’s chest. “Apologize.”
“Fuck you!” The tall man spit into Austin’s face.
Zach had seen the same look in Austin’s eyes the night he’d punched the man
who had accosted him. He was going to hit the bastard.
“Hey!”
Zach turned. A police officer approached quickly. Zach felt relieved.
The officer’s car, lights flashing, was stopped in the parking lot at the base of
the trail. He watched the group of men closely. “What’s going on here?”
“Hello!” Zach said warmly, hands up. “We’re just trying to leave.”
“This fag is picking a fight,” the man with the crew cut complained, although
he grinned at Austin.
Austin glanced briefly at the officer but otherwise kept his gaze pinned on the
tall man.
“You boys know that it’s illegal to have an open alcohol container on public
property.” The officer walked faster. He had a noticeable paunch and breathed
heavily.
“This asshole owes us an apology,” Austin said.
“I don’t owe you shit!”
Austin moved closer. The officer rushed to step between them. “Both of you,
settle down! Or I’ll book you all!”
Zach felt close to throwing up, but he had to think fast. Austin was about to
lose it; Zach could tell by the cold paleness of his expression. His right hand had
already curled into a fist. He was going to hit a police officer, and he was going to be