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Authors: Lyn Gardner

Give Me a Reason

Give Me A Reason

 

 

 

 

by Lyn Gardner

 

Copyright 2013 by Lyn Gardner

 

 

 

 

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Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Names, characters,
businesses, places, events and incidents are either the products of the
author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual
persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

 

 

Dedications

 

 

 

To my father, Edward...

 

You showed me love, and you made me smile. You protected
me as best you could, and I cherish every memory I have of you. I miss you, Dad.
I miss your silly laugh and funny jokes. I miss the scent of your cologne, and
the warmth of your hugs. I wouldn't be where I am right now if it hadn't been
for you, and I want you to know that I did this for you. I did this to prove
you right.

 

 

 

And to God...for giving me a reason

 

 

Give Me A
Reason

Dedications

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter
Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter
Seven

Chapter
Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten

Chapter
Eleven

Chapter
Twelve

Chapter
Thirteen

Chapter
Fourteen

Chapter
Fifteen

Chapter
Sixteen

Chapter
Seventeen

Chapter
Eighteen

Chapter
Nineteen

Chapter
Twenty

Chapter
Twenty-One

Chapter
Twenty-Two

Chapter
Twenty-Three

Chapter
Twenty-Four

Chapter
Twenty-Five

Chapter
Twenty-Six

Chapter
Twenty-Seven

Chapter
Twenty-Eight

Chapter
Twenty-Nine

Chapter
Thirty

Chapter
Thirty-One

Chapter
Thirty-Two

Chapter
Thirty-Three

Chapter
Thirty-Four

Chapter
Thirty-Five

Chapter
Thirty-Six

Chapter
Thirty-Seven

Chapter
Thirty-Eight

Chapter
Thirty-Nine

Chapter
Forty

Chapter
Forty-One

Chapter
Forty-Two

Chapter
Forty-Three

Chapter
Forty-Four

Chapter
Forty-Five

Chapter
Forty-Six

Chapter
Forty-Seven

Chapter
Forty-Eight

Chapter
Forty-Nine

Chapter
Fifty

Chapter
Fifty-One

Chapter
Fifty-Two

Chapter
Fifty-Three

Chapter
Fifty-Four

Chapter
Fifty-Five

EPILOGUE

Acknowledgements

Other Titles
by Author

 

 

 

Chapter One

 

 

 

She had lost track of time as she sat in the dark listening
to the noise of the night. Winter was coming to an end, but like she had done
every night as the months had passed, the windows were open an inch, allowing
the cool dampness to invade the room and saturate her soul. She didn’t mind.
She had forgotten what it felt like to be warm.

She turned on the floor lamp, the bulb flickering for a
moment before the connection was made, but its brightness was lost behind a
shade stained with the yellowness of age. It was used, bought second-hand like
the few other necessities that took up space in the tiny flat she called home.
A small couch, barely large enough to hold two people, its upholstery faded and
frayed just like her, sat in the middle of the room while a mismatched chair
stood desolate in a corner. Purchased for the comfort of guests, it had yet to
be used except for the occasional piece of clothing dropped on its lonely
cushion. Books were scattered and stacked around the room, some piles neat
while others leaned to the left or right, waiting for the effect of gravity to
announce itself. There was no need for a bookcase, just another piece of
clutter, just another problem for someone else to clean up. There wasn’t a
reason for buying new. Why burden someone with your belongings when it would be
so much easier to discard them when you’re gone?

Going into the kitchen, she switched on the light, the
fluorescent lamp sputtering and groaning as it was awakened from its sleep.
Squinting at the brightness, she turned it off and took a few short steps to
open the tiny fridge tucked under the counter. It was a paltry room, large
enough for one, but too small for two. She liked that.

Taking a bottle from the shelf, she returned to the lounge
and placed it on the coffee table, staring at its milky contents and wondering
if tonight would be the night. Lighting another cigarette, she slowly exhaled
and watched as the smoke floated over her head until it disappeared into the
shadows. She glanced at the bottle again. Picking it up, she examined some
particles that had settled to the bottom, awaiting their turn to be dissolved
by the clear liquor inside. Inhaling a lungful of smoke, she carefully set the
bottle down, within reach if the mood struck, but far enough away to keep it
safe from harm. Opening her briefcase, she pulled out a packet of papers and
took a sip from the bottle of beer she had been nursing for over an hour. As
she read over the first essay, she grimaced. Her student had yet to comprehend
the lessons being taught. Picking up a red pencil, she began to make notes and
corrections in the margins. Taking an occasional drag from her cigarette, she
worked through the small stack until all were graded and tucked safely back
into her attaché.

Getting up, she went to the window to close the sash and
paused for a moment to peer through the glass. Three stories above the street,
she could still hear the sounds of tires against wet pavement and the
occasional shout of a fond farewell as nightlife left the pubs and stumbled to
find their way home. Letting out a long breath, she carried the bottles to the
kitchen, throwing one away and placing the other safely back in the fridge,
shaking it a few times to assist the remaining granules in their disappearance.
Unbuttoning her blouse, she walked silently to the bedroom, and after tossing
the shirt in the wardrobe, she pulled down the brightly-colored duvet on the
bed, its vibrant hues in sharp contrast to the rest of the flat. Having spent
too many nights lying awake on sheets and mattresses used by others, their
bodily habits leaving stains and scents behind, this mattress and linens were
purchased new. Although the sheets were now two years old and their colors were
faded by washing, they still felt good to her.

As she lay in the darkness, she wondered how she could feel
so lost in a space so small, but then again, she felt lost everywhere. The flat
was simply a place to exist until the next day dawned, and tomorrow
would
dawn. Tomorrow she had work to do…so it
wouldn’t be tonight.

 

***

 

“Are you going to work all night?” he asked, stomping into
the kitchen for the third time in the last hour.

“Duane, you know I start tomorrow, and I need to get my
thoughts in order,” she answered, looking up from her laptop.

Frowning, Duane said, “It’s just that your work always seems
to come first. There’s never anything left for me.”

“I’m sorry, but you know how I am.”

“You mean a workaholic?”

“Yeah. Sorry.”

“Look, I love that you’re focused on this, and I love you.
It’s just that I’ve spent the last two days watching the telly, and I’m bored.”

“And I want to make a good impression on my first day. I
promise, once I get settled at Calloway, I’ll give you all the time you need.”

“I need time now, babe. I feel like I’ve wasted my whole
weekend over here.”

“Well, if I’m not mistaken, you invited yourself over here
this weekend, not me.”

“I didn’t think I
needed
an
invitation!”

Realizing she could have been more eloquent in her response,
Laura rubbed the bridge of her nose, trying to think of a way to avoid yet
another endless argument about her wants versus his needs.

Laura MacLeod was thirty-two years old, and although born in
Scotland, she had moved to England six years earlier to take a rather lucrative
teaching position at a small private academy in Surrey. She had always wanted
to teach, to instill values and knowledge in youthful minds, so it was a dream
come true...and the paycheck didn’t hurt either. She was smart. She was young,
and she was rapidly building a hefty nest egg.

During one summer break, a fellow teacher suggested that
Laura join her in volunteering at a local women’s prison. Although doubtful
that incarcerated women would be as willing to learn as the boys behind
ivy-covered walls, Laura reluctantly agreed. It was a decision that changed her
life.

Having always taken great delight in educating others, it
wasn’t until she saw the appreciation in the eyes of the inmates that Laura
realized she had found her niche. There was a profound difference between
instructing children raised with silver spoons in their mouths, to enlightening
women whose lives seemed to hold only despair. Before autumn arrived that year,
she had left the pristine palace of expensive education, and taking a position
at HMP Sturrington, Laura MacLeod entered the world of Her Majesty’s Prison
Service.

Laura enjoyed her time at Sturrington, as much as anyone
could enjoy being locked behind thick stone walls for eight hours a day. Most
of the women were eager to learn, and although there was an occasional
conflict, more often than not it was just frustration on the part of the
inmate. Laura could walk out of the gates every afternoon while they stayed
behind, locked in their cells, with only their thoughts to keep them company.
She understood that feeling all too well…that was until she met Duane York.

With a healthy bank account to back her up, Laura purchased a
small home in the borough of Barnet and spent her free time renovating and
decorating it to make it her own. Visiting a local nursery one weekend, she
accidentally bumped into a man carrying a shallow tray of flowers, sending him
and the plants to the ground. Profusely apologizing, when she offered to buy
him a cup of coffee while waiting in the queue to pay for their purchases, he
agreed, and one week later, Duane York called to ask her out on a date.

Laura’s attraction to Duane wasn’t instantaneous, but like
the flowers she planted around her house, it grew over time. He was an
attractive man, a half foot taller than her five-foot-four-inch frame, and
although slender, years of playing football with his mates had afforded him a
workout that defined his muscles quite nicely.

It was a comfortable, slow-moving relationship, but when he
had proposed to her a few months earlier, Laura was stunned. They were good
together. In and out of bed, they were good together, but marriage meant love,
and Laura wasn’t sure she really loved Duane. She liked him. She liked him a
lot, but a commitment of that magnitude needed more than just like, it needed
love, so she told him no. Heartbroken and angry, he left her house that night
saying he’d never return.

At first, it was odd not having Duane underfoot, rummaging
through her pantry for nibbles or relaxing in the lounge while she fixed
dinner. However, as each day passed, Laura realized that it was nice to do what
she wanted
when
she wanted to do it. It was
refreshing to open the refrigerator and still find it stocked with what she
craved, and when she came home after a long, hard day, her house was exactly in
the order she had left it that morning. There were no surprises anymore, and
for the first week, it was a nice change, but by the start of the second, Laura
began to miss having Duane around. She missed his laugh and his warmth, and the
way they’d snuggle on the sofa together, watching the telly as they talked
about their days. She missed making meals for two and evenings in the pub with
friends, and she missed the love they made, even though she wasn’t sure, at
least for her, love had anything to do with it. So, when Duane called to
apologize ten days after he walked out of her house, Laura accepted it and
things returned to the way they were.

During those two weeks of solitude, Laura received a call
from an old friend. John Canfield was the former governor of HMP Sturrington,
but he had resigned his position at the prison two years before, deciding that
he no longer wanted to live ten hours a day behind locked doors. Still
passionate about helping those who could not yet help themselves, he had
accepted a position as the director of one of the largest bail hostels in
London whose primary focus was on education.

Two days after receiving John’s phone call, Laura sat in a
bustling coffee shop listening as the man across the table chattered on about
Calloway House. Not just a hostel to spend the night, the week or the month,
Calloway offered its occupants more than just a roof over their head and a
curfew. With the current curriculum, the residents could learn to read, to write,
to balance a checkbook and even fix a car if they so desired. It gave them hope
and with it, self-worth.

Over their second cup of coffee, John explained that he
currently had a staff of four full-time and two part-time teachers, but he
needed someone to oversee not only them, but also the course schedules. He
needed a person with focus, steadfast in their belief about what learning could
accomplish. He needed someone who could follow rules, adhere to the strict
guidelines set by the Department of Education and Skills, and he needed someone
who would be willing to take the steps necessary in order to insure that
Calloway would continue to receive funding. In other words, he needed Laura
MacLeod.

When they had first met at Sturrington, although impressed by
the petite woman with the green eyes and infectious smile, John believed that
her enthusiasm to teach convicts would be short-lived. He could not have been
more wrong. While many a teacher had turned cynical behind the stone walls and
barred windows of the prison, Laura had not. She thrived on teaching those who
craved to be taught. She adored her students and they adored her, and it didn’t
take long before Laura MacLeod became one of John’s most trusted and valued
educators. When funds were allocated to increase his staff at Calloway by one,
John picked up the phone and called Laura.

Before they finished their third cup of coffee, Laura
accepted the position, and when Duane York once again became part of her life a
few days later, their already fragile relationship began to show even more
cracks.

“Laura!”

Startled from her thoughts by Duane’s outburst, she looked up
from her notes. “I’m sorry, what?”

“You haven’t heard one bloody word I’ve said, have you?” he
shouted, grabbing his jacket. “That’s just great!”

Flinching as the front door slammed shut, she sighed. “Shit.”

 

***

 

After parking in an area marked
For
Employees Only
, Laura climbed out of the car, gathered her briefcase,
laptop and lunch, and turned around to gaze at the six-story building in front
of her. Located on the outskirts of London, Calloway had been converted from an
old apartment building to a halfway house nearly twelve years earlier. Showing
its age in its architecture, the brick facade was broken up by tall, narrow
windows, all of which were capped with thick pediments of stone, and along the
roof line was a bulky cornice supported by brackets jutting out every few feet.
Slightly ominous in its appearance, Laura took a deep breath as she headed to
the entrance. Pulling open the heavy door, she walked inside.

Well aware that if Laura MacLeod had a fault, it was one
based on time, John Canfield had been patiently waiting in a doorway off the
entry. Watching as his new hire walked into the lobby, before she could say
anything to the elderly man sitting behind the front desk, John called out,
“Glad to see you could make it.”

Looking in his direction, Laura smiled. Pushing six-foot-six,
John Canfield was in his late fifties with very little hair left to speak of,
but his cheerful personality and boyish charm subtracted years from his age.
Gangly and soft-spoken, while they had only worked together at Sturrington for
a short time, it was long enough for Laura to see John as more than just a
friend, and only slightly less than a father.

“Sorry. Am I that late?” she said with a weak grin, shrugging
her laptop bag off her shoulder.

“Only a few minutes,” he said, taking the satchel from her
hands. “Come on. Let me show you around.”

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