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Fima

Fima
Amos Oz
Table of Contents

Title Page

Table of Contents

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Copyright

CONTENTS

1. PROMISE AND GRACE

2. FIMA GETS UP FOR WORK

3. A CAN OF WORMS

4. HOPES OF OPENING A NEW CHAPTER

5. FIMA GETS SOAKED IN THE DARK IN THE POURING RAIN

6. AS IF SHE WERE HIS SISTER

7. WITH THIN FISTS

8. A DISAGREEMENT ON THE QUESTION OF WHO THE INDIANS REALLY ARE

9. "THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS WE COULD TALK ABOUT, COMPARE"

10. FIMA FORGIVES AND FORGETS

11. AS FAR AS THE LAST LAMPPOST

12. THE FIXED DISTANCE BETWEEN HIM AND HER

13. THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL

14. DISCOVERING THE IDENTITY OF A FAMOUS FINNISH GENERAL

15. BEDTIME STORIES

16. FIMA COMES TO THE CONCLUSION THAT THERE IS STILL A CHANCE

17. NIGHTLIFE

18. "YOU'VE FORGOTTEN YOURSELF"

19. IN THE MONASTERY

20. FIMA IS LOST IN THE FOREST

21. BUT THE GLOWWORM HAD VANISHED

22. "I FEEL GOOD WITH YOU JUST LIKE THIS"

23. FIMA FORGETS WHAT HE HAS FORGOTTEN

24. SHAME AND GUILT

25. FINGERS THAT WERE NO FINGERS

26. CHILI

27. FIMA REFUSES TO GIVE IN

28. IN ITHACA, ON THE WATER'S EDGE

29. BEFORE THE SABBATH

30. AT LEAST AS FAR AS POSSIBLE

Translated from the Hebrew by
NICHOLAS DE LANGE

A HARVEST BOOK
A HELEN AND KURT WOLFF BOOK
HARCOURT, INC
.

Orlando Austin New York San Diego London

Copyright © 1991 by Amos Oz and
Maxwell-Macmillan-Keter Publishing Ltd.
English translation copyright © 1993 by Nicholas de Lange

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Translation of
The Third Condition
by Amos Oz, originally
published in Israel in 1991.

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Oz, Amos.
[Matsav ha-shelishi. English]
Fima/Amos Oz: translated from the Hebrew by Nicholas
de Lange.—1st ed.
p. cm.
"A Helen and Kurt Wolff book."
ISBN 978-0-15-189851-0
ISBN 978-0-15-600143-4 (pbk.)
I. Title.
PJ5054.O9M3513 1993
892.4'36—dc20 92-44200

Designed by Lori J. McThomas
Printed in the United States of America

First Harvest edition 1994
N M L K J I H G

CONTENTS

1
PROMISE AND GRACE
/
[>]

2
FIMA GETS UP FOR WORK
/
[>]

3
A CAN OF WORMS
/
[>]

4
HOPES OF OPENING A NEW CHAPTER
/
[>]

5
FIMA GETS SOAKED IN THE DARK
IN THE POURING RAIN
/
[>]

6
AS IF SHE WERE HIS SISTER
/
[>]

7
WITH THIN FISTS
/
[>]

8
A DISAGREEMENT ON THE QUESTION
OF WHO THE INDIANS REALLY ARE
/
[>]

9
"
THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS WE
COULD TALK ABOUT, COMPARE
" /
[>]

10
FIMA FORGIVES AND FORGETS
/
[>]

11
AS FAR AS THE LAST LAMPPOST
/
[>]

12
THE FIXED DISTANCE BETWEEN
HIM AND HER
/
[>]

13
THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL
/
[>]

14
DISCOVERING THE IDENTITY OF A
FAMOUS FINNISH GENERAL
/
[>]

15
BEDTIME STORIES
/
[>]

16
FIMA COMES TO THE CONCLUSION
THAT THERE IS STILL A CHANCE
/
[>]

17
NIGHTLIFE
/
[>]

18
"
YOU'VE FORGOTTEN YOURSELF
" /
[>]

19
IN THE MONASTERY
/
[>]

20
FIMA IS LOST IN THE FOREST
/
[>]

21
BUT THE GLOWWORM HAD VANISHED
/
[>]

22
"
I FEEL GOOD WITH YOU
JUST LIKE THIS
" /
[>]

23
FIMA FORGETS WHAT HE
HAS FORGOTTEN
/
[>]

24
SHAME AND GUILT
/
[>]

25
FINGERS THAT WERE NO FINGERS
/
[>]

26
CHILI
/
[>]

27
FIMA REFUSES TO GIVE IN
/
[>]

28
IN ITHACA, ON THE WATER'S EDGE
/
[>]

29
BEFORE THE SABBATH
/
[>]

30
AT LEAST AS FAR AS POSSIBLE
/
[>]

1. PROMISE AND GRACE

F
IVE NIGHTS BEFORE THE SAD EVENT
, F
IMA HAD A DREAM WHICH
he recorded at half past five in the morning in his dream book, a brown notebook that always lay beneath an untidy heap of old newspapers and magazines on the floor at the foot of his bed. In this book Fima had made it his habit to write down, in bed, as the first pale lines of dawn began to appear between the slats of his blinds, whatever he had seen in the night. Even if he had seen nothing, or if he had forgotten what he had seen, he still switched on the light, squinted, sat up in bed, and, propping a thick magazine on his knees to serve as a writing desk, wrote something like this:

"Twentieth of December—blank night."

Or:

"Fourth of January—something about a fox and a ladder, but the details have gone."

He always wrote the date out in words. Then he would get up to relieve himself and lie down in bed again until the cooing of the doves came into the room, with a dog barking and a bird nearby that sounded surprised, as though it could not believe its eyes. Fima promised himself he would get up at once, in a few minutes, a quarter of an hour at most, but sometimes he dropped
off
again and did not wake till eight or nine. His shift at the clinic started only at one o'clock. He found less falsehood in sleeping than in waking. Even though he had long ago come to understand that truth was beyond his reach, he wanted to distance himself as much as possible from the petty lies that filled his everyday life like a fine dust that penetrated even to the most intimate crannies.

On Monday morning early, as a murky orange glimmer began to filter through the blind, he sat up in bed and entered the following notes in his book:

"A woman, attractive rather than beautiful, came up to me; she didn't approach the reception desk but appeared from behind me, despite the notice saying
STAFF ONLY
. I said, 'Sorry, all inquiries must be made from the front of the desk.' She laughed and said, 'All right, Efraim, we heard you the first time.' I said, 'If you don't get out of here, ma'am, I'll have to ring my bell' (although I haven't got a bell). At these words the woman laughed again, a pleasant, graceful laugh, like a burbling brook. She was slim-shouldered and had a slightly wrinkled neck, but her breast and stomach were well rounded and her calves covered by silk stockings with curving seams. The combination of curvaceousness and vulnerability was both sexy and touching. Or maybe it was the contrast between the shapely body and the face of an overworked teacher that was touching. I had a little girl by you, she said, and now it's time for our daughter to meet her father. Although I knew I wasn't supposed to leave the clinic, that it would be dangerous to follow her, especially barefoot, which I suddenly was, a sort of inner signal formed itself: If she draws her hair over her left shoulder with her left hand, then I'll have to go. She knew; with a light movement she brought her hair forward until it spread over her dress and covered her left breast, and she said: Come. I followed her through several streets and alleys, several flights of steps and gates, and more stone-paved courtyards in Valladolid in Spain, though it was really more or less the Bukharian Quarter here in Jerusalem. Even though this woman in the girlish cotton dress and sexy stockings was a stranger and I had never set eyes on her before, I still wanted to see the little girl. So we walked through entrances to buildings that led to back yards full of loaded clotheslines, which led us to new alleyways and an ancient square lit by a street lamp in the rain. Because it had started to rain, not hard, not pouring, very few drops in fact, just a thick dampness in the darkening air. We didn't meet a living soul on the way. Not even a cat. Suddenly the woman stopped in a passageway that had vestiges of decaying grandeur, as if it were an entrance to an Oriental palace, but probably it was just a tunnel joining two sodden courtyards, with battered mailboxes and flaking ceramic tiles. Removing my wristwatch, she pointed to a tattered army blanket in an alcove under the steps, as though removing my watch was the prelude to some kind of nakedness, and now I had to give her a baby daughter. I asked where we were and where the children were, because somehow along the way the daughter had turned into children. The woman said,
Chili
. I couldn't tell whether this was the little girl's name or the name of the woman herself, who was clasping my hand to her breast. Perhaps she was cold because of the nakedness of the skinny daughters, or else it was an invitation to hug her and warm her up. When I hugged her, her whole body shook, not with desire but with despair, and she whispered, Don't be afraid, Efraim, I know a way and I'll get you safely across to the Aryan side. In the dream this whispered phrase was full of promise and grace, and I continued to trust her and follow her ecstatically, and was not at all surprised when in the dream she turned into my mother, nor did I ask where the Aryan side was. Until we reached the water. At the water's edge stood a man in a dark uniform, with a blond military mustache and legs spread wide, and he said: Have to separate.

"So it became clear that it was the water that made her shiver, and that I would not see her again. I woke with sadness, and even now, as I conclude these notes, the sadness has not left me."

2. FIMA GETS UP FOR WORK

F
IMA GOT OUT OF BED IN HIS SWEATY UNDERWEAR, OPENED HIS
shutters a crack, and looked out at the beginning of a winter day in Jerusalem. The nearby buildings did not look near: they seemed far from him and from each other, with wisps of low cloud drifting among them. There was no sign of life outside. As though the dream were continuing. Except that there was no stone-paved alley now, but a shabby road at the southwest edge of Kiryat Yovel, a row of squat blocks of flats jerry-built in the late 'fifties. The balconies had been mostly closed in with breezeblock, plasterboard, aluminum, or glass. Here and there an empty window box or a neglected flowerpot stood on a rusting balustrade. Away to the south the Bethlehem hills merged with the gray clouds, looking unattractive and grubby this morning, more like slag heaps than hills. A neighbor was having difficulty starting his car because of the cold and the damp. The starter wheezed repeatedly, like a terminally ill lung case who still insisted on chain-smoking. Again Fima was overcome by the feeling that he was here by mistake, that he ought to be somewhere completely different.

But what the mistake was, or where he ought to be, he did not know this morning. In fact he never did.

The car's wheezing brought on his own morning cough, and he moved away from the window. He did not want to start his day in such a pointless and pathetic way. He said to himself, Lazybones! and began to do some simple exercises, bends and stretches, in front of the mirror that was dappled with dark islands and continents. The mirror was fixed to the front of the old brown wardrobe his father had bought for him thirty years ago. He should have asked the woman what it was he was supposed to separate. But he had missed his chance.

As a general rule Fima loathed people standing at windows. He especially loathed the sight of a woman looking out of a window with her back to the room. Before his divorce he had often irritated Yael by asking her not to stand like that, looking out at the street or the hills.

"What's wrong? Am I breaking the rules again?"

"You know it annoys me."

"That's your problem, Effy."

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