Earlier, when Thad’s mother had died (traumatizing enough) and he had found himself placed under my guardianship (all the more traumatizing, as he had never even met an openly gay person), he had referred to me, on the day we met, as a “fucking fag.” This, needless to say, had created something of a chasm between us, one that neither of us felt inclined to bridge. Ultimately, it was my car, a big black Bavarian V-8, that broke the ice. Though he didn’t think much of me or of my imagined bedtime proclivities, Thad couldn’t help being impressed by my car, which apparently raised me, in his eyes, just above the threshold of total degeneracy. He let me drive him to lunch one day, and things began to soften—we had our first civil, mature conversation. Later, to his astonishment, I offered to lend him the car for some outing he’d planned with friends, and to
my
astonishment, he brought it back in one piece, on time, with profuse thanks. To this day, I don’t think twice about handing him the keys. All he has to do is ask.
So when I asked if I could drive him to the theater on opening night, he didn’t think twice before answering, “Sure, Mark, thanks. Curtain’s at eight, but I have a six-thirty call.”
Around six-twenty, we hopped into the car, and I backed out of the driveway onto Prairie Street. Glancing over, I asked, “You have…everything?”
Through a quizzical smile, he asked, “Like what?”
I shrugged. “Script? Costume? Makeup?” He’d brought nothing.
He explained, “The script is memorized. Everything else is at the theater.”
“Just checking.” I reached over and mussed his hair. “Good luck to—” I stopped myself. “Break a leg tonight. You’ll be great, I’m sure. Neil and I are really proud of you. We’ll be counting the minutes till eight—can’t wait.” I turned onto Park Street, heading toward downtown.
“Actually,” he said with a laugh, “I hope you two are
bored
tonight. I mean, you’ve already seen the show, at Wednesday’s dress rehearsal. That was a perfect run-through. Hope it’s just as good tonight.”
“It’s different, though,” I insisted, “with a real audience—the collective anticipation, the adrenaline, the mutual feedback.”
He caught my gaze for a moment. His smile was flat-out beautiful. “And that’s what makes the magic.”
We rode in silence for a block or two, passing the park on our right, its waxy foliage still radiant in the hot evening sun. I was thinking about what Thad had said—not only the magic, but Wednesday’s rehearsal. He’d opened the door to the very topic I meant to broach.
“Everything’s okay with you and Jason, right? That spat at dress rehearsal—it won’t affect the performance, will it?”
“Nah,” he said, a bit too blithely, “we have our differences, and I’ll be glad when he’s back at Unity High and I’m back at Central—and I’ll
never
forgive him for the way he treated you and Neil—but we’ll pull together for the good of the show. Like they say, ‘the play’s the thing.’ ”
I quizzed, “Who said that?”
“Shakespeare.
Hamlet
.”
“Which act and scene?”
Thad crossed his arms and gave me a get-real stare. “Don’t press your luck, Mark.” After a pause, he added, “So, inform me, which act and scene?”
“Haven’t a clue.” And we shared a laugh. As it waned, I told him, “Not to get ‘heavy,’ Thad, but that whole confrontation is still sort of bothering me. It was all Jason’s fault—I understand that—the kid’s a jerk, period. And believe me, you handled it with great maturity by letting the whole thing fizzle and not escalate. But still, you
did
make a threat, and taken out of context—”
“Mark,” Thad interrupted me, placing his fingertips on my arm as I drove, “I know. It was dumb. It was not cool. I was mad, and I wasn’t thinking straight. It seemed clever, so it popped out. I’ll apologize to Jason in the green room tonight—in front of everybody.”
My mood instantly lightened. Since we were both so clearly in sync on this issue, I allowed myself to violate the exact principle I meant to preach: “Kill him with kindness, eh?” Har har.
Thad flumped back in his seat, laughing loudly, slapping both knees. I myself indulged in a low chortle as I turned onto First Avenue, the downtown’s main street.
The Dumont Playhouse was located only a few blocks from the
Register
’s offices. The theater was always touted by the Players Guild as “historic,” and indeed, it was nearly a hundred years old, but the place had something of a checkered past. It was originally built as a vaudeville house, with a wide stage, lofty fly space, and some eight hundred seats—easily the largest auditorium in a small town that was growing fast in the heart of paper-mill country. With the advent of talkies and the death of vaudeville, the playhouse was converted to a movie theater, its stage walled over with a screen. Then, in the seventies, when smaller theaters became the trend, the handsome old theater was chopped down its middle, creating two smaller auditoriums with awkwardly angled rows of seats facing half-screens. Finally, when the first “multiplex” opened on the edge of town, the venerable old playhouse closed its doors, presumably for good.
It had sat empty for a couple of years, beginning to deteriorate, when a struggling community-theater group, the Dumont Players Guild, discovered the lure of historic preservation, purchasing the hulk of a building for a song and securing the troupe’s first permanent home. Half of the screen was removed, exposing the stage in one of the auditoriums, which alone could seat the group’s expected patrons. The other auditorium was used for storage and workspace, the Moorish-themed lobby was spiffed up, and the Dumont Playhouse again opened its doors. The Players soon learned, though, that their new home was no bargain, its upkeep and restoration draining meager coffers all too quickly. But they hung with it, securing private grants and public sympathy as they strove to save the theater—and in doing so, they lent a note of luster and tenacity to the once-fading downtown.
On that Friday night, though the sun would not set for another hour or two, the original ornate marquee outside the playhouse was already ablaze with its chaser lights, announcing the new production that would soon grace the theater’s old stage (or at least half of it). The sight of the bright, frenetic sign, though gaudy and dated, actually brought a lump to my throat, and I sensed that it had the same effect on Thad as he stared at it. Driving past, I placed a hand behind his head and gave his neck a squeeze, a silent good-luck wish, a tactile message that I appreciated the commitment he’d made to help bring the theater to life that night.
Clearing my throat, I asked, “Stage door?”
He nodded.
I pulled around the block to the rear of the theater, where a small parking lot accommodated cast and crew. A number of cars had already arrived, and people were milling about—strange, I thought, given the heat. The stage door was shimmed open, and I could glimpse confused activity within. Thad’s brows furrowed with wonder as I pulled into the lot and parked. Denny Diggins pranced out from backstage, joining the hubbub, fluttering from group to group, asking questions. Both Thad and I got out of the car as Denny approached us. Before he could speak, my reporter’s instincts took over, and I asked, “What’s wrong?”
He threw his hands in the air. “Jason’s not here.”
I glanced at Thad. Thad glanced at his watch. He told Denny, “It’s just six-thirty. He’s not late yet. There’s plenty of time.”
Denny wagged his head, palms pressed to his cheeks. “No,” he explained through a pucker of frustration, “there’s not plenty of time. We don’t know where he
is
.” Denny dropped one hand from his face, raising the other to hold his forehead, as if staving off a migraine. “I’ve been concerned about his cold, naturally. I spoke to him yesterday, and he said he wasn’t feeling any better. So I told him to get plenty of rest, then tried checking on him this afternoon, but couldn’t reach him. I’ve phoned again and again, but can’t get past his machine. Something’s
wrong
.”
I stepped nearer, telling Denny, “Don’t jump to conclusions. He could be anywhere. He’s probably on his way here right now.” This was truly an unexpected turn of events—not Jason’s questionable whereabouts, but my leaping forward to console Denny Diggins, of all people.
He said, “I hope to God you’re right, Mahk.”
Kwynn Wyman, Thad’s friend, had seen us arrive and walked over to meet us. Hearing the last of our conversation, she said, “Please don’t worry, Mr. Diggins. I’m sure Jason’s fine. But in any event, we’re covered, remember. Thad’s ready to play Ryan tonight if he needs to.”
“And he just may need to,” said Denny, looking to the hot-hued heavens with an expression that asked, Why me?
“I’m ready if you need me,” Thad assured Denny. “All we can do is wait.”
And waiting in the wings, so to speak, was little Tommy Morales—perched on the stairs to the stage door, script in hand, studying the role of Dawson.
Later that evening, a few minutes before eight, Neil and I mingled with the crowd in the theater lobby. Doug Pierce and Barb Bilsten were with us, as planned, and through the bobbing heads I spotted a familiar figure—or rather, her purse.
Glee Savage, the
Register
’s features editor, was a veteran staffer, having been with the paper since her journalism-school graduation some thirty years earlier. She played to the hilt her role as local fashion maven, bringing a much needed dash of pizazz to the streets of our backwaterish little city. Her manner of dress was unpredictable, verging on zany, but a constant feature of her ensembles was the style of purse she always carried. In a word, the purses were big, nearly two feet square—flat carpetbags—collected in a seemingly endless variety of colors and patterns.
Glimpsing such a purse, imprinted with giant green banana leaves, I knew that Glee was on the premises. Though she had come to enjoy the show, she was also working that night, having assigned herself to review the opening. I told my companions, “Let’s see if Glee wants to join us. I need to ask her something.”
Neil, Pierce, and Barb readily agreed—they would enjoy Glee’s company, but more important, they knew what was on my mind. We’d already discussed my earlier encounter with a flustered Denny Diggins in the parking lot, and we wondered if Glee had any news regarding Jason Thrush. Would he perform as scheduled that evening?
I tried catching Glee’s attention by waving my program over the heads of the crowd, but she didn’t notice, so Barb took charge, emitting a shrill whistle from her teeth. (This involved fingers, lips, and saliva, as well as her teeth—a particularly butch little trick that I have never mastered.) The babble halted momentarily as all heads turned. “Glee!” commanded Barb. “Over here!”
Recognizing us, Glee waved, then moved toward us through the crowd as the hubbub built to its previous level.
“Evening, boss,” she told me, arriving in our midst. We all exchanged pleasantries. She asked, “What’s up?”
“Care to join us inside? We have an extra ticket or two.”
“Sure.” Big smile. Big oily red lips.
“For God’s sake,” said Barb, getting right to the point, “what’s the deal with this Jason creep?” She’d heard about the incident at dress rehearsal, but Jason had been “the creep” for several weeks already, since the announcement that he would be starring on opening night.
Glee’s look of confusion made it apparent she’d heard nothing.
I explained, “When I brought Thad to the theater earlier, there was some concern about Jason Thrush. He’s been ill, I guess, and Denny couldn’t reach him this afternoon. There was talk of a possible cast change.”
“Really?” Glee arched her brows. “Nothing’s been said to
me
about it. The lobby photo display still has Jason centered on the top row.”
Pierce flipped through his program book to the cast of characters. “Jason Thrush as Ryan,” he confirmed. “No stuffer announcing a change. Hey”—he jerked his head toward the double-doored entrance to the auditorium—“people are starting to go in.”
“Great. Everything must be okay,” I said, unable to mask a tone of mild disappointment that contradicted my words. “We’d better take our seats.”
So the five of us began jostling with the crowd toward the doors to the main aisle. While inching forward, Neil nudged me. “Over there,” he said into my ear. “It’s Mica Thrush—looking trampy as ever.”
I had to laugh, finding Neil’s characterization too charitable. She was all in black again, but tonight’s outfit was even more revealing—a silky little slip of an evening dress with a backless plunge toward dangerous territory. As she walked, her long, straight hair shifted, brushing the top of her butt crack. People were staring, exactly as she wanted, though she pretended not to notice. I didn’t know her age, but she had referred to Jason as her “baby brother,” so I guessed she was twenty or so. Eschewing the obvious topic of her perilously bare ass, I told Neil, “Jason must have made it to the theater. Why else would she be here?”
He shrugged, not caring—Mica Thrush was not worth pondering.
Inside, we found our seats and settled in. Thad had secured a prime location for us, about a third of the way back from the stage, on the aisle. Pierce asked for the outer seat, in case he was called away; I sat next to him, with Neil next to me; Barb and Glee took the inner seats. We chatted quietly, paging through the program, glancing at the ads. The
Register
had, as usual, taken the back cover; Quatro Press, the inside front. Glee snapped open the top edge of her purse and extracted her steno pad, pen, and a petite flashlight, in case she needed to take notes during the performance. Barb and Neil discussed some lingering details of the next night’s party—everything was under control.
At three minutes past eight (I checked my watch), the houselights started their slow fade, and the audience instinctively hushed itself. We knew we were moments away from raising the curtain on a brand-new play, a world premiere. Sure, it was a local effort, and chances were Denny Diggins’s original script would never be staged again, but still, there was a palpable excitement—the hint of great things to come, the magic, as Thad had called it. And the room grew darker.