Authors: Ted Dekker
THE MOON was waning in the latest night hours and still we waited, because light wasn't our friend. We had embraced darkness.
Our army had quickly armed for speed and agility. Stirred by outrage, those women skilled with weapons had insisted on joining us until the sheikhs finally relented. They added one thousand to our number. A terrible need for justice had consumed us all, and I said nothing to discourage it.
We struck northâsix thousand toward Dumah and three thousand to the high point outside of the walled fortress.
There would be no victory in a clash between armies, for the Thamud were four to our one. But in the desert, shrewdness was equal to might. Our shrewdness lay in the lethal speed of our counterattack in the face of our enemy's assumptions.
The assumption that I would not take up the sword.
The assumption that we were worn thin by hunger.
The assumption that we wouldn't take such a risk for seven children.
Our plan was simple: in the blackest of night three thousand of our strongestâall men save meâwould hit the high point first, where the Thamud would be least fortified even if they did anticipate us.
The other six thousand would cut off the high point from Dumah, separating Saman and Kahil from aid.
We did not wear leathers nor carry heavy lances or axes. We wore only black tunics and belts that girded up our dress, and we carried only blades and bows, which were lethal in our hands and silent in the night. The six-hour journey took us ten, as so many of us were on foot.
The Bedu did not speak. They did not eat. They only rode on a dark surge of bitterness and rage.
And was I not the same?
Noâ¦Had I not come to the desert as queen to save the children? Is this not what Yeshua himself had sent me to do? Had not Talya sung of Eden? Was the snake's head not to be crushed under my foot, as Judah said?
Of us all, only Saba seemed unresolved. His thoughts were surely torn by the teachings of Yeshua. I too felt their distant call, but here in the desert Yeshua's words seemed to have abandoned me. I had forgotten what had once been so clear, and even knowing that I had forgotten, I couldn't seem to retrieve it.
Our course was set.
Now Saba, Judah, and I sat abreast upon our camels, awaiting the scout who would return in the night with news. Arim sat on Saba's far side, eager to be seen as one of my protectors.
A cold wind was in our face, carrying our scent to the depression behind us where the three thousand waited, still mounted and ready. Once couched, a camel protested too loudly when prodded to rise. The roar of so many being mounted at once would travel too far in the still night air.
Jashim and Habib led the six thousand who now waited east of the high point. A scout had already informed us that they made no contact with the Thamud. All was as we had expected.
There was nothing to say now. Typically boisterous Bedu chatter always surrendered to perfect silence on the cusp of any raid or battle. Nothing could be allowed to distract intention or focus.
Though Judah had explained himself to me as we drove north, I could not bring myself to engage him then. There was too much darkness in me. I could only listen.
But now I felt compelled by compassion to speak. He had suffered more than I and suffered still, suffocated by betrayal.
“Judah⦔ I said in a soft voice.
He hesitated, then responded quietly. “Yes?”
“Whatever happens now, know that I hold you in the highest esteem.”
He said nothing, so I faced him.
“I hold no blame in my heart. What you didâ¦I know of no braver man who lives. I am proud to be by your side.”
When he finally turned, I saw that his eyes were misted.
“I would die for you, my queen.”
“I know. But tonight there will be no dying. Surely God did not bring you this far in vain.”
“He comes,” Saba said.
The scout trotted his camel across the shifting sands.
“A hundred warriors on guard,” he said, pulling his mount around. “Their fires are out.”
Judah's jaw flexed. “Then it is time. Tell the others. Remember, quietly until we are upon the camp, then like thunder as we have discussed. You've informed our brothers to the east?”
“Yes.”
Judah nodded, then studied me.
“Maviahâ¦We will be on camel. Your skills are on the ground. I beg youâ”
“I go, Judah. He's my son.”
He took a deep breath and let it out slowly, staring ahead into the night. Then Judah stood tall in his saddle, twisted back, and held up his fist. Without another word, he prodded his camel forward with Arim close behind.
“Saba?”
“Yes, my queen.”
“Stay beside me.”
“Like your shadow,” he said.
“Do not worry, my queen,” Arim said, twisting in his saddle. “No harm will come to you. Judah is my brother! I will fight for his love.”
Judah took the point, twenty paces ahead. We gauged our advance by his. He slowed at the crest of each rise, scanned the dunes, then pushed forward. Like a swarm of black locusts, our tightly formed army crept over the sands, encroaching on the unwitting Thamud.
We made not a sound other than the soft plodding of camel's feet in the sand and their occasional snort. They too sensed the urgency of their masters and knew to serve us. For half of the hour we proceeded in this way, drawing nearer to the towering pillars of rock.
Saba grunted. I turned and saw that he was scanning the horizon. He looked at me, eyes white in his dark face.
“I don't like it. Stay with me.”
Judah had crested the last dune and now shoved his fist into the air. Leaning forward and whipping his mount, he plunged over the peak.
Like a wave the Bedu warriors swept past Saba and me, rushed up the hill, and vanished over the top.
“Easy, Maviah,” Saba warned. “Let them deliver the first blows!”
Judah was right. I wasn't accustomed to combat from the back of any mount. I hesitated and the rest surged past us, but then I could hold back no longer.
Talya was on the far side of this dune.
We reached the crest and I was already over when Saba's sharp warning stopped me.
“Wait!”
I pulled my roaring camel to a standstill and stared down the slope. “What is it?”
Two rows of black Thamud tents hugged the towering boulders at the high point a hundred paces distant. Our warriors now streamed toward the encampment in a show of overwhelming force with swords in hand.
Then I saw what Saba saw. Truly it was what we did not see.
The camp appeared to be vacated other than a handful of warriors who were already mounting to flee.
Judah had already reached the tents and was now on foot, racing into the largest. From the corner of my eye, I saw the retreating Thamud warriors dragged to the ground by a throng of Bedu in full battle cry.
But my eyes were on Judah and that tent.
“Hold⦔ Saba warned again, reaching for my lead rope.
I could not breathe, for Talya was either in one of these tents or had already been dispatched to Dumah. If the latter, then all hope was surely lost. I begged Judah to emerge holding my son.
“They come,” Saba grunted.
They? Who? My eyes followed his to the north.
At first, I thought I was seeing a black cloud rolling in from the night. But this black cloud was led by tall lances flying red-and-yellow flags. It was formed of both horses and camels, and it was sweeping in like a sandstorm.
The Thamud army. Thousands. Many thousands.
“They knew,” Saba said.
Judah burst from the tent, confused, spinning. By now a cry had erupted from my people, for they too had seen the Thamud rushing toward them.
“Maviah⦔
I twisted to see more Thamud rushing up the slope behind us. I knew then that the sand would soon be red with our blood. Fear swept through my bones.
“Follow me!” Saba ordered. “Now!”
He took his camel down the slope, looking back to see that I was with him.
“With me, Maviah!” he demanded. “Only with me!” I had never heard such authority in his voice.
We plunged down the hill into the thick of our warriors as the Thamud swarm swallowed them in brutal conflict.
Judah had to know that he'd been led into a slaughter. I watched as he threw himself onto his camel and rushed toward us. Using only his knees and heels to maintain his seat on the beast's back, he swung his sword with both arms and decapitated a Thamud camel with a single blow.
The beast's severed head dropped free and the camel stumbled, catapulting its rider toward Judah, who cut the man's body in half with the back stroke of the same swing.
“Judah!”
He spun, already bloodied from head to foot, and I caught sight of his eyes, fired with life as he saw me. But only for a moment, because he sensed the enemy at his back and jerked to his right to avoid a thrusting lance.
That warrior he took with his dagger. The thrown sidearm slammed into the man's temple and sent him back over the rump of his mount.
Without clear thought, I dropped to the earth, sword in hand, screaming. I stepped up under a Thamud camel and took the leg off a warrior bearing down on me.
My mind was on Judah. I had to reach Judah. We had to find Talya!
“Maviah!” Saba's gruff cry came from behind and I heard his blade thudding into flesh.
“Judah!”
I ran, surrounded by beasts and blades and blood. Two more fell under my sword as I sliced through them. But I had lost sight of him.
“Judah!”
And then a hand grabbed the nape of my tunic and plucked me from the ground. I twisted, intent on bringing my blade to bear, but Saba caught my wrist.
“Not now.”
He swung me onto his mount's rump, fended off a spear, and cut through the sea of carnage.
“Judahâ”
“Judah is a warrior!” he roared. “He is no good without a queen. Stay close and low!”
I clung to his strong body with both arms, pressing my head between his shoulder blades.
I dared not look now, for the bloodshed was too much for me. My mind was lost on Talya, and yet the price being paid for him was more than I could bear. Saba took me from that battle. How, I can hardly imagine.
Only when Saba pulled the beast up on a rise did I turn to see the battleground. Hundreds lay slain. Many more were crying out in pain, and those who could were scattering over the dunes into the night. Of the three thousand, at least half would not see the sun rise.
“My queen!”
I turned to see Arim rushing up to us on his camel.
“We have been slain!” He pulled up hard. “The Thamud haveâ”
“Have you seen Judah?” I demanded.
“Judahâ¦Yes.”
“Where?”
“They have taken him.” Arim's eyes skittered to Saba, then back. “I tried to save him, surely I did, but the Thamud are like mad jinn this night. I swept inâ”
“Who took him? Where?” I was beside myself with fear.
He pointed haphazardly. “Into the night.”
“Where?” Saba demanded. “You point to the sky!”
“There, to the north,” Arim said.
Saba studied the night, then Arim. “Can you still serve your queen?”
“But of course. Would I not die forâ”
“Then take her to the oasis. If you must, strike deep into the sandsâ”
“No,” I said, dismounting from Saba's beast. “I have need of your camel, Arim. Find another for yourself and go to the oasis alone.” He dismounted. “Tell Fahak to take the Bedu deep into the desert. To the Shangal valley. Do you understand?”
“Yes, my queen.”
Saba started to protest but I cut him short.
“You are to remain hidden at the Garden of Peace to send any who return from the battle. Yes?”
I gave Arim my weapons and took his beast.
“Yes. I will do as you say. Then I will returnâ”
“After one day, you will go to the Shangal and wait for me.”
“Where will you go?”
I faced Dumah, less than an hour away.
“I go to my son.”
DUMAH. The ornament of the desert. All caravans from the east and south laden with frankincense and spices and treasured silks and wares of great value traveled through the city on their way to Petra, Palestine, and Romeâcaravans of a thousand camels each, heavily taxed for passage.
The sprawling oasis fed a fertile landscape rich with date palms and fruit-bearing trees. Here the nomadic Bedu had settled in lavish homes, violating tradition. True Bedu did not establish roots in a city, for a city could be made one's prison if conquered.
High atop the city stood the palace Marid, jewel of Dumah, where I had once lived in service to my father. And beneath the palace lurked the dungeons that had held Judah in darkness for two years.
The very dungeons in which Talya was now imprisoned.
Morning light cast a red hue over the white and gray homes as Saba and I approached. My frantic heart had given way to a plodding rhythm that matched my camel's steps.
I was drained of life. Devoid of hope. Cast into the sea and drowning. I had forgotten the Way of Yeshua, and now life had forgotten me. Not because I had lifted the sword against my enemy, but because I could not remember how to have faith in the midst of the storm.
I intended to throw myself at Saman's feet, seeking his mercy. He, rather than Yeshua, would become my savior, would he not? I was slave to Saman even as Judah was slave to the Law of Moses. So then, we were all slaves to the systems of the world, rather than free in Yeshua's realm of heaven on earth.
The city was just rising as we drew near. Dogs barked, smoke drifted from chimneys, camels were still couched on the sands.
“They know we come,” Saba said.
“Then they know.”
He withdrew the sword from his scabbard and dropped it on the sand. Then two daggers from his waist. Blades could not serve us now.
“We come as guests,” Saba said.
“Slaves,” I said. And it was true.
“We are blind, Maviah. We have lost our way.”
I let his statement stand for a moment. My failure was too great for me to bear. Indeed, seated there upon the camel, a small part of me hated the Way of Yeshua as I had understood it.
Perhaps I had misunderstood him.
“Then we must find it again, Saba,” I finally said.
Two guards loitered by the front gate as we approached, neither taking much notice of our haggard forms. We had both replaced the white dress we typically wore for black tunics and pants. Our sandals were dusty from travel, and dirt had dried with the sweat on our faces. Saba wore no headdress to cover his bald head. I'd pulled a dark blue shawl over my hair.
They saw only two common Bedu.
But I was surely wrong. They had been watching us, knowing full well that Maviah, queen of the outcasts, and Saba, her tower of strength, came to beg for mercy.
When they pulled the gate wide without challenging us, I was certain.
Within the walls of Dumah, warriors stood on either side of a hard-packed path. Hundreds of them, spaced out by a sword's length, stretching deep into the city, leaving no question as to where we must go.
They were tall, dressed in black from head to foot, wearing well-worn leather armor, and headdresses tightly bound with red-and-yellow agals. All bore lances planted in the ground and polished daggers in their red sashes.
I had entered Herod's courts in shame, a hypocrite on a stage, playing my part as queen. I had marched into Petra's arena with my head tall and there became a real queen. For two years I had gathered the orphans and the outcasts, promising great power through peace in the Way of Yeshua.
Now I entered Dumah as a slave once again.
Saba and I guided our camels down the narrow way, staring at the palace Marid high upon the hill. No orders were given; no word was spoken. The only noises were the gentle padding of our mounts and the distant sounds of a city stirring to life: a dog, a spoon in a pot, a child crying, the pounding of wheat into flour. The city was well ordered and swept clean, but few emerged from their homes to watch our procession.
At the end of the main street, the way to the palace was blocked. Here a lone warrior on horseback stepped out before us and led us toward the center of the oasis. Toward the gardens, where my father had planted many flowering trees and pruned the palms for beauty.
Why? Talya was in the palace, surely. My pulse surged and my breathing became shallow. I wished only to reach Talya and offer myself for him.
Today the garden was a dazzling array of white and red and yellowâfruits that would make any Bedu salivate and blossoms that would attract the wonder of any traveler from afar.
This was Saman's own Garden of Eden, I thought. Watered with the blood of the fallen.
We broke through a stand of palms leading down to the main spring, and both Saba and I stopped and stared at the scene before us.
A hundred warriors stood in formation around the pool, facing a platform that had been erected on the near side of the oasis. Upon this platform stood Kahil in regal attire, watching us.
Thick branches from a large tree reached over the platform, and from the thickest branch extended a frayed rope. At the end of the rope hung a limp body.
For a long moment that refused to release me, I could not breathe. I could not mistake Judah's swollen face.
I could not move. My eyes would not leave the vision of death. Saman had executed Judah in the most demeaning fashion. Even as my heart had beat with Judah's, so they ceased together.
And Talya?
I quickly scanned the scene and found no sign of him.
“Be strong, Maviah,” Saba said. But I could hear the revulsion in his soft voice.
The warrior who'd been leading us turned back, saw that we'd both stopped, and spoke for the first time.
“Come.”
Judahâ¦My dear Judah! What have I done?
I followed Saba, numb. I had done this. I had allowed Judah to embrace his rage. I had joined it! How many times had Saba repeated Yeshua's teaching that those who lived by the sword would die by the sword? How many times had he said that all would reap from others what they sowed into them?
Talyaâ¦
All I had now was my son.
We stopped ten paces from the platform and I kept my eyes on Kahil now. To look at Judah again would be to lose any strength I still had.
He returned my gaze, wearing a twisted grin. Then he turned to two warriors and motioned to the body. They crossed to the rope, lowered Judah, and freed his neck from the noose. As if he were only a sack of grain, they hauled him to the back edge and dumped his body to the ground, out of view.
Then they fixed the rope in place so that the noose hung from the limb, empty.
“They say that to hang a queen is to invite demons into your bed,” Kahil said, pacing along the platform's edge, hands behind his back. “But my priests tell me that hanging you now will chase them away.” Kahil faced me, resolute. “You are the queen who betrayed us. What would you advise?”
I swallowed the pain in my throat and spoke, but hardly more than a whisper came out.
“Are you a queen?” he cried. “Speak like one!”
I took a deep breath and gathered strength.
“Where is my son?” I bit off.
“Ahâ¦Yes, of course. The child. You will have your child if you wish.”
My heart leaped.
“But firstâ¦tell me, was this insanity your own notion, or Judah's?”
“You took my son!” I screamed, unable to restrain myself.
“Because Judah sought to kill my father's son!”
He was speaking of himself.
Kahil stroked his beard. “Maliku played you perfectly, did he not? He knew that Judah would raise the battle cry if he took the children. And that the Bedu would lose their minds. History will show our actions fully justified. Not once did we attack first. You, not I, have brought all of this upon your people.”
His reasoning was twisted but acceptable in the Bedu way.
“You attacked a king,” Kahil said. “I have no choice but to hang you from your neck until you are dead.”
In a flash I saw the utter insanity of the ancient way, which sought an eye for an eye. There was always one more retaliation to be had, one more grievance to be righted, one more life to be defended.
Only Yeshua's Way of forgiveness could stop the endless cycle of punishment and retribution. Without it, the way of the desert would trade in violence for thousands of years to come.
This is what Yeshua had taught.
And then I thought of Talya and Judah, and I forgot that teaching.
“Then take my life if you must,” I said. “Only give my son to Saba and let them live free. I beg you.”
Kahil lifted his hand, fingers heavily ringed in silver and gold. “But you are no longer as valuable to me dead, dear Maviah, queen of the outcasts. You still have so much work to do.”
Warning whispered through my mind.
“Today, I have satisfied my need for blood by taking the life of your lover. But I still have an empty noose. Bring him!”
Two warriors led a hooded child out from behind the ranks, and I immediately recognized Talya's small form. A chill washed over the crown of my head and spread down my back.
“No!” I cried. Without thinking, I dropped from my camel and tore toward him, even as Saba started to dismount.
“Stay!” Kahil said, shoving his finger at Saba.
Three warriors stepped out and blocked my path, grabbing my arms and hauling me back.
“He is a child!” Saba roared.
“If you dismount, then neither this child nor his mother will have a warrior at their side!”
“I'll kill you!” My voice was frayed and I saw only the darkest night. “Don't touch my son!”
The warriors pushed me and I landed on my back. Flailing, unable to catch my wind, I scrambled for purchase and regained my feet, gasping. Talya stood near the noose with his hands tied behind his back, black hood over his head, breathing steadily.
But he wasn't panicking that I could see, and this gave me a sliver of hope.
“Do not disgrace yourself in my garden, Maviah,” Kahil said, clearly satisfied. “Be a queen before this king.”
I called out to my son. “Talya?”
“He is gagged. Unharmed, I assure you. And so you know, I have no intention of hanging him today. Nor the other thirty-nine that we have taken.”
Thirty-nine?
“I could have taken more while your band of despots was seeking to kill us, but I thought forty was the proper number. One for each tribe that has followed you. Forty, including your son who, I might add, is a very brave little boy.”
He reached over and pulled the bag from Talya's head. My son's mouth was bound by a brown swath of linen. But his tender eyes were bright, nearly green in the light. He was staring directly at me, unblinking.
There was no fear in him.
There was only Eden in him, I thought. And that thought deepened my anguish, for his innocence would be crushed in Kahil's thick hands.
“Do you see what mercy I show?” Kahil said. “For the third time in the same week we extend a branch of peace to you.”
“What do you want?” I demanded, struggling to show my son bravery.
“You will return to your forty tribes, and you will persuade each of them to swear their allegiance to Saman in the Light of Blood. Every sheikh, every warrior, every Bedu who would rise against me must kneel.”
What he demanded was impossible. I had gathered twenty thousand, some from each tribe, but to gather them allâ¦Bedu blood was too thick and their pride too ancient for such subservience. Asking any Bedu sheikh to bow to Saman would be no different than asking them to fall on their own swords. Most would prefer death!
“For this, I will give you sixty days. Two full months. And then, if you fail, I will raise my sword once again and water my garden with the blood of your sons and daughters.”
I was watching Talya's eyes as Kahil spoke, trying to offer him assurance and courage. But it was I who needed it, not my son. He looked at me, making no sound nor offering any resistance.
I glared at Kahil, awash in outrage. “You are a viper,” I snarled.
“And your son, the viper's prey,” he said. “Return him to the cell.”
They pulled the bag back over Talya's head.
“Talya! Do not be afraid, my son!”
I felt deathly ill. They dragged him away, and still he made not a sound.
“Wait!”
But they did not wait. Panic battered my mind. What might I say to offer my precious boy love and courage?
“Make sure that you eat all of your food!”
They were the only words I could form in such a state of anguish.
Saba offered more.
“Do not forget the Way, Talya. See his realm! Only his realm.”
Kahil nodded at me. “Sixty days, Queen. Not a single one more.”