Zane & Lucky's First Christmas (Forever Love, #5) (7 page)

“The doctor’s in the house, and he’s making the rules tonight.”

“But I want to feel your cock in me so badly, Noah.” Her voice sounded like it was singing. “I’ve been aching for your touch.”

“Don’t say that.” I groaned. “You’re going to make me come before I even take my pants off.”

“No, I won’t.” She laughed.

“Trust me, you will.” I caressed her cheek as I kissed her. “It hasn’t been that long, but my body has been missing you.”

“Not as much as I’ve been missing you.”

“Even though you’ve been mad at me?”

“That hasn’t stopped me from masturbating to thoughts of you every night.”

“You think of me when you pleasure yourself?” A warm and happy feeling spread through me at her words.

“Every single time.”

“I guess it shouldn’t surprise you that I’ve been thinking of you as well.”

“What do you think about?” She whispered in my ear and reached up pull my shirt off. I knew that if I was staying in character I should tell her off, but I was too excited by the feel of her fingers against my skin.

“I think about you touching me and kissing me.” I muttered gruffly as her fingers worked their way down my pants. “Only it never felt this good.”

“Your dreams of me could never live up to the reality of me,” she whispered softly in my ear.

“You’re right about that.” I closed my eyes and fell back on the bed, my aggressor role long gone.

“Make love to me, Noah.” She curled up next to me. “I just want to feel you.”

“You don’t have to ask me twice.” I pulled her on top of me and sank my teeth into her neck as my hand found its way back down her body.

 

***

“I’m going to have the best sleep.” Robin purred next to me, after her third orgasm of the night. “I’m not sure that I’m ever going to have a good night’s sleep without you in my bed.”

“I’m glad that I’m able to satisfy you in more than one way.” I smiled at her gently, but as I glanced at the clock on her bedside table I felt a sudden jolt of panic.

“What’s wrong?” She gave me a small look of fear.

“Nothing’s wrong.” I sighed and sat up and looked down at her angelic face as she lay there naked next to me, with her hair flowing down her body. “But I think I have to go.”

“Go?” She frowned and looked at me in disappointment. “You can’t go, it’s 3 a.m.” She looked at the clock as well.

“I’m sorry, but I don’t want to be missing when Skylar wakes up in the morning.”

“Oh.” She bit her lower lip and looked away from me. “Bye, then.”

“I know it’s shitty. I’m sorry.” I got out of the bed and stood there looking at her, hoping she would look at me and understand how much I wanted to stay the night with her. “You know I had a wonderful night, right?”

“Sure, booty calls are normally wonderful.”

“It wasn’t a booty call, for me.” I grabbed her hands and made her look at me. “Don’t say that.”

“It sure feels like a booty call. You got what you needed. Heck, the other guy even walked away before you even had to prove your worth. It’s all so easy for you, isn’t it, Noah Beaumont?”

“Don’t be like this, Robin.” I sat on the bed and looked at her with sorrowful eyes. “I really like you and I want to see where this can go. This isn’t just about sex, but I can’t stay the night. I have responsibilities now. I have a child. I have to be there for her when she wakes up in the morning. It wouldn’t be fair to her if I wasn’t there. She wouldn’t understand why I’m not there in the morning.” I repeated more firmly, willing her to understand.

“It’s fine.” Robin’s eyes glazed over. “I understand. Just go.”

“I’m not going to just go when you’re in this mood.”

“What do you want me to say, Noah?” She shrugged. “I get it. You have a kid now. A kid I didn’t even know existed until she showed up.”

“I’m sorry I didn’t explain about her. It was hard for me to talk about my relationship with Monica and Skylar. I didn’t want to scare you or make you think I was crazy. It was a strange situation to be in. I wasn't even sure what I was going to do. I had just met you. I didn’t want to scare you away.”

“You did a good thing, Noah.” She sighed and grabbed my hands and smiled at me weakly. There were tears in her eyes and my heart froze. “Trust me, I wish that someone would have loved me enough to do whatever it took to make my life better.”

“Your foster parents loved you.”

“They did, but they had so many children.” She sighed. “Sometimes, you just want to feel special.”

“I can understand that.”

“Like right now. I love what you’ve done for Skylar, Noah. I absolutely love it. You’re such a great man for taking a child that isn’t even yours. You’re dedicated to her
well-being already, and you want the best for her. You’re thinking of her first in your life. She is your life right now.”

“Yes, yes she is.” I
nodded, glad she understood where I was coming from.

“But,” She paused and gave me a look that sent shivers down my spine. “I want to be first in the guy I date’s life right now. I want to be number one, I want to be the one you want to make happy. I want you to stay with me because that’s what you want, and because you know it will make me happy.”

“You don’t know how badly I want to stay.” I started but she shook her head and stopped me.

“But you can’t. I can never be your number one.” She lay back and closed her eyes. “I dare say I sound like a selfish bitch right now. But I’ve never been a first priority. I want it so badly. I want to be with you, Noah. I like you so much. But I need to know what it feels like to be number one. I want to be the most important person in someone’s life. That’s all I’ve ever wanted.”

“I can’t give you that right now,” I mumbled as I felt my heart breaking.

“I know.” Her voice sounded pained. “Maybe we should just forget this.”

“Are you joking?” I pulled her up and made her look at me. “Are you fucking joking me, Robin?” Her eyes popped open in shock as she looked at me.

“What?”

“Don’t be stupid here, Robin. I’m going to pretend that your words are coming from a place of hurt and upset. I understand your need to be number one in someone’s life. And you would be the number one woman in my life. There is no one else I’d rather date right now. We have a special connection. Yes, I have a daughter. Yes, she is who I have to think about first. But we’re adults, Robin. We’ve both been through shit, but we’d be fools to let what we have go because of something this stupid. I’ve already fucked up once, but I’ve been lucky. You’ve forgiven me and you’re willing to give me a second chance. I’m not going to screw that up. But you’re not going to hold Skylar against me. You’re not that kind of woman. At least, the woman I’m falling in love with is not that woman. Don’t tell me I got you wrong.” I stopped and looked at her with my heart beating quickly. This was it. I’d laid it all on the line. This was make or break.

“You have more faith in me than I have in myself.” She laughed lightly and sat up, so that she was staring into my eyes. “And you’re willing to fight for me, for us.” She sighed and a lone tear rolled down her face. “I’m fucked up, Noah. I don’t know how to handle emotions. I’m scared that I’m going to get hurt.”

“I will never hurt you, Robin. I promise.”

“But that’s not something you can really promise, is it?” She ran her hands through her hair. “You’re such a good man. When I look at you, I almost forget that I’m me, carrying the problems of the world on my shoulders.”

“I can help take care of that burden.” I moved in closer to her so that she could see the sincerity into my eyes. “I want to take on some of that burden. And I want you to bond with Skylar, if you’re willing to do that.”

“Are you sure?” She looked at me with uncertain eyes.

“Yes, I want you to know that if this goes any further, it is a package deal. You met me as a single man, but now I’m a man with his daughter.” I paused. “A man that would one day like to take a wife and provide a mother and more children to his daughter’s life.” Robin’s eyes widened at my words and I smiled at her gently. “I hope I’m not scaring you, I’m not telling you that I need or want you to marry me and become Skylar’s mom right away, but if things work out, that’s the ultimate goal. If you don’t think you could ever take on that role, I want you to tell me.”

“I’ve always wanted my own family,” she said slowly and my lips crushed down on her
s as my heart exploded in happiness and hope. Maybe we really did have a chance at finding our forever love together.

Chapter 6

Lucky

 

“I cannot believe that Noah stayed out all night.” Zane’s voice was furious as we lay in bed. “He is seriously going to hear it from me.”

“He didn’t stay out all night, hon. He came back early this morning.”

“Creeping in at 5 a.m. is not acceptable.” He glared at me as he played with the loose curls running down my back.

“Don’t be irritable,” I bent down and kissed him lightly. “There will be other nights to make love.”

“When?” He frowned. “It seems like I may never get laid again.”

“Zane!”

“What?” He shrugged. “It’s true.”

“We nearly made love last night.”

“Yeah, but we didn’t.” He sat up and I laughed at his pouty expression. It amazed me that there were moments when I looked in his face and he looked like a petulant
school boy. Even though, he was my fiancé and the love of my life, and most definitely a man. “What’s so funny?” He continued grumpily.

“Go back to sleep, darling, I think you need some more rest.” I laughed as I jumped out of bed and made my way to the bathroom.

“I need some ass, is what I need.”

“I’m glad you love me for my brain.” I rolled my eyes and yelped as I felt him grab me and lift me up from behind and carry me back to the bed.

“I love you for your big breasts.” He growled as he kissed me hard. I felt his hand creeping up under my shirt. “I love you for your big brain as well,” he grinned down at me and I wrapped my legs around him and moaned as his fingers gently squeezed my nipples.

“Oh, Zane.” I moaned and ran my hands through his hair.

“Don’t tell me you haven’t been counting down the days as well.” He groaned as he kissed a trail down my neck to my collarbone.

“Okay, I won’t tell you that.” I laughed up and him and he growled in response as his mouth found my left breast. “Oh
, Zane,” I moaned in ecstasy.

“Aunty Lucky,” a small voice called out to me from the doorway and Zane jumped off of
me as if he were a thief caught in the middle of a robbery. I looked up through hazy eyes and saw Skylar standing there with a small smile. “I’m hungry, and Noah is still in bed sleeping.”

“That’s what happens when you stay out all night.” Zane muttered and I gave him a look as I stood up.

“Sure, honey, let’s go and make breakfast. What would you like?”

“Pancakes and bacon, please.” She grinned at me happily. “And maybe we can take Noah breakfast in bed.”

“Is this a joke? Am I living in a nightmare?” Zane flopped back down on the bed.

“Are you coming down?” I turned to look at him and mouthed
I’m sorry
.

“No.” He sighed. “I think I need to take care of myself before I implode.”

“Oh.” I bit my lower lip. “Sorry.”

“Sure you are.” He shook his head. “Close the door as you leave the room.”

“Skylar, honey. Go downstairs to the kitchen and take out the bacon and orange juice from the fridge and I’ll be right down.”

“Okay, Aunty Lucky.” She grinned and skipped to the stairs. “Can I watch cartoons as well?”

“Sure,” I nodded, not sure if Noah wanted her watching cartoons in the morning, but even I was a bit pissed off that Zane and I had been interrupted again. I watched her go down the stairs before walking back over to the bed and straddling Zane. I then planted the biggest kiss on him and then stood back up, as he looked up at me in a daze.

“What was that for?” He mumbled, with a goofy smile.

“That was to let you know that I’m disappointed as well, but that I will make sure we make up for this missed night.”

“Well, I can’t argue with that.” He smiled at me and the expression in his eyes changed from one of lust to one of love and devotion. “You do know it’s about more than sex, right?”

“Of course I do.” I laughed. “If I didn’t know that by now, we’d be in big trouble.”

“You’re a sexy woman, Lucky. I can’t help it if I want to ravish you every minute of every hour.”

“Then I guess I’m one very lucky woman.” I ran my fingers down his chest and to his boxer shorts and held onto his hardness for a few seconds. “A lucky woman who is sad she has to go downstairs and neglect her man right now.”

Zane groaned. “You better go now or you won’t be going anywhere for a good 20 minutes.”

“Oh, Zane,” I sighed, laughing, and stepped back.

“Don’t ‘oh Zane’ me, you little seductress,” he called after me as I walked to the door. “I’ll have pancakes and bacon as well, by the way.”

“Oh, now you want some?”

“If my lazy-ass brother is getting served breakfast in bed, you better believe I’m getting some.”

“Zane,” I admonished him. “Maybe he and Robin got back together.”

“It better be something good, or he is going to get a piece of my mind.”

“Oh, darling.” I shook my head and giggled as I walked out of the door. I had a feeling of contentment in me as I walked downstairs and heard Spongebob on the TV.

 

***

I watched my family sitting at the table eating breakfast and I felt happy, really happy. I was so thankful that I had met Zane and that Noah and Skylar were also in my life.

“Enjoying breakfast?” I looked around the table and watched as Noah, Skylar and Zane all ate the food up eagerly.

“Uh hmm,” Noah smiled at me as he reached for another pancake. “You’ve outdone yourself this morning, Lucky.”

“Yes, she has.” Zane glared at his brother. “Working night and morning.”

“Thanks, Lucky.” Noah laughed and smiled at his brother. “And thank you, Zane. I do appreciate you babysitting last night.”

“Uh huh.” Zane reached for some more bacon.

“Can I have another pancake please, Noah?” Skylar looked up at him with big hopeful eyes. “With syrup?”

“Sure.” He nodded and placed one on her plate. “No need to ask if you want more, honey. Just take it.”

“Okay, thank you.” She grinned and I watched as she poured about a pound of syrup onto her pancake. Zane and I both smiled at each other, as Noah continued on eating, having noticed nothing. It was funny for me to watch Noah adapting to fatherhood. He was a good man and tried his best, but he really didn’t know the first thing about being a parent.  I realized that Zane was likely going to be the same way, and I wondered if I shouldn’t enroll all of us in a parenting class.

“How is Robin?” I spoke the words without even thinking what I was saying.

“She’s good.” Noah grinned so widely that I knew that they had made up. “In fact, I think we’re going to take Skylar on a picnic next week. Would you like that?” He looked down at the little girl, who had so much syrup around her mouth that she looked like she could trap a hundred flies all by herself.

“Oh, yes, please.” she mumbled as she attempted to pour more syrup onto her plate.

“I think that’s enough syrup, honey.” I smiled at her gently and she put the bottle back down with a small grin.

“Ok, Aunty Robin.” It was then that Noah looked at her plate properly and I saw his eyes widen as he surveyed its contents before looking back at me and making a face. I grinned at him and we shared a secret smile.

“A picnic sounds like it will be fun.” Zane joined the conversation. “What day are you going, and what time?”

“Not sure yet, why?” Noah looked up at him casually.

“I want to spend some alone time with my fiancée.” Zane gave him a look and Noah laughed.

“Zane.” I glared at him, slightly embarrassed that he was bringing up our sex life, even if it was in as covert a way as possible.

“Lucky, if we don’t get the exact times we will be wasting a perfect opportunity.” Zane winked at me, and I felt my face burning up as I looked over at Skylar to see if she was
understanding any part of the conversation. I let out a sigh of relief as I watched her studiously cutting up her bacon and placing it on pieces of pancake squares.

“Uh huh.”

“Shit, if Noah had been here before we got pregnant, we may not have to worry about any babies coming.”

“What?”

“I said, if Noah had been here before we did the hoo-ha, we may not even be pregnant right now.” Zane repeated and I glared at him as Noah laughed.

“I suppose you guys haven’t had the opportunity to have alone time, huh?” Noah winked at his brother. “Come on now, Zane. I didn’t know you had problems in that department.”

“I don’t have problems.” Zane started and stopped as I gave him a murderous look. “Anyway, just let us know when you guys will be gone.”

“Sure, bro.” Noah laughed. “I can take Skylar out to the mall this morning, if you want. Give you some guys some alone time.”

“No.” I blurted out at the same time that Zane said “Sure.”

“I’ll let you guys think about it.” Noah grinned and I shook my head at him.

“I’m going to call Sidney after breakfast. I was hoping we could go and see him later this week and discuss our shooting schedule.”

“That sounds good.” Noah nodded. “I told you that Betty has a friend that is willing to be videotaped as well.”

“The Jewish lady?” I thought for a moment. “The one who was in the concentration camp?”

“Yeah, Mrs. Rosenbaum.” He nodded. “I spoke to her and she’s very eager to tell her story.”

“I suppose she doesn’t want people to forget.”

“Yeah. What makes the story even more powerful is how she and Betty got to be friends.”

“Betty used to be her cook, right?”

“Yeah,” He laughed. “She had to learn how to cook Kosher because she didn’t really know. It’s a pretty fascinating story. Mrs. Rosenbaum taught her how to cook Kosher and then never left the kitchen.”

“I thought Betty was a housewife.” Zane interrupted looking confused. “Who’s Mrs. Rosenbaum and what’s this about cooking?”

“She went to be a cook for a few years.” Noah paused as he swallowed some food. “But she and Mrs. Rosenbaum became friends and stayed in contact after she left the household.”

“That’s a bit unusual, isn’t it?” Zane looked surprised.

“That’s the point, silly.” I laughed at him. “They weren’t supposed to be friends. Everything about their situation should have kept them apart but it didn’t. Their identities as an older Jewish lady and a younger African American lady didn’t stop them from developing a lifelong friendship.”

“Interesting.” Zane grabbed another pancake, and I rolled my eyes at him.

“I’m not sure how you fooled me into believing you were interested in history and making this documentary.” I laughed. “You really have no clue,
do you?”

“You’re not going to tell me that you should have met Noah first again, are you?” Zane made a face at me and then laughed. “You know I love you guys and the Johnsons, but I can’t say that the subject matter sends my mind spinning with excitement.”

“Philistine.”

“Ooh, someone learned her word of the day,” he shot back at me, and we all laughed.

“So I’ll ask him if he’s free next week?”

“Yeah, sure.” Noah smiled at me and yawned. “I think I’m going to go get some sleep.”

“But, I wanted to play board games,” Skylar pouted, and Noah groaned and looked at me and Zane.

“No way, Jose.” Zane jumped up and slapped his brother on the shoulder. “I’m taking Lucky out and then we’re going to come back and relax before we go out to dinner.”

“I’m guessing I’m not invited.” Noah grinned and Zane gave him the eye.

“You’re guessing right.” He walked over to me and stopped by my chair. “Thank you for breakfast, my love. I’m going to go in the shower now.”

“Hold up.” I grabbed his arm. “You’re not expecting me to do the washing up, are you?”

“I thought you liked washing up.” He groaned and I gave him a look. “Okay, okay. Noah can help me.”

“That’s more like it.” I jumped up and kissed him on the cheek. “This isn’t the 50s, you know.”

“Trust me, I know.” He pinched my ass and I slapped his hand away before giggling and running up the stairs.

“Don’t leave any crumbs on those plates, boys.” I laughed as I entered the bedroom. I paused and closed the door slowly before pulling my phone out and calling Sidney.

“Hello?” He answered the phone right away, but his voice sounded a lot
more feeble than I remembered it being the last time I had seen him.

“Sidney, it’s me Lucky.”

“Well, imagine that. I was just thinking about you, Lucky.”

“Oh?”

“Yes, I was just wondering when you and your young man were going to tie the knot.”

“Oh, we haven’t set a date as yet.” I sighed as I sat down on the bed.

“That’s not a sigh I’m hearing, is it? Don’t tell me you’re changing your mind?”

“No, no, I’m not.” I mumbled quickly. “It just seems like I have so much to do, and yet I’m not doing anything.”

“You’re missing your parents, I suppose?” His voice reminded me of my dad’s, and I felt a little teary-eyed thinking about my parents.

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