Read Wide Open Online

Authors: Deborah Coates

Wide Open

 

 

To my parents, for my love of reading and of the land

 

 

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

 

To my terrific editor, Stacy Hague-Hill, and my brilliant agent, Caitlin Blasdell, both of whom made this a better book. To my copy editor, Eliani Torres, and the production team at Tor, thank you.

To Sarah Prineas, for convincing me I could write a novel, for reading countless drafts, and for the best sort of encouragement, critical and enthusiastic. To Sandra McDonald, for reading the entire thing, for figuring out the missing bits that made the whole thing work, and for ensuring that none of the characters were named Cornelius. To Jenn Reese, for reading the full manuscript twice and in particular for the ending, which is better for her comments.

To the rest of the Blue Heaven group, C. C. Finlay (most especially), Sarah K. Castle, Greg van Eekhout, Toby Buckell, Paolo Bacigalupi, Daryl Gregory, and Catherynne Valente. To Stephanie Burgis, Catherine Morrison, and Jen Adam for timely and insightful feedback.

To the Dragons of the Corn both past and present: Sarah Prineas, Lisa Bradley, Dorothy Winsor, Chris East, and Rachel Swirsky, and to my local writer friends for years of writing and encouragement and general friendship: Barbara Haas, Jenny Lowery, Karen Piconi Kerns, Ann Recker, and Sue Stanton.

To my father, I wish you were here for this. To my mother, for all the books over all the years. To my sister, Sue, for reading novels together by the sack, telling stories together, and encouraging my writing with her own, way back. To my brothers, Ed and Marty, and Matt, thanks for being great.

To my dogs, who need do nothing more than be dogs, but who do it very well.

 

 

CONTENTS

 

Title Page

Dedication

Acknowledgments

 

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Chapter 21

Chapter 22

Chapter 23

Chapter 24

Chapter 25

Chapter 26

Chapter 27

Chapter 28

Chapter 29

Chapter 30

Chapter 31

Chapter 32

Chapter 33

Chapter 34

Chapter 35

Chapter 36

Chapter 37

 

Copyright

 

 

1

 

When Sergeant Hallie Michaels arrived in Rapid City, South Dakota, she’d been traveling for twenty-four hours straight. She sat on the plane as it taxied to the gate and tried not to jump out of her skin, so ready to be up, to be moving, to put her head down and go. And Lord help anyone who got in her way.

She hadn’t been able to reach her father or anyone else by phone since she’d gotten the news, just contact with her commanding officer—
We’re sorry, your sister’s dead. Here’s ten days’ compassionate leave. Go home
.

Three sharp bongs, and the seat belt light went out. The plane filled with the sound of seat belts snapping, people moving, overhead doors opening up. The woman in the seat next to Hallie’s was still fumbling with her buckle when Hallie stepped past her into the aisle. She felt raw and sharp edged as she walked off the plane and up the Jetway, like rusty barbed wire, like she would snap if someone twisted too hard.

Halfway down the long wide concourse, ready—she was—for South Dakota, for her sister’s funeral for—

Goddamnit.

Eddie Serrano’s ghost floated directly in front of her, right in the middle of the concourse. She swiped a hand across her eyes, hoped it was an artifact of no sleep and too much coffee, though she knew that it wasn’t.

He looked like he’d just stepped out of parade formation—crisp fatigues, pants neatly tucked into his boots, cap stiff and creased and set on his head just exactly perfect. Better than he’d ever looked when he was alive—except for being gray and misty and invisible to everyone but her.

She thought she’d left him in Afghanistan.

She drew a deep breath. This was not happening. She was not seeing a dead soldier in the middle of the Rapid City airport. She wasn’t. She squared her shoulders and walked past him like he wasn’t there.

Approaching the end of the concourse, she paused and scanned the half-dozen people waiting just past security. She didn’t see her father, had almost not expected to see him because—oh for so many reasons—because he wouldn’t want to see her for the first time in a public place, because he had the ranch and funeral arrangements to take care of, because he hated the City, as he always referred to Rapid City, and airports, and people in the collective and, less often though sometimes more spectacularly, individually.

She spotted a woman with straight blond hair underneath a cowboy hat standing by the windows. Brett Fowker. Hallie’d known Brett since before kindergarten, since a community barbecue when they were five, where Brett had told Hallie how trucks worked and Hallie had taken them both for what turned out to be a very short ride. Brett was all right. Hallie could deal with that.

She started forward again and walked into a cold so intense, she thought it would stop her heart. It felt like dying all over again, like breath froze in her lungs. She slapped her hand against the nearest wall and concentrated on breathing, on catching her breath, on taking a breath.

She looked up, expecting Eddie.

But it was her sister. Dell.

Shit
.

Suddenly, Brett was there, a hand on her arm. “Are you all right?” she asked.

Hallie batted her hand away and leaned heavily against the wall, her breath sharp and quick. “I’m fine!” Her voice sounded rough, even in her own ears.

Dell looked exactly as she had the last time Hallie’d seen her, wearing a dark tailored shirt, jeans with a hole in one knee, and cowboy boots. She was a ghost now and pretty much transparent, but Hallie figured the boots were battered and scuffed because she’d always had a favorite pair that she wore everywhere. Even when she’d dressed up sometimes, like no one would notice the boots if she wore a short black dress and dangly silver earrings. And no one did—because it was Dell and she could carry something like that off, like it was the most natural thing in the world.

Hallie scrubbed a hand across her face.
Goddamnit, Dell
. She wasn’t going to cry. She wasn’t.

“I’m sorry, Hallie. I’m sorry.”

Brett said it over and over, like a mantra, her right hand a tight fist in Hallie’s sleeve. In sixth grade after Hallie’s mother died, she and Brett had made a no-hugging-ever pledge. Because no one had talked to Hallie that whole week, or looked her in the eye—just hugged her and handed her casserole dishes wrapped in aluminum foil.

Trust Brett to honor a pact made twelve years ago by eleven-year-olds.

“Brett,” Hallie said, “I—”

“Hallie!” Suddenly someone
was
hugging her. “Oh god, Hallie! Isn’t it awful?”

Lorie Bixby grabbed her around the neck, hugged her so tight, Hallie thought she might choke. “It can’t be right. I know it’s not right. Oh, Hallie…”

Hallie unwound Lorie’s hands from her neck and raised an eyebrow at Brett, because Lorie hadn’t been particular friends with Brett or Hallie back in school, though they’d done things together, because they lived close—for certain definitions of
close
—and were the same age. Hallie hadn’t seen her since she’d enlisted.

Brett raised her left shoulder in a half shrug, like she didn’t know why Lorie was there either, though Hallie suspected it was because Brett hadn’t wanted to come alone.

They were at the top of the stairs leading down to the luggage area and the parking lot. To Hallie’s left was a gift shop full of Mount Rushmore mugs and treasure maps to gold in the Black Hills. To her right was a café. It beckoned like a haven, like a brief respite from Afghanistan, from twenty-four hours with no sleep, from home.

But really, there was no respite. This was the new reality.

“Tell me,” Hallie said to Brett.

Brett hadn’t changed one bit since Hallie’d last seen her, hadn’t changed since she’d graduated from high school, except for the look on her face, which was grim and dark. She had perfect straight blond hair—cowgirl hair, Hallie and Dell had called it because all the perfect cowgirls in perfect cowgirl calendars had hair like Brett’s. She was wearing a bone-colored felt cowboy hat, a pearl-snap Western shirt, and Wranglers. “Tell you?” she said, like she had no idea what Hallie was talking about.

“What happened,” Hallie said, the words even and measured, because there were ghosts—Dell’s ghost, specifically—in the middle of the airport, and if she didn’t hold on tight, she was going to explode.

Brett drew a breath, like a sigh. “You should talk to your daddy about it.”

“Look, no one believes it was really suicide.” Lorie leaned toward them like this was why she’d come, to be with people, to talk about what had happened.

“What?” No one had mentioned suicide to her—accident, they’d said.
There’s been a terrible accident.

“No one knows what happened yet,” Brett said cautiously, giving Lorie a long look.

“Tell me,” Hallie said, the words like forged nails, iron hard and sharp enough to draw blood.

Brett didn’t look at Hallie, her face obscured by the shadow of her hat. “They say,” she began, like it had all happened somewhere far away to people who weren’t them. “She was out driving over near Seven Mile Creek that night. Or the morning. I don’t
know
.” Like that was the worst thing—and for Brett, maybe it was—that she didn’t have all the particulars, the whys and wherefores. “She wracked her car up on a tree. There was no one else around. They’re saying suicide. But I don’t— No one believes that,” she added quickly. “They don’t.” As if to convince herself.

“Dell did not commit suicide,” Hallie said.

“Hallie—”

She walked away. This was not a discussion.

She didn’t look to see if Brett and Lorie were behind her until she was halfway to the luggage carousel.

Five minutes later, they were crammed into Brett’s gray Honda sedan. Hallie felt cramped and small sitting in the passenger seat, crushed under the low roof. Lorie sat in the back, an occasional sniff the only mark of her presence.

Brett turned the key in the ignition, the starter grinding before it caught. Hallie felt cold emanating from Eddie’s and Dell’s ghosts drifting behind her in the backseat. Though Lorie didn’t act as if she could feel them at all.

“She called me,” Brett said as she pulled out of the parking lot.

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