Read Ghost Flower Online

Authors: Michele Jaffe

Ghost Flower

GHOST

FLOWER

GHOST

FLOWER

MICHELE

JAFFE

An Imprint of Penguin Group (USA) Inc.

Ghost Flower

RAZORBILL

Published by the Penguin Group

Penguin Young Readers Group

345 Hudson Street, New York, New York 10014, U.S.A.

Penguin Group (USA) Inc., 375 Hudson Street, New York, New York 10014, U.S.A.

Penguin Group (Canada), 90 Eglinton Avenue East, Suite 700, Toronto, Ontario, Canada
M4P 2Y3 (a division of Pearson Penguin Canada Inc.)

Penguin Books Ltd, 80 Strand, London WC2R 0RL, England

Penguin Ireland, 25 St Stephen’s Green, Dublin 2, Ireland (a division of Penguin Books Ltd)

Penguin Group (Australia), 250 Camberwell Road, Camberwell, Victoria 3124, Australia
(a division of Pearson Australia Group Pty Ltd)

Penguin Books India Pvt Ltd, 11 Community Centre, Panchsheel Park,
New Delhi – 110 017, India

Penguin Group (NZ), 67 Apollo Drive, Mairangi Bay, Auckland 1311, New Zealand
(a division of Pearson New Zealand Ltd)

Penguin Books (South Africa) (Pty) Ltd, 24 Sturdee Avenue, Rosebank, Johannesburg 2196, South Africa

Penguin Books Ltd, Registered Offices: 80 Strand, London WC2R 0RL, England

10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1

Copyright © 2012 Michele Jaffe

All rights reserved

ISBN: 978-1-101-56168-3

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data is available

Printed in the United States of America

The scanning, uploading and distribution of this book via the Internet or via any other means without the permission of the publisher is illegal and punishable by law. Please purchase only authorized electronic editions, and do not participate in or encourage electronic piracy of copyrighted materials. Your support of the author’s rights is appreciated.

The publisher does not have any control over and does not assume any responsibility for author or third-party websites or their content.

ALWAYS LEARNING

PEARSON

A heap of broken images, where the sun beats

And the dead tree gives no shelter, the cricket no relief,

And the dry stone no sound of water. Only

There is a shadow under this red rock,

(come in under the shadow of this red rock),

And I will show you something different from either

Your shadow at morning striding behind you

Or your shadow at evening rising to meet you;

I will show you fear in a handful of dust.

—T.S. Eliot,
The Wasteland

Table of Contents

Part I: Asleep

Chapter: 1

Chapter: 2

Chapter: 3

Chapter: 4

Chapter: 5

Chapter: 6

Chapter: 7

Chapter: 8

Chapter: 9

Chapter: 10

Part II: Haunted

Chapter: 11

Chapter: 12

Chapter: 13

Chapter: 14

Chapter: 15

Chapter: 16

Chapter: 17

Chapter: 18

Chapter: 19

Chapter: 20

Chapter: 21

Chapter: 22

Chapter: 23

Chapter: 24

Chapter: 25

Chapter: 26

Chapter: 27

Chapter: 28

Chapter: 29

Chapter: 30

Chapter: 31

Chapter: 32

Chapter: 33

Chapter: 34

Chapter: 35

Chapter: 36

Chapter: 37

Chapter: 38

Chapter: 39

Chapter: 40

Chapter: 41

Chapter: 42

Chapter: 42

Chapter: 43

Chapter: 44

Chapter: 45

Part III: Awake

Chapter: 46

Chapter: 47

Chapter: 48

Chapter: 49

PART I

ASLEEP

 

Her body wakes up before her mind. The air is warm and still against her skin. A truck groans by somewhere in the distance. But then it’s gone, and silence settles back over her like a soft quilt. Her cheek rests on something cool and smooth, and her legs are curled up under her chin.

This isn’t how she usually sleeps. She turns slightly to stretch out, and her shoulder screams in agony.

She opens her eyes and sees white tiles, a streak of something blue across them, the underside of a sink. Her heart starts to pound as her mind takes in the details, eleven grey wads of chewing gum stuck to the bottom of the sink, a gallon jug of bright pink disinfectant, a purple nail tip next to the base of the toilet.

One of her eyes won’t open all the way, and when she reaches up, it is puffy. She grabs the white porcelain of the sink, and pain lances across the back of her head, blacking out her vision for a moment. She holds on; the pain passes. She’s on her feet now, but the room is swaying beneath her.

In the dented mirror she sees a person with the beginnings of a black eye and mascara running down her face. It takes her a moment to realize it’s her, it must be her. She feels something poking her thigh, and she reaches into her pocket and finds $18.75, a broken piece of gold chain, and a receipt from a car wash convenience store for a Diet Coke.

She pushes the door open and stumbles outside. The sunshine is piercing. She squints against it and gazes 360 degrees around. She has no idea where she is.

She starts running.

CHAPTER 1

I
t started with a new dawn.

I awoke with the sound of a girl’s laughter in my ears. A shaft of sunlight slanted across my face, painting the space behind my eyelids golden. I stretched, fingers and toes uncurling against rumpled sheets toward the other side of the bed.

Empty.

It had been a dream. There was no laughing girl. The air filtering through the fly-specked screen of my rented room was still and silent and warm already at 5:03 a.m.

I had been asleep for more than a thousand days. Not technically, that’s just how it felt.

There were still two minutes until my alarm would go off. That had been happening to me more and more recently, waking up sixty, ninety, one hundred seconds early, as though some part of me was issuing a warning, telling me to stop dawdling and leave.

I am an imposter. A fake. A fraud. But everything that follows is the truth and nothing but the truth. I have no reason to lie anymore.

Dawn is special in Tucson. It doesn’t arrive gently with the
sweet smoldering quality it has at the edges of the country. It comes on all at once, a thin, sharp light the color of corn silk that gives the impression of being more honest than its afternoon butter yellow cousin. It may not always be flattering, but it doesn’t pull any punches.

I yawned. A fat bumblebee hummed outside the window. Down the street I could hear the sound of a sprinkler watering a thirsty lawn, clicking one, two, three, four, five, six, seven and then
sevensixfivefourthreetwoone
as the automatic arm swung back fast. The warm air settled over me like an extra blanket, and I gave myself a moment to savor it. Then my alarm began to beep, and I pulled myself out of bed.

The light did my room no favors, picking out every scar and gash in the battered night table and dresser with the drawers glued shut—$53.50 a week didn’t entitle you to drawers—and making the tiny blue flowers that dotted the yellow wallpaper look even more like flu germs. I could have spent ten hours cleaning the place, and it wouldn’t have looked any better or any less lonely.

It was Mother’s Day, and by nine thirty the Old Town Starbucks where I worked was filled with well-fed white men with thick gold bands on their fingers wearing cargo shorts and U of A T-shirts, pushing strollers and taking extra care to get their wives’ double chai latte with wings, light foam, just right. Like this would make up for all the nights they didn’t get home to help with dinner or the way they winked at me when they came in weekdays alone wearing suits. The wives played along with the lie, doing their best to look as if a coffee shop with the family was where they most wished to spend their special day.

Who knows, maybe it was. I should say upfront that I don’t really understand how happy families work. My experiences in foster
care gave me a view of “family” as an organism knitted together by convenient lies and inconvenient needs that bristled porcupine-like with protective quills if you dared to point that out.

My third foster mother, Mrs. Cleary, couldn’t understand why fitting in was so hard for me. “You need to learn to think of someone besides yourself and have compassion for others,” she said, leaning back in her La-Z-Boy chair with the bowl of popcorn on her lap and a glass of bourbon in her hand. My stomach growled audibly, but we both ignored it. “All you have to do is put yourself in someone else’s shoes.”

I tried, but her shoes were black pointy-toed three-inch heels with garish buckles on them that squished the front of her feet and made her red painted lips draw into a tense line every time she stood up. Looking at them made me feel like screaming.

That was the last foster home I lived in.

I had just finished attempting to put myself into the Lilly Pulitzer lime-green flip-flops of a woman with a Botox permasmile—“Have a super day!” I chirped—when the guy and the girl reached the front of my line.

“Hi, remember me?” the guy said, shooting me a conspiratorial smile and leaning close to the register.

I treated it as a rhetorical question. It would have been as impossible to forget him as it would have been to not notice when he and the girl next to him had walked in that day. For one thing, they blended in with the Mother-Father-Stroller crowd as well as sand in a Frappuccino. For another, he looked like he’d stepped out of an advertisement, the kind with the half-naked guy with abs like the sculpted bottom of a riverbed squinting at the horizon. Rich. Spoiled. With a perpetual expression of being pleased with himself. The kind of face that could easily haunt your dreams.

Plus he had been in five times during the last two weeks. I felt like I might have seen the girl recently as well, but I wasn’t sure.

“I’m Bain,” he said when I just kept looking at him. “Bain Silverton. And this is my sister Bridgette.”

“Eve,” I told him, nodding my head toward my name tag. “My name is still Eve Brightman. The same way it was the other times you asked.”

“You do remember me.” His eyes lit up with pleasure. “I believe you, I do. It’s just—damn you are a dead ringer for someone I used to know.” He turned to the girl next to him. “See, Bridge? Isn’t it weird? I mean the hair is short, but it could seriously be her.”

She nodded. Like him, she had early-morning-blue wide-spaced eyes with heavy lids and a perfect oval face, but while his gaze was mischievous and warm, hers was cool, appraising. I’d guessed she had his same light brown hair that mellowed to gold in the sun, but she’d dyed it a subtle red and had thick bangs across her forehead. I had the sense that in her world, this was an act of thrilling rebellion. I watched her place my Target jeans and T-shirt with a two-second glance. She was wearing a denim shorts jumper with a loose cashmere sweater over it, driving moccasins, a large leather bag with subtle hardware, and aviator glasses on top of her head. On the pointer finger of her left hand, she wore a Cartier triple-band gold ring. Simple, understated. I guessed the outfit, not counting the ring, cost four thousand dollars. Mine cost $34.53.

Bain said, “I told Bridgette all about you.”

I couldn’t imagine what he’d told her, and before I could ask, Roman, my boss, came up. “What have I told you about chatting with your friends at the counter, Eve?” he asked in his nasal voice, somehow managing to glare at me and smile smarmily at Bain and Bridgette at the same time.

Other books

Something True by Karelia Stetz-Waters
Dark Justice by Brandilyn Collins
Miss Grief and Other Stories by Constance Fenimore Woolson
After Daybreak by J. A. London
fml by Shaun David Hutchinson
Only With Your Love by Lisa Kleypas
Tenth Man Down by Ryan, Chris


readsbookonline.com Copyright 2016 - 2020