Authors: Kelly Osbourne
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I would like to dedicate this book to every young woman who’s ever felt lost
I know that I can be annoying and drive you all crazy so thank you so much for all that you do for me:
Colin and Mette Newman
Sharon and Dave Godman
Everybody that has given advice needs a special thank you:
Al-Anon Family Groups
Family Planning Association
Thank you to Hazleden and all the Hazel Nuts – Thank you for helping me through the hardest time in my life. And a special thanks to Lisa K and Pat.
Thank you to Radio 1 for taking the risky chance of putting me on live radio because without
I would not have got the chance to write this book.
Caroline – thank you for all your hard work. Working with you on this book was an amazing experience and I hope we get to do it all again.
Thank you to Louisa and the team at Virgin Books.
I couldn’t get through a day without my friends who have been there and supported me throughout the good and the bad:
Maxi – thank you for saving my life
Sammy and Fleur
Mum as much as this pains me to say it, after finishing my book, I realise that I am you. Dadda, thank you for teaching me that it’s OK for me to be who I am and even when I’m not, thank you for loving me anyway. Jack, thank you for teaching me to be a better person.
Luke, thank you for making my life complete.
Parents are parents whether your father is a bank manager or a gardener. I found my dad embarrassing all the time
thirteen is the start of one of the hardest times of your entire life. It really is. You don’t know who you are. You’ve got all these people telling you what’s cool and what’s not. There are just far too many influences in your life.
I had no idea what lay ahead when I celebrated my thirteenth birthday on 27 October 1997.
I expected that my life was going to change. Becoming a teenager was a big deal for me and I’d been looking forward to it. We were living at Welders. It’s our family home in Buckinghamshire and it’s where my parents live now when they’re in the UK. Even though I’ve got my own home in London, Welders is the one place in the world where I feel really safe. I love that house so much. The special effects guy from
owned it before us. When I’m there I have the
best night’s sleep. Welders is hidden away on a leafy road. You’d quite easily drive past it if you didn’t know it was there.