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Authors: John Donohue

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He shook his head. “No. I believe it is Tibetan script.”

A young guy with a scraggly beard next to me leaned forward. “It’s the mantra,
Om Mane Padme Hung
,” he said with smug self-satisfaction. He had the bright-eyed look of a true believer.

“Ah,” I said.

The Rinpoche stayed standing and began speaking. His voice had a clipped, British accent to it. It wasn’t a surprise. Most of the lamas abroad today had made the tough hike across the Himalayas to India, the Chinese hot on their trail, and the cadences of the Raj still lived on in their English.

He was an engaging speaker; I’ll give him that. Changpa seemed comfortable on the stage, with the audience. I had studied enough about Buddhism and its varieties—Theravada, Mahayana—and had been exposed to enough over-informed enthusiasts to know, however, that it was anyone’s guess how the night might turn out. Especially with all the hype about Changpa’s “powers.”

I was really dreading an evening of mystic mumbo jumbo. I knew, deep down, that most people here hungered for a revelation of the powers of the mysterious East. But I thought they were doomed to disappointment. Revelation for me has always been a subtle thing, and as an object of desire is much like trying to grasp smoke. There are probably better ways to spend your time.

As the evening progressed, however, my fears were quieted. Changpa was pretty much what he appeared. Instead of a hyped-up mystic, what you came away with was the impression of a sincere man advocating the teachings of the Buddha and the benefits of belief and compassion. His voice was calm and clear. It had a cadence to it that gathered the audience in. You could almost feel the heightened intimacy, the sensation of the room growing physically closer, and of being gently drawn in upon a still center. Where Changpa stood.

I had experienced this before, with my own teacher Yamashita, when he chanted the warrior’s mantra and showed me the ways to draw an ancient grid of power. Now I could sense a similar event unfolding. On one level, I was observant enough to see this. But the knowledge of what was happening did not prevent it from affecting me. What we were experiencing was a type of autohypnosis. Any good ritual contains it. But the astounding thing was to see the ease with which Changpa created the mesmerizing effect with such a large crowd.

The lama finished his presentation, and the crowd sat motionless for a moment, still held in the power of his words. Then the applause began.

I looked at Yamashita. He sat there, quietly intent, his eyes slightly narrowed as he watched the Rinpoche. “Wow,” I said. My teacher nodded.

Then there was a period of question and answer.

I sat up a little straighter. This could be interesting. Personally, I find the prospect of fielding random questions from strangers tremendously unsettling. Like waiting for multiple attackers in a darkened room. I’ve done it, of course, but I would never volunteer to repeat the experience.

Fortunately, most of the people who spoke up were tremendously respectful. I suspected that the museum staff had arranged it. There were would-be Buddhists asking questions about the Dharma. The Sangha. Prayer wheels. You knew, deep down, that everyone was interested in the Rinpoche’s reputed clairvoyance. And some people sort of hinted at possible connections between meditation and “higher powers.” But no one broached the subject directly. Until the scraggly guy next to me stood up.

He had a brittle, intense voice that matched his looks. “Changpa Lama,” he started, making a point of avoiding the Rinpoche title, “I wonder if you could comment on the allegations of your psychic abilities.” There was a note of skepticism in the young man’s voice. “And how this is consistent with the Buddha’s teachings.” A murmur, half expectation, half hostility, grew in the crowd. But the man wasn’t deterred. He seemed, if anything, to be energized by the anger he was creating. He stood there, his chin pointing aggressively at the stage.

At the head of the room, Changpa looked placidly into the audience and held up a hand to quiet them. The lama smiled sheepishly. It was, I thought, the most genuine moment of the night. He had a good smile. A human face. I liked him.

“This is, I know, a thing of intense interest for people.” He looked around the room. “There is, even in a place like America, where science is so powerful… there is this need for mystery.”

I nodded to myself. I had seen the same hunger in the dojo. Many trainees worked long to get behind the veil of technique and effort and practice, hoping to find a mystery. Each student had his or her own idea of what the mystery should be, of course. And what many found depended on what they had set off to see in the first place. If you stayed long enough, however, I thought that what you discovered after hard training and discipline was simply more discipline. And maybe a small, tiny voice, whispering that the human spirit’s ability to endure was the greatest mystery of all.

“There is no mystery here,” the Rinpoche continued. “No magic. Please. I have no desire to appear on the cover of your supermarket tabloids.” He grinned at the appreciative laughs from the audience.

“And I do not know what to call the… experiences I sometimes have.” Changpa looked around. “You cannot turn it on and off like a light switch. It is not a conjurer’s trick.” Again, the smile. “So I will read your minds just once tonight and add that, no, I will not be able to demonstrate this experience to you further.” There was some laughter again and a smattering of applause. Then he grew more serious. “But I have thought long and hard on a question very much like yours.”

Changpa looked into the rear of the room, toward his questioner. For a brief moment, I saw the flash of focus in his eyes. It transmitted a sense of power and perception that was almost frightening in its directness. It was similar to what I often glimpsed in my own teacher: a revelation of an ability as intriguing as it was scary. I could see the young man standing next to me almost sag at the impact of Changpa’s gaze. I don’t know what he had hoped to achieve through his question. I only know that he got more than he bargained for. He sat down then, slowly, collapsing like a deflated balloon.

The lama continued his explanation as if nothing had occurred. But I noticed the tilt of Yamashita’s head: he had seen it, too.

The holy man’s words grabbed my attention again. “Certainly Chenzerig, the Buddha of Compassion, provides people with an awareness of many different things in different ways. Some people hear the beauty of music more clearly than others. Artists are more attuned to the subtlety of color. These are sometimes vehicles to lead us to dharma, to truth.”

The room grew quieter as people listened intently. For the first time that evening, Changpa sat on the platform provided him. His hand reached into his robes and drew forth a string of prayer beads. He gestured with the beads. “But sensation often can serve as an impediment. Each bead on this
mala
represents four obstacles to truth. There are twenty-seven beads here, and four times twenty seven is one hundred and eight.” I saw a number of heads nodding in recognition of the point. Changpa smiled again. “We believe that there are one hundred and eight basic obstacles that need to be removed or purified to reach the True Way.” His fingers worked the beads almost automatically. “In our daily lives, the endless details of existence can sometimes obscure the dharma, the true path. It is like the old saying you have: a man cannot see the forest for the trees.” He looked around the room.

“My gift is that I can sometimes be elevated to a place where I can see the forest. Or even beyond it. I do not think it a mystery. Perhaps it is that, for a brief time, the Way is less…” he struggled for a word, his eyes remote. Then he finished. “… less occluded.” He smiled sadly. “It is, I believe, what the Lord Buddha seeks for us all.”

Out of the corner of my eye I had noticed Yamashita leaning forward, as if to better catch Changpa’s explanation. As the lama finished, my teacher sat back, slowly exhaling in a sound that telegraphed a release of tension and a sense of deep satisfaction.

There was a reception for Changpa after the lecture. It was an invitationonly deal, but Yamashita’s name and mine were on the list. It was held in a special exhibition gallery near the auditorium—not because the space was conducive to crowds, but, I suspected, because there was no furniture to move.

Even so, it was packed. The audience streamed out of the theater, setting up currents of movement, eddies of conversation. I tried to work our way through the crowd, but gave up and took my teacher around to the gallery’s back entrance. A few people had the same idea. And they were being screened by a large guy with a clipboard. He wasn’t wearing a museum staff uniform. And there was a subtle undercurrent in the air around him, a hint of barely suppressed anger. Or fear.

As we moved closer, I got a better look. He was in his mid-twenties, and had the easy stance of an athlete. Maybe six-two or three. Not huge by NFL standards, but big enough. He certainly loomed over me. I don’t think Yamashita, who’s even smaller, noticed. He’s not even concerned, with these things. Size to him is merely part of an equation of angles, distances, and lines of attack. It’s certainly not an element of intimidation.

But you could see that this guy liked to use his bulk that way. He was dressed all in black; an affectation that I vaguely associated with show biz or the art world. The dark clothes hid the musculature, but you could see the hint of power in the neck that swelled from his stylish little turtleneck. The guy was a people-handler. He seemed an odd companion for the Rinpoche.

We got to the head of the line.

“Hi,” I said, giving the man my card. “I’m Dr. Burke. My guest and I should be on the list of invitees.”

He took the card and didn’t look at it. He looked down at his clipboard, flicking back and forth among the pages. His face took on a hard look. “No. Uh-uh. I don’t see it.”

I glanced at Yamashita. My job as his student is to pave the way for him. He is, after all, my sensei. It was embarrassing to have this sort of snag pop up. But I stayed calm.

“Sure, I understand,” I told the man guarding the door. “Arrangements were made through the Office of Special Events.” I could see that none of this made the slightest impact.

The man shook his head. “Yeah, well look. I don’t know about that.” You could see him make his final decision: it was like watching a shade roll down behind his eyes. His hard look got harder. “I’m gonna have to ask you to move along, now.”

“Maybe we should talk to your supervisor…” I offered. “I’m sure the head of security can clear this up.”

The man moved closer to us, trying to use his body to reinforce his request. Yamashita watched dispassionately, like a scientist viewing an interesting, yet routine, experiment performed by a colleague. But he didn’t budge. And I got the subtle message: this problem was mine to deal with.

“I’m telling you once,” the guard said tightly. “You’re not on the list. You don’t get in. Now beat it.”

You could sense the shove coming. It was in the way his tone of voice began to cycle upward. A slight adjustment of his feet. I think his nostrils even flared slightly. In Yamashita Sensei’s dojo we call it telegraphing. So I wasn’t surprised when he tried to move me.

He shoved, and I could see his eyes narrow with anger when I stayed rooted to the spot. It’s a pretty basic skill, once you get the hang of it. Without balance, my teacher says, nothing can be achieved. The naive think he’s waxing philosophical. In reality, he thinks fighters should avoid falling down.

“I want you out of here,” the big man hissed at me. He was getting ready to do something else. This was not the place for a shoving match. And I got the sense my friend here was getting ready to take things to the next level. It worried me. Not in terms of the physical stuff. But I could see the headlines in the paper:
Museum Mayhem: Martial Artist Crashes Party
.

“Is there a problem?” a woman’s voice asked from the room beyond the door. I got the initial impression of an attractive, fit form with dark hair. She had a list on a clipboard, too. But I was mostly focused on the guy at the door. The man glared at me as I went through my explanation again to her. Presented my card. She looked at an index card clipped to her papers, and then put a hand on the arm of my wrestling partner. “It’s OK. They were a late addition to the list.” She said it in a calming way. But it was a firm tone, and not apologetic. The guard looked at us with resentment, but he stood aside. You could tell that deep down he wanted another go at me. And part of me was annoyed enough to oblige. For the first time, my teacher spoke. “Come, Burke. Let us go in.” It was a mild command, but an order nonetheless.

“I’m sorry, Dr. Burke,” the woman said as she started to lead us inside.

“There have been some changes in Changpa Rinpoche’s arrangements. Different staff…” She smiled.

I smiled back at her and gestured for Yamashita to go in ahead of me. The man in black looked at us like we were reptiles.

I waited until she was out of earshot. “You think I’m hard to move,” I murmured to the guard as I passed him, “you ought to try the Japanese guy.” I grinned wickedly and entered the reception.

7
DISCIPLES

Yamashita and I made our way through the crowd with the woman who had brought us in.

“I’m so sorry about the fuss,” she apologized again. She had dark brown, almost black hair that danced around her shoulders, and white teeth that glittered when she smiled.

“Is he with the museum?” I asked, nodding toward the man at the door who’d tried to bounce us.

“Oh, no.” Again, the glitter of teeth. “Changpa Rinpoche prefers things simple, but his security advisors sometimes bring on added people for some events.”

“Uh-huh ,”I nodded. “Is that where you come in…”

“Oh, I’m sorry.” She paused and turned to face us. “I’m Sarah Klein.” Her hair swung around and a few fine strands brushed across her forehead. She pushed them back absent-mindedly. Then laughed. “And no, I’m not part of the security. I spend some time at the Dharma Center in Manhattan and I volunteered to help out tonight.”

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