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Authors: Lisa Samson

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Bella

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Dedication from Lisa:
For Leigh Heller, who loves life

© 2008 by Bella Productions LLC.

All rights reserved. No portion of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means—electronic, mechanical, photocopy, recording, scanning or other—except for brief quotations in critical reviews or articles, without the prior written permission of the publisher.

Published in Nashville, Tennessee, by Thomas Nelson. Thomas Nelson is a registered trademark of Thomas Nelson, Inc.

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Publisher's Note: This novel is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either products of the author's imagination or used fictitiously. All characters are fictional, and any similarity to people living or dead is purely coincidental.

Because subtitles aren't appropriate for fiction, all words spoken by a character in Spanish will be italicized in English.

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

Samson, Lisa, 1964–
  Bella : a novelization of the award-winning movie / by Lisa Samson.
    p. cm.
  ISBN 1-59554-608-1 (softcover) 1. Pregnant women—Fiction.
2. Abortion—Fiction. 3. Mexican Americans—Fiction. 4. Psychological fiction. I. Title.
  PS3569.A46673B46 2008
  813'.54—dc22

2008009407

Printed in the United States of America
08 09 10 11 12 RRD 5 4 3 2 1

Contents

Prologue

One

Two

Three

Four

Five

Six

Seven

Eight

Nine

Ten

Eleven

Twelve

Thirteen

Fourteen

Fifteen

Sixteen

Seventeen

Eighteen

Nineteen

Twenty

The Film's Production Story

The Actors

About Metanoia Films

Letter to the reader from the author

Reading Group Guide

Prologue

N
obody expected it to happen to them personally, and with the way the population of the planet kept increasing, that seemed a little silly. Nina could hardly believe she was no different in that regard. So much for all those corny kids' shows that told her, over and over again, how “special” she was.

Yeah. Special.

Right.

Nina rubbed her hands together in her lap, warming them between her knees despite the warm spring day outside. The paneled wall, cheap paneling like her next-door neighbor had in his club basement when she was growing up, cast a satin glow from the anemic fluorescent strip lights. And those awful plastic chairs! In rows much less, as if what she was about to do was a privilege and not a right, something you just shut up and got in line for, thankful that people were willing to help out in your time of need.

Didn't these people know she'd need more than some outdated sterility at a time like this? What was wrong with them? They sounded so caring on the phone; they sounded pink and lacy and seventy-five degrees, at least.

Guess the money in her pocket wouldn't be going for décor. Or heat.

She felt so cold. Shivering, she took stock of the occupants in the waiting room, two couples and two other women just as alone as she. One looked through a newsmagazine; the other looked at the floor. They all sat in their respective bubbles, everybody knowing why the others came. But for some, this was a secret they'd take to their graves. It was almost as if they could hear each other's hearts breaking.

He said he'd come and she'd trusted him. But it was almost time to go in. She was pretty sure these folks maintained a sort of super-punctuality, lest someone have second thoughts and beat it out of there. And he'd yet to arrive.

Figures. Pieter let her down. Why not José too?

No, that wasn't fair. José wasn't at all like Pieter. Everybody at the restaurant thought José was a little crazy. But today she knew better.

Finally, he rushed through the door, her new friend bringing a fresh wind in with him.

He sat down next to her and took her hands, his shadowy blue eyes rimmed with dark lashes. “I'm sorry I'm late.” He came close and whispered in her ear, his breath warm, smelling of mouthwash. “Let me help you. Please, Nina.” And he whispered something else in his comforting Latino accent, but she couldn't hear it, for the nurse had called her name.

She arose. José steadied her as her knees buckled; she touched his shoulder and tried to smile as he reached out, embracing her. Then she followed the broad back of the nurse whose surgical scrubs were, ironically, printed with kittens. Nina looked up through the ceiling to the sky. Kittens. Did it have to be kittens?

She looked over her shoulder as the door to the hallway outside the surgical suite closed. José was pulling rosary beads out of his pocket. A rosary? In this place? And yet she took comfort in his prayers.

So she stripped down to nothing, feeling more naked than she ever had before, shrugged into the hospital gown, and waited for what seemed like all the years she'd lived in that city. She lay flat on the table, staring up at the ceiling, tears filling her eyes, and hoping, like millions of other women had hoped before her, this would make everything go away and tomorrow life would return to normal.

She curled her hands into fists, eyeing her bag of clothing by the changing room door.

One

The week before.

J
osé journeyed to the cemetery like he did most mornings. He stood by the grave, the words of his grandmother filling his mind as the breeze of early morning filled his nose and lungs.

“If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans.”

And there wasn't a day that went by that José didn't live with those words floating in his mind like a white gull circling by the sea, gently reminding him of the four years spent on Riker's Island.

Newborn leaves shivered on the cherry trees that lined the lanes of the cemetery.

Oh yes. He'd had plans. As a boy on a horse ranch in Mexico, he knew exactly what he wanted to be, but nothing turned out as he'd planned. It never did. Life took you right to the edge of where you wanted to go, then turned left. There were only a few people in the world he knew who did exactly what they wanted with their lives. Unfortunately, they were his mother, his father, and his older brother, Manny.

But everyone else? No. Most of them seemed to be scratching along like him, working a job there in the city, acting a part, and wondering what the world would hold if they weren't tied down by their mistakes.

You're such a good-looking boy
,” that same grandmother “had always told him as he was growing up. But nobody in the courtroom that day cared whether or not he was handsome. He was guilty, and they threw him into prison. Each day José realized he'd gotten off easy compared to the person he killed. Four years was nothing.

In front of the granite headstone, the grass was now overgrown, the tender spring shoots mingling with last year's dried blades, and he knelt and crossed himself, hoping somehow the pictures in his mind constituted a prayer. The scene that day ran across his mind again, and he prayed for God to suspend time and run it backward. But God didn't work that way that he ever could tell.

Time to go to work. He traced the name with his finger tips, then laid some flowers in front of the small tombstone.

He stood up, brushing the grass from his jeans. The pink of the roses bled into the green of the grave-grass as the spring wind and the grief he nurtured watered his eyes.

José skirted the graves and hurried down the lanes of the city cemetery, through the iron gates, toward the subway station. He could make this walk blindfolded after the past two years of pilgrimage.

The sun was rising, not looking down on him, but peering through alleys and over fences. José broke into a fast walk. He didn't realize he'd stayed by the grave so long. Manny would be furious if the kitchen wasn't running smoothly. And Manny got what he wanted: success, good horses, and, well, maybe not his share of women, but he didn't have time for them anyway. The two brothers were nothing alike. It made sense. But it didn't make working for him any easier.

He already had the staff dinner in mind when he unlocked the door, fl ipped on the lights, and heated up the ovens. He could feed people. Keep them alive for another day. This he could do.

And so he cooked, chopped and stirred, tasted and plated, each day, all day—the heat of the kitchen drawing out his sweat. It rolled into his eyes making them smart, and José let Manny yell and make fusses because he knew he deserved a lifetime of penance. And this penance wasn't given to him by his priest; it was given to him by God. Or rather that was what José had come to believe.

Two

S
he'd been nauseated for two weeks now. Every morning, there she'd be: head over the toilet, the smell of porcelain mixing with toilet water, not heavy and overpowering like one of the restrooms near the beach in Atlantic City, but that smell a person can't scrub away no matter how forcefully you swish the brush each week.

And those faint smells seemed to grow under the weight of a stomach so upset, even the thought of lasagna or fried fish, let alone bathroom odors, buckled it in two.

Crackers.

Nina grabbed a sleeve of saltines, devoured three, and headed out the door, down the steps, and into the mid morning street. At least it was springtime, and a warm one at that. She shoved her sweater into her large, backpack-style purse. Nina loved spring.

She was born in the spring. However, her birthday a week ago, the big two-five, could have well been the most depressing day of her life. Cassie, her best friend from high school, just had her first child, and of course she called, a fake trill in her voice when she talked about Nina living an exciting life, single in the city, trying to make a go of it in the arts, and how many people have that kind of dedication to keep going against all odds, that kind of stick-to-it-iveness? Amazing.

The boy who had grown up in the house next door had the same birthday and was in his second year of law school. Ryan e-mailed her like he always did, and she thought maybe she'd invite him out for a drink after she was done waiting tables at El Callejon.
The Alley
.

If all alleys were as nice as El Callejon, New York would be a better place, that was for sure. She'd been mugged once, been twice relieved of her purse, and here she remained in the city that slept with one eye open.

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