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Authors: Gayle Tzemach Lemmon

Ashley's War

Dedication

To all the unsung warriors. That you may never be forgotten.

To Rhoda Spielman Tzemach and Frances Spielman.

And to JL, who believed from the start.

Contents

 
  1. Dedication
  2. Author’s Note
  3. Acronyms
  4. Preface: Kandahar
  5. I: The Call to Serve
    1.   1.  
      Uncle Sam Needs
      You
    2.   2.  
      Hearing the Call to Serve
    3.   3.  
      The Landmark Inn
    4.   4.  
      100 Hours of Hell
    5.   5.  
      Making the Cut
    6.   6.  
      Training Days
    7.   7.  
      Diamonds Among Diamonds
  6. II: Deployment
    1.   8.  
      Arrival, Afghanistan
    2.   9.  
      Operation “Fit In”
    3. 10.  
      The “Terp”
    4. 11.  
      Climbing Mountains in the Night
    5. 12.  
      Making a Difference
    6. 13.  
      The Lies of War
  7. III: Last Roll Call
    1. 14.  
      The First Death
    2. 15.   
      A Grief Observed
    3. 16.   
      The Man in the Arena
    4. 17.   
      Kandahar
  8. Epilogue
  9. Acknowledgments
  10. Select Bibliography
  11. How to Get Involved with Veterans’ Issues
  12. About the Author
  13. Also by Gayle Tzemach Lemmon
  14. Credits
  15. Copyright
  16. About the Publisher

Author’s Note

T
his book is the product of twenty months of travel, hundreds of hours of interviews conducted in a dozen states across America, a review of primary research and documents, and an illuminating set of conversations with some of America’s most seasoned military leaders.

It also has been a puzzle to assemble, a privilege to tell, and a humbling responsibility to bring to life.

What follows is a ground-level view of the women who answered the call to serve with Special Operations Forces, soldiers who raised their hands right away when they heard of the chance to volunteer with the best in battle. Readers seeking to learn more about military tactics, decision making, and the formulation of military strategy will find several suggestions in the select bibliography that follows these pages.

Most names have been changed to protect those involved and those still connected to the special operations community. Some details have been omitted for the sake of security.

I had the privilege of meeting many men and women not mentioned in these pages. Each one had a story worth telling.

The soldiers who spoke with me shared their war stories not because they wish to be known—they do not—but because they want their friend and teammate to be remembered.

The stories are theirs. Any errors are mine.

At a time when the divide between those who volunteer to fight America’s wars and those who never served is wide and growing, it is more important than ever to know who these soldiers are and why they sign up to fight for the sake of the rest of us.

Whatever any of these soldiers do in the future, this past year has convinced me that nothing, ever, will come close to the year they spent serving on the battlefield alongside the men of America’s Special Operations Forces.

And no passage of years will lessen their sense of belonging to CST-2.

Acronyms

 

 

 

 

      DFAC   
   Dining facility   
      JOC   
   Joint Operations Center   
      JSOC   
   Joint Special Operations Command, based in Fayetteville, North Carolina   
      KAF   
   Kandahar Airfield   
      MP   
   Military Police   
      MREs   
   Meals, Ready to Eat   
      SF   
   Special Forces: the Green Berets   
      SOCOM   
   Special Operations Command, based in Tampa, Florida   
      SOF   
   Special Operations Forces, this includes Delta Force, Green Berets, Navy SEALs, 75th Ranger Regiment, Air Force Special Operations Command, Marine Corps Forces Special Operations Command   
      TOC   
   Tactical Operations Center   
      XO   
   Executive officer, the second in command in certain military units   

Preface: Kandahar

S
econd Lieutenant White entered the “ready room” and began preparing for the night of battle.

Kandahar, August 2011, 2200 hours
: a narrow room just off a main hallway, lined with plywood shelves and plastic drawers stuffed with rolls of Velcro, electrical cables, and heavy-duty packing tape. The smell of gun oil clung to the air. White had written down the long list of gear, and now calmly grabbed items the mission required:

Helmet and night vision goggles. Check.
Headset for communicating with platoon leader. Check.
M4 rifle. Check.
M9 pistol. Check.
Ammunition for both. Check, check.
Eye protection to keep dust and dirt from causing sudden blindness. Check.
Notecards and pens to document everything that was said and found. Check.
Clif Bars in case the mission went long. Check.
Jolly Ranchers and Tootsie Rolls for village kids. Check.
Tourniquets to stop the bleeding of a fellow soldier. Check.
Medical gloves.
Zip ties.
Water.
Check. Check. Check
.

White felt the fear rising, but more seasoned soldiers had provided plenty of advice for the special brand of trepidation that accompanies a soldier on their first night mission. “It gets easier after the first time,” they assured the newbies during training. “Don’t indulge it, just pass through it.”

Ready now, White stepped into the briefing room and took in the scene. Dozens of battle-hardened men from one of the Army’s fittest and finest teams, the elite special operations 75th Ranger Regiment, crowded in to watch a PowerPoint presentation in a large conference room. Many had Purple Hearts and deployments that reached into the double digits. Around them was the staff that supports soldiers in the field with intelligence, communications, and explosives disposal capabilities. Everyone was studying a diagram of the target compound as the commanders ticked through the mission plan in their own vernacular, a mix of Army shorthand and abbreviations that, to the uninitiated, sounded like a foreign language. But every person in the room knew precisely where they needed to be, what their role was, and how they would help accomplish the night’s mission.

White had the feeling of being in a Hollywood war movie. Standing nearby was a noncommissioned officer (NCO) and Iraq War veteran whom the second lieutenant had trained with.

“Are we supposed to say something?” White asked

Staff Sergeant Mason, also out for the first time, scooted closer and whispered back. Neither new arrival wanted to stand out any more than they already did.

“No, I don’t think so, not tonight. The last group will speak for us.”

That was a relief. White had no desire to draw attention in a room filled with soldiers who clearly felt at home in combat. Like a cast of actors who had performed the same play for a decade, they knew each other’s lines and moves, and offstage they knew each other’s backstories. It was an unexpected revelation for White, gleaned
during a fifteen-minute mission review in a makeshift conference room in the middle of one of Afghanistan’s most dangerous provinces: this was a family unit. A brotherhood.

The briefing ended, the commanding officer approached the front of the room and the soldiers suddenly shouted as one:

“Rangers Lead the Way!”

They saluted in a finely choreographed sweep and filed out.

The rookie second lieutenant did the same, hoping the gesture didn’t look too awkward for a first-timer, then followed the others, trailed by Sergeant Mason. They stepped into their office—a broom closet, actually—and exhaled for the first time.

“Whew,” White allowed.

“That shit is serious,” Mason said. “This is the real deal.”

Then, without another word, they began a systems check, testing the frequency of their radios to make sure they operated properly. This would be their lifeline while on mission. They triple-checked their night-vision goggles, which clipped onto the top of their helmets, and made sure they had batteries for all the electronics they carried: headsets, radios, and a red laser that allowed them to silently point things out to one another. By the time they exited the barracks each was carrying close to fifty pounds of gear.

In one of the many Velcroed pockets of White’s uniform was information about the insurgent they were after and a list of crimes he was suspected of committing. In another pocket was a medal of St. Joseph and a prayer card. White stepped out of the barracks and worked to conceal any trace of the intense emotions this moment conjured up: pride in being part of a team hunting a terrorist who was killing American soldiers and his own countrymen; trepidation at the thought that after a short ride on the bird they would all end up in his living room. But it was exactly what White had wanted and trained for: to serve with fellow soldiers in this long war and do something that mattered.

The fighters lined up by last name and marched into the yawning
darkness of the Kandahar night. Unlike the American cities they came from, whose skies were often clouded by the pollution of industry, traffic, and the millions of lights that power a modern, twenty-four-hour-a-day society, Kandahar’s blackness stretched on forever with constellations you only read about at home. The sky was glorious, and for just an instant White slowed and wondered at the sparkling celestial recital that was on display up above. But then a powerful stench yanked the young officer back into the moment. As heavenly as the skies were, just so earthly was the smell of human excrement that hovered over and seemed to surround the Kandahar camp. In a city whose sewage system had been all but destroyed by war, the smell of feces attacked with ferocity anytime a soldier was downwind.

But White was focused on something even more mundane: staying upright while marching along the unpaved, rock-strewn tarmac for the first time in total darkness. “Focus on the next step,” White silently commanded. “No mistakes. Do your job. Don’t mess up.”

Here and there came the sound of fellow soldiers ribbing one another, swapping jokes and gallows humor. But White also detected, in the orange ember of one Ranger’s dying cigarette, hints of the stress they all shared. They wore their exhaustion well, but it was there.

White and Mason fell in alongside their fellow special operations “enablers,” a group that included the explosive ordnance disposal guys who became famous in the Hollywood blockbuster
The Hurt Locker
. (Even if all the guys didn’t love the movie, every one of them could appreciate the scene at the end in the grocery store where a soldier who has just returned stateside scans the cereal aisle in all its overfed glory and wonders why any country needs so many choices.) Close behind was their interpreter, an Afghan-American now entering year four in Afghanistan. Language expertise notwithstanding, the interpreter’s gear looked like it came from the Eisenhower era. They all guessed some soldier had worn that helmet back in
Vietnam; it barely held the clips for night-vision goggles and was seriously dinged.

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