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Authors: Annie Murray

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All the Days of Our Lives

A
NNIE
M
URRAY

All the Days of Our Lives

PAN BOOKS

For Liz Downer,

with thanks for her friendship

Contents

 

1945

1931-1944

I: KATIE

One

Two

Three

Four

Five

Six

Seven

Eight

Nine

Ten

Eleven

Twelve

Thirteen

Fourteen

Fifteen

Sixteen

Seventeen

Eighteen

Nineteen

Twenty

Twenty-One

Twenty-Two

1946

II: MOLLY

Twenty-Three

Twenty-Four

Twenty-Five

Twenty-Six

III: EM

Twenty-Seven

Twenty-Eight

Twenty-Nine

IV: KATIE

Thirty

Thirty-One

Thirty-Two

V: MOLLY

Thirty-Three

Thirty-Four

Thirty-Five

VI: EM

Thirty-Six

Thirty-Seven

1948-1949

VII: KATIE

Thirty-Eight

Thirty-Nine

Forty

VIII: EM

Forty-One

Forty-Two

Forty-Three

IX: MOLLY

Forty-Four

Forty-Five

Forty-Six

X: KATIE

Forty-Seven

Forty-Eight

Forty-Nine

Fifty

Fifty-One

Fifty-Two

Fifty-Three

Fifty-Four

XI: EM

Fifty-Five

Fifty-Six

XII: KATIE

Fifty-Seven

Fifty-Eight

XIII: MOLLY

Fifty-Nine

XIV: EM

Sixty

XV: KATIE

Sixty-One

Sixty-Two

1953

1945

 

‘Mom, Mom!’ Robbie threw himself, sobbing, against his mother’s legs. ‘Wanna come with you!’

‘Oh,
Robbie
.’ Em, in the middle of buttoning up her cardigan, bent over, upset and exasperated. Her son’s head was clamped to her thighs and she stroked his hair, hating to see him cry. ‘Don’t do this, babby. Come on, let go now. Mommy’s got to go out for a bit, that’s all.’

Her mother, Cynthia, swooped down. ‘Robbie, stop that now.’ She managed to wrestle him up into her arms. ‘That’s right, come to Nanna. Your mom’s not going to be out for long. It’s just like when she goes to work. You’ve got to stop going on like this. That’s it – let’s sit you at the table and I’ll get you some nice bread and a scrape of jam, if there’s any left!’

‘Thanks, Mom.’ Em picked up her bag. Though a mother herself, she still looked young enough to be a schoolgirl. ‘I dunno what’s come over him.’

‘Oh, he’ll grow out of it. But I’ve told you, haven’t I? You need to be firmer with him.’ She stood behind Robbie, who was still grizzling, and gave Em one of her looks. ‘You sure you want to go over there? Seems a bit morbid to me.’

Em hesitated. ‘I’ve told Mr Perry I’m going – he gave me a couple of hours off. And I know Bert was . . . well, everyone knows how horrible he was, but I’m going for Molly. I just feel I should.’

Cynthia nodded. ‘I s’pose you’re right, love. And however vile he is – was – you have to feel some pity for the lad, with that family behind him.’

On her way out, Em glanced in the mirror by the front door and patted her straight, mousy hair. She almost despaired of keeping anything in the way of a curl or wave in it for long. The air in the street felt warmer than it had in the house, big white clouds sailing across the summer sky.

Em smiled to herself for a second, then adjusted her face. You’re going to a hanging, she rebuked herself. Blimey, a
hanging
! Bert Fox, Molly’s younger brother, whom Em had known all his life, was today due to be hanged by the neck until he was dead. Eight in the morning was the hangman’s hour, and it was already a quarter past. Walking to the bus stop, she realized with a shudder that Bert must have met his end – deep in the bowels of the prison somewhere, hidden from the eyes of the crowd outside – while she was eating the last of her breakfast and getting her cardigan on. The finality of it seemed terrible.

She climbed onto the crowded bus and paid her fare in a daze. Why
was
she going, like a tripper to a seaside attraction, to see the notice of the hanging on the doors of the prison? Bert had been a nasty, rat-faced little boy living in a yard along the street, who had grown into a sadistic, criminal man. All through the war he’d done nothing for the country but cheat and steal, with his band of mates, running all sorts of black-market rackets while evading the call-up. But it wasn’t that he’d been arrested for. The police only caught up with him after his latest hard-faced girlfriend had been found floating in the murky waters of the Cut – the Birmingham and Warwick Canal. She’d been strangled, and all evidence pointed to Bert Fox, then of Lupin Street, Vauxhall.

But Bert was the brother of one of Em’s best friends, Molly. And Molly, still in Belgium with her ack-ack battery, was not in a position to be present even if she’d wanted to be, which Em doubted. It felt wrong that no one should be there. Bert and Molly had had a cruel, squalid childhood, and Bert had at least tried to keep their drunken mother, Iris Fox, in some sort of comfort out of his criminal profits.

As she left the bus and its perspiring passengers, Em saw that going to the prison was a way of trying to tie parts of her life together when everything felt as if it was scattered apart. Molly was so far away, but most of all, Em was worried about her own husband Norm. The war in Europe may have been over, there was a new Prime Minister, Mr Attlee, a fresh start, but who knew how long the war in the East might go on? Em was horrified by the thought that Norm might be re-posted. He had miraculously survived so far – that was how Em felt – but if he was sent out east, surely his luck would run out? She ached for him to be home, to see their three-year-old son whom he’d never yet set eyes on, and to be a family properly, instead of all this waiting. Then she could stop feeling so anxious all the time. If going to pay her respects to Bert, however much he deserved what he’d got, could make things feel more right, then that’s what she’d do.

Walking across Cathedral Square to the next bus stop, she saw VOTE LABOUR flyers left over from the election, blown against the edge of the path. And she had voted Labour, though it did seem hard on old Winnie. Em didn’t dwell on politics much, but voting Labour seemed to mean that things would be fairer.

Shielding her eyes, she looked up at the grand edifice of St Philip’s Cathedral and thought that one day she must go inside and look. She had never been in there in all her life.

‘Oops – careful! You want to look where you’re going!’

The woman scolded, but did not really seem very cross, more amused. Em was aware of a green suit, remarkably vivid in these drab days, on a slender figure, neat black court shoes and dark hair taken up into a stylish pleat.

‘Oh – sorry!’ Em said, then looked more closely. ‘
Katie?
Katie O’Neill?’

Even after all this time, and in these smart clothes, the long, pale face of the girl who had once been her best friend was immediately familiar. She saw Katie recognize her and a confusion of emotions flicker across her face, first amusement fading in her eyes, then what seemed like fear, and finally a wary politeness.

‘I remember – you’re Emma Brown, aren’t you? You haven’t changed a bit.’

Em thought back to Cromwell Street School, where she, Katie and Molly had been classmates. She and Katie had been top of the class and best friends, playing and giggling their way through life – until Em’s family had run into troubles. After Cynthia had had Violet, Em’s youngest sister, she’d fallen into a depression and had to be taken into the asylum. Katie had turned against Em and had been unkind and spiteful, refusing to be friends any more, in a way that had hurt Em dreadfully at the time. Then, within about two years, Katie and her mother had disappeared from the area and Katie didn’t attend the school any longer.

These painful memories lay between them now, but Em wanted to forget the past; it seemed petty to dwell on things that happened when you were so young.

‘How’s your family?’ Katie asked politely. Em noticed that she spoke very nicely, with hardly a trace of an accent.

‘They’re all very well, thanks,’ Em said. She felt rather scruffy beside Katie, in her old frock and scuffed white shoes. ‘And yours?’

‘Yes, thanks. They are too.’

Another memory got in the way. Last year – it seemed another life, with the war still on. That was it, January 1944, that cold night, she knew she had seen Katie. That time Katie had almost run into her, rounding a corner not far from home. Em remembered it very clearly because she had seen such a look of wariness and desperation in Katie’s eyes as she hurried past, swathed in a big coat. And Em was sure she had not been mistaken in noticing that Katie had been cradling a tiny infant in her arms. But she could hardly ask her about that now.

‘That’s good,’ Em said. ‘Well, our mom’s much better these days.’ She found herself rattling out information in the hope that Katie might offer some back. ‘She’s very well, and she’s such a help to me because I’ve got a little boy, Robbie, he’s three and his dad’s away in the army. And our Sid – d’you remember him? He’s about to get married to his girl, Connie – they’ve been courting a good while.’

She saw Katie arrange her face in a pleasant, polite expression. She’d grown into a looker, Em thought. Her face was slender, pleasing in shape, eyes still that pretty sea-blue. While not unfriendly, it was clear she was not going to give anything away about herself.

‘Are you off to work?’ Em asked.

‘Yes.’ Katie made a gesture in front of her with her hand, but didn’t volunteer any more information. Perhaps her mom had made that suit, Em thought. They’d never seen much of Mrs O’Neill, who’d kept herself to herself, but hadn’t there been some talk of her being a tailoress? ‘Do you work in town too?’

‘Oh no!’ Em said. Again she found herself talking fast out of nerves. ‘No, the thing is, I’m going up to the nick – it’s . . . d’you remember Molly Fox, from over in the yard – and from Cromwell Street?’

A disgusted downturn of Katie’s mouth indicated that she did. She smoothed her skirt as if wiping away specks of dirt. ‘Oh my goodness, her. What a family!’

Em choked back the desire to snap:
Well, she was a better friend than you ever were, you with your spiteful, stuck-up ways!

‘They’re hanging her brother today.’ It came out abruptly and she kept her eyes on Katie’s face, watching the shock register.

‘No! I’d heard about it, but I hadn’t made the connection – that brother, what was he called?’

‘Albert. Bert.’ Before she could ask, Em added, ‘He strangled his girlfriend.’

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