A Sudden Light: A Novel

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CONTENTS

EPIGRAPH

PROLOGUE: THE CURSE

1.
THE NORTH ESTATE

2.
LEAVING NEW HAVEN

3.
DINNER IS SERVED

4.
THE MIGHTY ELIJAH

5.
IN THE NIGHT KITCHEN

6.
THE TALK

7.
THE BOOK OF JONES

8.
INNOCENCE LOST

9.
THE MOUNTAINS OF CALIFORNIA

10.
BEN’S WORLD

11.
BIRTHDAY DINNER

12.
ROOSEVELT AND HIS MAN PINCHOT

13.
THE DISCOVERY

14.
TREE CLIMBING

15.
AWAKE THE SLEEPING GIANT

16.
CHAMBER OF SECRETS

17.
THE RETURN OF THE HAND

18.
SERENA’S VISIT

19.
THE SEARCHERS

20.
THE COTTAGE

21.
NIGHT DANCING

22.
TELL ME ABOUT YOUR MOTHER

23.
THE BASEMENT

24.
AUTOMATIC WRITING

25.
THE DILEMMA

26.
DICKIE DANCES

27.
THE FALLEN

28.
THAT MAN’S FATHER IS MY FATHER’S SON

29.
A FIGHT OVERHEARD

30.
BEHOLD, THIS DREAMER!

31.
BAD AUNT

32.
BONFIRE OF THE MEMORIES

33.
QUID PRO QUO

34.
HOUSE OF STONES

35.
A SEDUCTION

36.
TRUTH OVER LOYALTY

37.
A SUDDEN LIGHT

38.
THE HAUNTING

39.
DOUBLE JEOPARDY

40.
BEN’S TREE

41.
THE DUMBWAITER

42.
REDEMPTION

43.
THE TRUTH WILL OUT

44.
THE LAST DANCE

45.
SAILING AWAY

46.
AFTER THE FALL

EPILOGUE: FINAL REUNION

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

READING GROUP GUIDE

ABOUT GARTH STEIN

for my dead father

We do not see things the way they are, we see them as we are.


ANAÏS NIN

– prologue –
THE CURSE

G
rowing up in rural Connecticut, I had been told the name Riddell meant something to people in the Northwest. My paternal great-great-grandfather was someone of significance, my mother explained to me. Elijah Riddell had accumulated a tremendous fortune in the timber industry, a fortune that was later lost by those who succeeded him. My forefathers had literally changed the face of America—with axes and two-man saws and diesel donkeys to buck the fallen, with mills to pulp the corpses and scatter the ashes, they carved out a place in history for us all. And that place, I was told, was cursed.

My mother, who was born of English peasant stock on the peninsula of Cornwall, made something of herself by following her passion for the written word, eventually writing the dissertation that would earn her a Ph.D. in comparative literature from Harvard University and becoming the first in her family to receive an advanced degree. Though she never did anything of note with her brilliance, she did carry it around with her
like a seed bag, sprinkling handfuls of it on what she deemed fertile soil. She spent much time quoting literature to me when I was young, thus sparking my own avid reading habits. So the theme of the Ancient Mariner and his story, as told by the poet and philosopher Samuel Taylor Coleridge—and how the Mariner’s story was emblematic of my family’s history—was something I had heard often before my fourteenth birthday.

The curse. When one destroys something of beauty and nature—as did the Mariner, who shot the kindly albatross that led his ship out of the perilous Antarctic seas—one will be punished. Cursed. My mother told me this; my father nodded when she did. Punishment will rain down upon the offender and the family of the offender, I was told, until the debt is settled.

The debt owed by my family has been paid, and then some. My mother believes our family’s story was settled with that debt—she has always maintained an unyielding faith in the cathartic power of denouement—which is why she has chosen to go for a walk this morning, rather than stay with us to hear me tell our story again. But I disagree with my mother: there is no tidy end to any story, as much as we might hope. Stories continue in all directions to include even the retelling of the stories themselves, as legend is informed by interpretation, and interpretation is informed by time. And so I tell my story to you, as the Mariner told his: he, standing outside the wedding party, snatching at a passing wrist, paralyzing his victim with his gaze; I, standing with my family at the edge of this immortal forest.

I tell this story because telling this story is what I must do.

Twenty-some years ago, before technology changed the world and terrorism struck fear into the hearts of all citizens. Before boys in trench coats stalked and murdered classrooms full of innocent children in schools across this fair land. Before the oceans were thick with oil slicks and the government ceased to govern and Bill Gates set out to love the world to death and hurricanes became powerful enough to stagger entire cities and toxic children were drugged into oblivion to drive up the profits of Big Pharma, and genetically modified foodstuffs were forced upon
us without us knowing we needed to care. Before smoking marijuana at gay marriages became passé—before gay people became, eh, just like anyone else, and weed became, eh, just another source of tax revenue. This was even before another famous Bill, the one surnamed Clinton, became famous for his choice of cigars. It seems like ages ago, looking back on it. No smartphones. No On Demand. Nary an iPad in sight.

So long ago. Yes. This story begins in 1990.

On a hot July day in Seattle, a sickly pea green rental car drives from Sea-Tac airport northward on Interstate 5, through the sprawl of neighborhoods hidden by hills, tucked away behind bridges and bodies of water. Its passengers, a father and a son, don’t speak to each other. The boy is nearly fourteen, and he is unhappy. Unhappy with being displaced from his childhood home and forced on an unwanted road trip. Unhappy with his mother for not being with him. Unhappy with his father for simply being. So he doesn’t speak; he concentrates on Pink Floyd’s
The Wall
, which he listens to intently through the headphones of his Walkman.

His father looks over at him frequently, nervously. He seems to crave the boy’s approval, which the boy will not give. As they approach the city from the south, the boy glances up and notices the Space Needle, that ubiquitous and baffling Seattle icon. He winces at the irrelevance of the monument—who on earth would build such a thing, and what kind of citizenry would
keep
it?—and lowers his eyes again to his shoes, which are far more interesting to him.

He doesn’t notice as they drive through the city, but drive through the city they do. They emerge on a high bridge.

“Don’t you want to see this?” the father says, finally, desperately, tapping the boy’s shoulder and indicating the glory of Seattle all around them.

The boy lifts his eyes and looks around. Bridges, lakes, bland buildings, radio towers, floatplanes, mountains, trees. He’s seen it.

“No,” he says and returns his focus to his music. The voices chant at him:
Tear down the wall. Tear down the wall.

And so my story for you begins.

– 1 –
THE NORTH ESTATE

W
hen we exited the freeway at the northern city limit, I remember being disappointed at plunging into typical American suburbia. A House of Fabrics and a Las Margaritas Mexican Restaurant. Cliff’s Card Room, Gene’s IGA, an ARCO station, a plumbing supplier. It was worse than I could have imagined. We crossed a bleak avenue at an intersection with far too many cars waiting to turn left on a green arrow. But then the street narrowed to two lanes instead of four, and the trees began to lean over the road, blocking the sky. I took note of the transformation. I clicked off my Walkman as my father turned our car onto a still smaller road and guided us down a drive; soon we reached a guard booth with a gate. My father rolled down his window; the door of the wooden booth slid open and a uniformed guard stepped out. He was an old guy and soft, and didn’t look like he could stop a full-out assault if someone wanted to lay siege to The North Estate, which he was evidently paid to defend.

“Who are you visiting?” the guard asked cheerfully.

“Not visiting,” my father said. “Coming home.”

The old guy cocked his head, and then realization swept over his face. “I’ll be good goddamned,” he said. “Jones Riddell.”

“Val,” my father said. “I can’t believe they still have you working the gate.”

“They tried to retire me a few years ago, but I couldn’t stand being alone all day so they took me back.”

Both men fell silent, and I remember feeling a nearly overwhelming urge to blurt out the blatantly obvious question:
How is sitting in a guard booth by yourself all day not the same as being alone?

“How long has it been, Jones? A long time.”

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